Caffeine Withdrawals: An Unspoken Collaboration

Music is More Than Just Sounds (editEd)

Hello, special thank you to caffEine93 for choosing me to be one of the many wonderful people in this project. I am really honored.

So I am going to tell you a story about my ten your old brother. You see, my brother Robert is special, we think he has Asperger (ass - burg - ers) syndrome, but his teacher tells us there is nothing wrong with him. Robert doesn't really have friends because he doesn't know how to make them, and when he does, the friendship has to be on his terms- like they are signing a contract...... like Sheldon from the Big Bang theory. Robert lately has been really depressed and it's hard for me to see such a happy smiling little kid change to a depressed, never come out of his room kid in just a few years. My mom tries her hardest, well she went through this with me when I was younger, but Robert is a lot worse than I was. He goes to a social group to be with kids just like him and the kids think he is weird. It's like no matter how much we try, nothing is working. But what makes me feel dead inside is that my ten year old brother tells me how he wants to kill him self, it tears me apart to know a ten year old has these feelings.

Whenever I am doing one on one playing with him, not only because it's good to just have one on one with someone you love when you're going through therapy, but because I feel like I've missed a part of his life and I need to be here for him the most. But we play music together. My favorite part is seeing his smile and knowing at that split moment that he is okay and there is some hope. Robert loves Hey There Delilah by The Plain White T's and he makes me laugh. I think he knows something is wrong and he gets more sad but he gets happy when I pull out my guitar.

Having a brother with a major disability has made me want to become a musical therapist for the autistic. Music is a lot more than just sounds- it's a way of telling people 'thank you', or 'help'. It's a cry of emotions and fears. Music is helping Robert save his life and it can help so many other people. Love can be found with a beat and some truthful lyrics and I plan on loving a lot of little kids :)

Off Spring taught me to come out and play and to go far. Metalica taught me to ride the lightning and to seek and destroy. Iron Maiden taught me to run to the hills and help my fear for darkness. No Doubt taught me that it's my life and to get in line. Paramore told me that's what you get. Mother Mother told me to fall in love. Blink-182 taught me what my age was and to stay up all night. Red Hot Chili Peppers taught me to dream of californication and to give it away. The Script taught me how to cry and to break even. Mumford and Sons taught me how to wait for someone. Of Mice and Men taught me compassion. The Beastie boys taught me to fight for my right and to not sleep till Brooklyn. Sublime told that love is what I got, The Beatles taught me to let it be and all you need is love. John Lennon taught me how to imagine, Queen gave me somebody to love and taught me how to break free. Black Veil Brides taught me how to set fire to the world and to never give in, Mariana's Trench taught me that there's somebody beside me and to cross my heart. Simple Plan taught me to do anything, Green Day taught me how to have the time of my life. Nirvana taught me to come as I am and stuff about a girl. Philip Philips told me there's a place that's my home, One Direction taught me to love my little things. Some people are like music, some are just noise but others speak art and truth