That feeling of not knowing what to do anymore. Missing every day. I dont understand... I see him every fucking day. He hasnt left my mind... I see him. I know him. I cant not know him. ( yes, i did just use a double negative. It bothers me, but i had to use it )
He knows me better than most. He hurt me more than anyone every could. He did onto me what was put upon him. He got close, let me fall then left me with out any sense of hope. The thing is, is that i dont know what i did..
"He said your too much to handle.." I was happy for once and he left... I still dont understand what i did to him.. But what can you do. Nothing i guess. Just live life. Try to forget now. Like the 11th doctor. He tried to forget.. He succeeded too. Then he remembered. He always remembers.
I just want him back. For him to come to me about things that bother him, what he fears, what pisses him off. But he doesnt. He wont.
I already forgave... its time to let go and forget . ⛵
