Is This Love??? ✔

Final note- Temporary

Hello everyone,

You are probably wondering what is up with me uploading so many chapters today itself, including the final one. And if you are thinking that it is in response to all that happened (and is happening) in Instagram 2 days back, you are absolutely correct.

The reason I became a fan of Sam and Sivaangi's friendship is because of the love, care and most importantly, the ease and freedom that they shared. Something that I had with my friends. But lately it has always been about avoidance, tense silences, fake smiles and some confusing reactions. The old feeling of happiness and freedom is gone. I understand that this was bound to happen with their growth and increase in popularity. Yet.....
Despite everything I believed that it would not affect their peace nor mine, and everything that felt wrong was only due to external forces. Hoped that with time things will be alright. That hope was slowly reducing in size and now is almost next to nothing. And it is not right to just live in the past and destroy my peace trying to save it.😷

Now I have realized that more than defending some past happy memories, the peace and happiness of those I love is more important to me. As such my priorities have changed.😇
Don't get me wrong, I still love Sam and I am a great fan of Sivaangi's singing and antics, but I am no longer invested in trying to defend their friendship. And I will forever be grateful for them for introducing me to such awesome friends, beautiful hearts and amazing talents. For making me a part in the faNmily. They also gave life to my words, whether in the forms of writeups or fanfictions❤

Maybe things are not what they seem to be, maybe everything is alright, maybe I am wrong. But maybe, maybe, I am right and as such I feel that I have to try and do the best.

As to my fanfictions, those were written out of pure love for them. 'Across Time' was based on real incidents and real people but it talks of nothing except the friendship between them and there is nothing to be ashamed of in that. As to this story - 'Is it Love???', it was born out of my own imagination and except for the certain characteristics that I loved, Sanjay and Shiviga had no connection with Sam and Sivaangi. I mentioned earlier that the idea for the story came into my mind after they said that they will do a webseries together and I admit I borrowed them to give life to Sanjay and Shiviga. Therefore I see no point in deleting them or leaving them unfinished. Especially since you guys were so supporting and loving, I believed in giving closure to you. Besides I promised a happy ending to 'Is it Love???' and I always keep my promises. 😇
But also I cannot continue writing for them anymore for reasons I said above. Since I joined Wattpad only to write for them, it is difficult to try and change myself here. That is why I have decided to upload the rest of the chapters in one go. I would stilll love to her your thoughts about the story or Sanjay and Shiviga, but again would understand if you chose not to.❤

I hope you understand my decisions. It is for myself and I understand if you do not agree. And I hope that none of my words have hurt you. If so, I apologize, that was not my intention and wish you all the best in life.
Thankyou.

Much love,
M.

(P.S: I will delete this in a day or two, because I owe no explanations of my actions to anyone. And this won't make sense to anybody one or two weeks later, probably not even now😅. But I wanted to give a reason for doing it this way to you, my loving readers. Tomorrow is a new day of a new month and it will be a new start for me 😊. I am trying to protect my peace of mind and you should protect yours, the way you think is right.❤)

EDIT on 5/12/2021:

Hi! Intha Author's note a konja naalula delete panniduvan nu sonnen but the comments are so sweet and very close to my heart. So konjam selfish a konja naal irukatumnu vitutan. Also ennoda mindstate intha chapter oda commentsku replies irunthu puriyum. And later on intha story yaarum read pannumpothu athu romba important. I don't want to hide anything or cheat anyone.
So itha apdiye vitralaamnu nenaikran.
Hope you understand.
Love, Peace, Positivity.🥰