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June 1 2022, 12:55 pm

DINNGGGG ! DINNGGGGG !  Another annoying sound pierced my ears. It was the bell . As much as i wished it was the bell to leave, it was lunch time. The silence of the class broke with the sounds of everyone frantically shoving their useless papers into the deep dark abyss of what people called their back packs. You could tell everyone was ready to get the fuck out of their classes . The sounds of the papers mixed with people continuing their conversations they started in the beginning of the period . From the new drama to , the last episode of their favorite Netflix shows , to the "i broke up with my boyfriend again ," talk for the hundredth time this week. See i don't really see the use in relationships. Yes of course I've had a few girlfriends back in my day but other than that, this year i was pretty happy with being alone. I cant imagine being tied down into a relationship where someone else was to tell me what and what not to do . That's not even true love at that point, it was just controlling . As I walked into the cafeteria, the smell of burnt chicken nuggets and fish sticks arose in the air. I usually have a group of friends to sit with at lunch , but as friends are, we all act the same . Sleeping through our alarms. At this time they are probably just now getting up & making themselves a bowl of cereal in a dirty bowl they used for their late night snack . I sit at one of the tables and open up a bag of half eaten purple Doritos i put in my backpack the last time i came to school . In the corner of my eye i see a flash of pink. It was her again. My heart skipped a beat for some reason, I haven't felt that way since.. never mind. She sat down, made herself at home really quickly, and opened up her small chocolate milk carton and took a swig like it was alcohol. "Hey man , you look lonely," she said looking me up and down with a remorseful look. "I'm not, thanks for your concern though, it's kinda peaceful to just sit here and chill by myself with no one to worry about," i said even though i was really happy to see she came back to talk to me. "Oh really well that's good. I came over here because I'm sick and tired of hearing people talk about that fight that happened Wednesday," she sighed looking around the cafeteria as if she was looking to see if her friends would call her back to her table . "I wasn't there Wednesday but i heard about it , not meaning to bring it up but what happened?" I asked hoping she would give me some type of answer. "Honestly i don't know man , i saw part of it , there was this one guy. He was wearing a purple Lakers shirt , he was getting his shit rocked i know that for sure," she chuckled looking to the side as if she was trying to recall what happened . "Seems pretty uhmmm .. eventful" i said trying to string some words together . " Yeah it was , but it got old , i'm not the type of person to just sit and talk about people for hours on end , i don't know how people do it. It's kind of childish in my opinion. It gets boring." She said very drawn to the subject . I could tell you she had good values and good standards . I don't know why she doesn't just leave her friends. She was too good for them. I guess everyone see something special in someone . " I agree i can't stand people like that , i much rather eat lunch by myself and chill looking like a loner than sit and talk shit about someone who doesn't even know you exist," I admit to her , that's why i don't talk to anyone here . It's useless , it like talking to a brick wall that throws out random peoples names every 5 minutes . "AJA!" Someone across the lunchroom shouted towards our direction. It was one of her friends . "Wish me luck hoe," she said as she took a deep breath, picked up her chocolate milk, and walked away. I felt her breeze go past me as she left , it smelled like shea butter and vanilla. "She's a rare one" i said to myself . Very rare to see people care about other people feelings . I put my head down and i drifted again off into a never ending sleep. The sounds of people talking became muffled . 2 more hours i thought in my head . Just 2 till i leave this awful place.