I picked up the phone quickly. It had to be Aster, why else would they be calling me? "Hello?"
"Hi, Jude Hayez?"
"Yes that's me." I answered a little too fast.
"Do you know Aster Jameson?" Her voice stuttered through the phone with forced confidence.
I ignored the 'Jameson' part. It peaked a slight interest for less than a second, but I was instantly brought back to feelings of concern. "Yeah is he there?"
"Yes, there was an.. Accident. Carl Wilson is here and he informed me to call you over."
I was already out the door, jumping in my car, and pulling out of my parking spot as quick as I could, "Alright. I'll be there soon. Can you give me any information about Aster? I'm his guardian currently."
I heard her whisper something away from the phone then she replied to me, "No I'm sorry. I'm not supposed to give out that information unless you're his legal family."
Well, I wasn't illegal. But I wasn't family either. I did have paper work filed at home stating that I was taking care of him but I figured I could deal with that when I got there.
I said thanks and hung up. I was driving as fast as I could without getting pulled over, and I even ran a few lights. But screw it. I soon pulled into the hospital parking lot and jumped out of my car not even caring about locking it, and ran inside the closest door.
I was met by the familiar smell of medicine and sterilization. I really did hate hospitals. The walls were pale, the clothes were pale. And everything looked sanitized, even though it was probably more dirty than any other place.
I walked up to the information desk. Before I could talk to the nurse I felt an arm on my shoulder. It was Wilson. I wasn't entirely happy to see him. Actually, I wasn't at all. I was still mad about this morning. And I couldn't shake the feeling that this had something to do with Aster disappearing and somehow ending up in the hospital.
"Jude. I'm sorry."
I looked up, his face ... looked sad? His lips were pursed as if he was trying to check his emotions.
What was going on..
I wasn't much of a crier, in fact, I rarely cried, but my eyes started to tear up."W-what happened?" I was stuttering over my words, assuming the worst after seeing my boss's face.
A nurse came up and took the place of Mr. Wilson, "Aster is in the emergency room, we're not sure if he's going to make it. His injuries are possibly fatal."
I couldn't breathe. I wasn't sobbing but my eyes wouldn't stop leaking.
Then I got angry, really angry, "Well what the fuck happened? Let me see him!"
I tried to push past the nurse, I was frantic and I just wanted to see Aster. I wanted to see his delicate face again. His golden eyes. His silky hair. I wanted to hold him. I needed to know if he was okay.
They didn't let me. Mr. Wilson was surprisingly strong. He pulled me back despite my protests, "Let me go! Please!" then I started to sob.
Fuck "being a man". Fuck having to stay strong for everyone. Who gives a shit if I cried.
The nurse came up and hugged me tight.
I was crying. Hard. My eyes were burning, my heart was was aching, and nobody even knew why.
I was in love with Aster. I loved him. I wanted him to be with me forever. I wanted to grow old with him. He couldn't leave me. He couldn't leave this world, I wouldn't let him.
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Chasing Suicide (BXB)
RomanceJude's life goal was to make people happy. People...or a person. Anyone really. He valued happiness more than anything and wanted to be able to share that if it meant possibly making someone else happy. He finally got his chance, but with Aster, th...