l just got back from work, I mean where I serve while i relax my head on my bed as I began to think about this happening around
Things suddenly began to change and as usual we give it an excuse of being busy and tired but unfortunately we don't know what we are putting at risk.
Everyone need to get a life but it affecting our group chat making it boring coz we no longer chat often
It got to a point that we didn't hear from ourselves and this really getting me pissed off
I don't just get it but right now I felt something is just not right but how will I know when the guys aren't even that border about us again.
any time I tell them they keep saying they are walking towards it
I couldn't take it any longer I have to come to the root of this.......but how will I?
After having a thought about everything happening I still think I need to fix this before it gets out of hand but I can't do it all alone!
Bose lost her phone so she couldn't communicate with us neither could we!
Precious on the other hand is already tired of trying and presently we both aren't in good terms, it been like months now we last see and talked ever since we had an argument
It happens that anytime i visit her i always notice her ring on her makeup table instead on her finger and she always give excuse of removing it to wash or something else.
I have to keep telling her things is going to be better that she don't have to just give up!
But that day she happened to visit me I noticed her ring weren't on her finger which I asked and she just responded telling me it not even necessary that we should just stop pretending to ourselves and face the reality, after all how sure are we that the guys aren't cheating on us.
I can't but just open my mouth in disbelief at what I just heard, well i don't see her fault in this she might be right but should we join them instead of finding solution?
I spoke her out of her thought but she kept arguing with me making me look like a fool and I had no choice but confront her!
i bluntly told her she seeing someone else or planing to cox a lady in her free state of mind won't say that except there is more to it
well i wasnt wrong.
i can still remembered what happened that particular day, her words at me that same day! It was so hurting and even right now it hurt more like that day
i just cry myself out that day cox have lost my friend to something else.
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She spoke immediately she realise she couldn't hide it from me any longer
so you want to claim miss right?
Okay fine am having affair with someone and do you have a problem with that?
well no you don't!
it high time you stop making my problem yours! she shouted
i just watch her as she continue asking question that I couldn't answer myself
but that doesn't stop there as she continues, seeing I couldn't answer her question
well even if you do, that your problem, if you don't know what to do with your time go and get a life maybe find someone to love you just like Richard loved and begged for your love cox i don't think you can even love
Beside the guy you fighting for how do you even know if he still love you, he might even be at the lap of another lady who showed him love or maybe he has experience love you couldn't give to him and that why he has forgotten about you
He must really be smart, be there claiming miss right up and down!
Those words was hell too much for me that I couldn't bear them any longer as tears roll down my face to my cloth!
How on earth will she say that to me, what have i even done to deserve this or was it a mistake i gave Richard a chance in my life?
well i can't stand this anymore!
At the top of my voice I shouted at her to stop and I told her any more word from her then she wont like what I will do next!
Of cox she was quite fearing what could be the outcome, she hasn't see me shout at anyone before not even to her.
Now get out of my house i told her looking into her eye but she didn't stand up she was still staring at me like she has just seen a ghost
are you still sitting? or you want me to throw you out?
she immediately got up and was about to go and then she stops and said
One more thing before I go " Am Going Out There To Get A Better Life Apart From This Pretentious Kind Of Life Am Just Tired!
She left banging the door behind her
Woops!
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Ever since the incident things became tough that I had a rethink of what she said but the thing is am not a relationship type of lady, My relationship with Richard was the first and guess should be the last
No matter how hard i tried to erase such thought it keep coming to my mind so I decide to give it a try to have life out of all this.
wondering?
well you should but after trying i just see that most guys just want to have sex with you nothing more and the ones wanting something serious with you there is no feeling attached
How can you date someone you don't even have feels for?
if you have ever being in such relationship you did know wat I mean!
My God it really boring and annoying right?
Still lying down on my bed with head face to the ceiling at my apartment thinking about our old memories
what a beautiful memories to view
my face was enlighten and I began to see why things are happening like this
Something need to be done and what could this be?
I immediately stood up to do something but what exactly must I do??????????? I don't even have anything in mind and I can't still do it alone!
I just relax back and that was how I slept off thinking of a better plan.
Good friends are like that stars you must cherish forever!
