My mom visited me the following week at the center.
"Hi hon." she said sitting down on my futon couch. Her eyes were bloodshot.
"Mom." I looked down at my feet embarrassed that she came here drunk.
"Look, Just let me talk...this is important that you listen to me. Listen." she wiped her mascara streaked eyes.
"When i was 15 I was feeling like I was overweight and really fat. and I was...so I tried the 'cool' thing going on in school.
I started starving myself only allowing the occasional cracker. Sometimes I'd break down and eat a brownie. I'd be so ashamed so i would run to the toilet forcing it all up.
I called it...a life choice, when my mother questioned my strange diet.
Then...then i started to get super sick. I turned gray in the face and dropped to only 75 pounds.
I got help. Mom made me. In fact I came here before. My way of never going back to what I was..WHO I was is drinking. It numbs me."
She broke off in a sob.
"Mo-" I started. tears ran down my face and plopped onto my lap.
She held up a hand continuing. her own tears landed on her purse perched on her legs.
"Then I noticed you were getting a bit chunky. I started calling you fat...hoping you would go to the gym and not turn out like me. But I led you into this life...I know I did. I'm so sorry Hon." She looked up at me. Then at her hands. " I have to go."
"I love you." she looked at me waiting for me to repeat what I said.
I couldn't say anything. i was too shocked.
Mom nodded like she understood then left.
I cried myself to sleep again. It was like a ritual.
The next day some nurses came and gave me medicine and bad news.
My mom had commit suicide.
For about 3 months i just cried and lied in bed in agony.
My mom?
Why?
Now I have no one.
For a full year I stayed at the hospital.
They even let me get access to a computer.
I logged onto Facebook and searched Status Shuffle.
I copied and pasted a phrase onto it.
Sometimes life throws a curveball at you...you just have to hit it as hard as you can.
~Next chapter is my last ppl! thanks for sticking with me through all this! love u all~
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