Bughead || recovering

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this story has mentions of self harm
I still remember the day we met in December
we were little kids , and the hatred started from what felt like the first time we'd ever seen one another , bumping into each other witch progressed into a fight , up until junior year , I'm 16 , and your 17 , though nobody saw me for almost a year since the incident .
  It was Saturday night , I was taking so much drugs and I couldn't process that it was to much , I remember asking everyone around me to help me get home or anything , but they were just as dazed and confused as I was , it was faint but I remember my parents finding me passed out on the lawn or something , the year prior to that I was just killing my liver , I had to go into emergency surgery and stayed at the hospital for 2 weeks until I got thrown into a mental institution for another two months , witch didn't help because a 3 weeks later I was back , it's been 9 months since then , my arm still looks gross , I keep bandages on it all the time , I look dead, I'm extremely pale , my hairs thin , my face structure just feels so , dead , I'm tired , all the time. I've hardly left my house in the last year.
Besides therapy, schools starting eventually and
It feels like I'm being thrown into the real world with no time for preparations
With this new school year I feel like I've been given a second chance and this one I can't mess up , I made lots of dumb decisions under the influence of drugs , feeling like I was locked in a Cage and thrown away the key , pills and smoking any form of damaging my body was my only escape , I've been out of rehab for a month now and my life feels like a repetitive
Cycle of waking up reading hardly eating and sleeping ,
Before I disappeared I left my reputation as a picture perfect high school it girl
Nobody knew that i was addicted , to there knowledge they just think
I went crazy and locked myself up in my room , my mother made up
Some exaggerated lie that I moved away to Italy for school for a year.
Nothing because she was embarrassed of her daughter being sick but because she was afraid how I would take everyone looking at my like I was a dead girl walking ,
It was the first day of school and I saw saying bye to my mom before I drove off to school ,
Witch took me a whi,e to get into considering that I spent fifteen minutes crying in my
Dads car , eventually though I walked in and everyone stared me up and down
Like I was a ghost , I maintained a low profile for the most part,
But then lunch time rolled around , I was at the school yard sitting on a bench when
Cheryl blossom walked up to me, "hi Betty" "oh , hi Cheryl"
"What are you doing here sitting all by yourself"
"Nothing really why" "how was Italy" "it was , fun"
"That's nice, it was kinda weird how you just disappeared and Polly just told everyone you moved away for a bit" , I nodded "yeah it was pretty sudden" "you didn't text or anything" she said , "I wasn't allowed to have my phone" , she nodded "cmon let's go to the cafeteria"
In the cafeteria I walked in with Cheryl , and sat at the table I used to sit at,
Everyone seemed surprised to see me , asking all sorts of
Questions that I lied to , I sat next to heather , my inky memory of her was me hating her , and since I was gone all of last year she filled the void that was me
I didn't mind though.
She lifted my sleeve and lifted my bandage , I covered it quickly
"Wow betty" "I've been here for 5 minutes and you're already acting like this"
"So what did you go to Italy or did you just lock yourself in your room playing violin on your arms" "no but you can shut the fuck up"
"Oh calm down , we all knew you'd reach your breaking point sooner or later"
"Oh please , you fed off of who I once was , the second I was gonna you stepped
into my place like the movie heathers"
She walked out the cafeteria within 5 minutes Cheryl was tapping in my shoulder showing me a Instagram story ,
"Betty cooper is a dumb anorexic slut who didn't go to Italy
She took a trip to the loony bin instead, just ask her wrist" i walked out the cafeteria and waited for the bell to ring , then walked to her locked , witch I knew because they never change , I walked up to her and without marking slapped her witch lead
To a entire bitch fit in the middle of the school hallway , then two guys pulled us off each other and held us back
"You hide behind this high school facade , but we all know that you are just a shallow bitch with a pretty face "
She stormed off , and keep in mind there was a huge crowd in the hallway watching
Then the principal ran out and made me go to the office
"Violence in any form is not tolerated here"
"Look what she posted about me" , as I showed him her Instagram story
"yes and she'll be punished for it as well, but so will you"
I nodded , after staying In the office for a bit the bell rang witch meant school was over ,
I was at my locker when the infamous jughead Jones approached me,
"I saw your little bitch fit in the hall earlier" , before closing my locker I knew who it was, "glad you enjoyed the show"
"so we're have you been" "why" I asked ,
"Because I'm curious" "well don't be" I noticed him look down at my arms
Witch caused me to pull my sleeve over my bandages
"Could you not, and I just went to Italy"
"Sure" , he said sarcastically "
"I heard you and heather are a thing" "why? You jealous?"
"So what do you guys just go on dates and talk about yourself for a hour"
"God I would've assumed that after you disappearing for a year would make you lighten up  here , maybe this will help you loosen up , even a little"
He handed me a few pills in my hand , and I looked at the, for a few seconds not knowing how to react, and feeling triggered in a way , until my brother walked by and grabbed them from my hand and threw them on the floor "get that shit away from her" then grabbed my hand and led me to his car , I sat in silence for a bit "what happened back there" "nothing"