Chapter 17

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'She called me dad'
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(CW// self harm hints (?) and depersonalization
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Tommy

The next day was weird I guess you could say, I woke up around 7:30 am because I had forgotten to turn my alarm off for the next week so that's the first thing I did.

I sat up and looked at my wrists...which have new bandages...then everything that happened yesterday comes back to mind.

Phil walked in on my breakdown, I was vulnerable with him, he saw everything...and I called him dad.

'Fucking embarrassing'

I groan and bury my head in my pillow, I stay like that for a few minutes before finally deciding to stop being pitiful and get up to go shower.

---Small time skip cause why not---

I got out of the shower and got dressed in something casual.

(Technically not a 'face claim' but I'm using outfit photos from a girl on Pinterest for Tommy cause uh DRIP?, though if she ever sees this I'm going to bury myself 6 ft under so uh yeah)

Ουπς! Αυτή η εικόνα δεν ακολουθεί τους κανόνες περιεχομένου. Για να συνεχίσεις με την δημοσίευση, παρακαλώ αφαίρεσε την ή ανέβασε διαφορετική εικόνα.

(Technically not a 'face claim' but I'm using outfit photos from a girl on Pinterest for Tommy cause uh DRIP?, though if she ever sees this I'm going to bury myself 6 ft under so uh yeah)

My hair is short now but it looks like shit so I put a beanie over it.

I stand in front of my bathroom mirror and I can't help but stare at myself...I want to be alright, I really do but right now I don't even feel real.

It's like I'm seeing life through my eyes but my body feels like it's vacant, just empty, and when I move I feel like I'm on autopilot...IS THIS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE ON DRUGS, AM I HIGH?

"What. The. Fuck" I mumble, now looking at my hands.

'I hate this feeling'

After like 10 minutes of enduring this shitty feeling I decide to go downstairs for breakfast, maybe it's because I haven't eaten since yesterday.

As soon as I open the door my nose is filled with the warm smell of vanilla and sugar, the kind of scent you would smell at your grandmothers house during a cold morning.

I hear my brothers talking to Phil I assume, it was nothing new so I went downstairs even though my body screamed at me to go back to sleep.

Walking down the stairs was horrid but I went with it, as I step foot off of the last stair I look to see Phil cooking and the twins taking jabs at each other like usual.

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