my brother's best friend

025

two weeks later
mattia's pov

i miss her so much. i miss her voice. her touch. her scent. her lips. her everything. but it was all a waste. i guess i just wasn't enough for her. i gave her my all but that still wasn't enough. i looked down at my phone to see another missed call from her. my wallpaper showing up once the incoming call had ended.

her eyes looking right up at me causing me to smile just a bit. god, i can't believe how in love i am with this girl. something keeps telling me to hear her out but i'm not really sure about it. i don't want to continue wasting my time.

"you good, bro?"

kairi walked into the room with a water bottle in his hand. i sighed and laid my head back against the headboard, shutting my eyes as i do.

"i'll assume that's yes"

he throws the water bottle at me as he sits down on my gaming chair. we sat in a calming silence, just in our own thoughts.

"i miss her so much"

i randomly blurt out. he chuckled and shook his head as he sat up. i kept my eyes on the white ceiling as he spoke to me.

"there it is. just talk to her bro. hear her out. maybe this was all just a big misunderstanding. you'll never know the truth unless you talk to her, mattia"

i furrow my eyebrows and looked at him.

"but what if it wasn't a misunderstanding? what if she did cheat on me? what if all the love i gave her was a waste-"

"again, you'll never know unless you talk to her. all of these questions you have will eat you up if you don't get the answers to them and we both know the only way to get those answers is if you hear her out"

i took in his words and thought about it very well. maybe i should talk to her. i need to talk to her, see her, feel her. god, it's been more than two fucking weeks, almost three, and i feel like i won't survive another without her.

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avina's pov

"it's no use"

i flipped my phone upside down and brought my knees up to my chest. i wrapped my arms around my body and just sat there in silence. a very loud silence. i can't believe i lost him. i lost the only person that made me feel okay. made me feel loved. made me feel safe. i lost him.

i close my eyes as i feel a cold breeze hit me. my window was open, letting the cold wind inside the dark room. my curtains slightly moving with the wind. i buried my face in my hands, trying to think of another way to get him to speak to me but i knew there was no point anymore. he made a choice to cut me off and i don't blame him. i would cut myself off too but the thing here is, i did nothing wrong. absolutely nothing wrong.

i need to talk to him and let him know that. maybe i should try one more time.

i took my phone in my hand, turned it on, and unlocked it. i hesitantly clicked on his contact one more time. i brought my phone up to my ear, the line ringing in my ear as i waited for him to pick up. even though i knew he wasn't, i had a feeling. a feeling of hope.

and i was right.

he picked up. a wave of relief washed over me knowing he hadn't blocked me. it was silent on the other end of the line which didn't surprise me.

"mattia?"

i whispered.i could barely even hear myself. it was silent for a moment until his soft voice spoke.

"hi"

my eyes widen as i smile to myself, letting a few tears escape my eyes. god, i missed his voice so fucking much.

"hi"

i excitedly laughed as he did too, not believing he had picked up. i can already see the stupid smile on his face. ugh, that stupid smile that always made my heart jump.

"um, can i maybe come over? i understand if you say no but, i really need to see you"

it was silent once again. i began to grow worried but he finally spoke.

"of course, i'll be waiting for you"

and with that, he hung up. i slowly put my phone back down as the smile on my face grew bigger. i can't wait to see his beautiful face, kiss his lips.

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