I was taught as a child to love myself.
But that’s the last thing I did
Because while they said that to my face
What they had said behind my back was closer to the truth.
To me the grass was always greener.
I wanted the curly hair and I wanted to not be so freakishly tall.
But that’s who I was
And that’s who I am.
My complication was never tainted by anyone other than myself.
But eventually I left that alone because it wasn’t the battle I had to fight.
My outside appeal was never questioned
It was the abnormalities of my uniqueness.
Yes, I was the girl who got held back
And I didn’t know how to read in my first year of first grade.
I was the child who was consider handicap
But I never looked at myself as that.
I was the child who was yelled at by a teacher because I took too long on a test.
So obviously I had no intelligence to the rest of the world.
I am the person who couldn’t jump rope and ran into walls
Because I had no coordination.
I am the person who has been in and out of depression.
I am the person who has anxiety and panic attacks.
I am the person who has five disabilities.
But while the rest of the world may count me as another statistic
Another mistake
Another abnormality
I choose to ignore those words
To form an opinion of my own
Instead of this illusion you create to make yourselves look perfect.
You tried to put the drape on me
But it ripped in half as I fell to the ground.
And I tried to hide under it for as long as I could.
Ignoring the odds and demons that hide in my purse.
Because I was stuck in this eclipse of emotions
Where all I could do was rearrange the colors in order
To hide the truth.
But finally I have freed myself into my own collection of thoughts.
Because the opinion of the world is nothing but mutiny.
Because the opinion of the world is perfection
And perfection does not exist!
So I will better myself for myself.
I will allow myself to be fearless of myself.
Because the only person whose scarred of my opinion
Is the man who’s afraid he’s wrong!
…and I’m not afraid of being wrong
Or making a mistake.
Because at least they’re my mistakes.
Instead of the mistake of the mask
That was made by someone else…
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Broken Puzzle
PoetryWe're all a little broken and truth is, none of us fit in. But we try and conform, whether you want to believe it or not, we all do. However, day by day we slowly lose ourselves and thats when you feel stuck.