I've had this really bad habit ever since I was a little girl.
Caring about the wrong people.
Giving those people all my affection and trying my best to make them happy - leading myself to fall apart.
"They don't care about you. Why do you care so much?" Words I'd always hear from my mother.
"Just let go" Words I'd hear from my best friend.
"You're making a fool out of yourself" Words I'd hear from myself.
Maybe Brooke and Corpse were a better match?
"Corpse would've told you he doesn't love her instead of leaving you on the line" The voice in my head spoke.
Were they talking right now?
Right now when Corpse knows what I'm thinking.
"I don't love her, Addy" I wish he had said those words to reassure me.
He didn't.
I grabbed my guitar and let my thoughts play through my fingers.
My lips parted but I shut them when Liv came in.
"Dude, you good?" She looked down at my frustrated face.
Her gaze turned to the guitar in my hands and I immediately let go of it it.
"Oh, Fuck!" I yelled as it fell down on my right foot.
"I'm sorry" She gasped and hung my guitar back up on the wall.
"It was my fault, don't worry" I smiled as I started cleaning the mess around me out of embarrassment.
"Need help there?"
"No, could you actually just leave me alone please?" I cupped my face and sighed.
"Sure" She gave me a weak smile and closed my door.
"Fuck" I mumbled.
incoming call from Corpse
accept ✔️ decline ✖️
accepted ✔️
phone call
"Hello?" I was holding my phone with my shoulder while looking for my notebook.
"I talked with Brooke"
His words made me drop all the books and paper in my hands even though I'd expected him to say this.
"What'd she tell you?" My whole concentration was focused on this call.
"Nothing important" he cleared his throat, "Just about some of her future plans"
"F-future plans?" I mumbled, "So she didn't confess to you?"
"What?" He replied to me and started laughing.
"What's so funny?"
"Why'd you think she confessed to me?"
I didn't want to be that Bitch so I decided not to tell him what she'd told me.
"I don't know.. I just assumed the worst" I lied.
"The worst?" he giggled, "Would you be mad if she'd told me she liked me?"
"Wha- No! No.. Ew" I gasped and was getting red.
"I didn't even say anything about you liking me, you literally exposed yourself"
"Go to hell Corpse"
"Only if you come along"
you ended the call.
reality
"Idiot" I shook my head and laughed.
My room was a mess - paper, books and dog treats were all over the floor.
"Time to clean" I mumbled but I soon got distracted by my dog, Sin.
iMessage
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i'm not even interested in him
but i know enough about your feelings towards him now <3
reality
My heart stopped beating when I saw the texts from Brooke.
How on earth could anyone be so cold hearted?
What did I ever do to her other than having a short argument during a fucking game?
If she tells Corpse - I can just say she's lying, right?
Why would he believe Brooke in first place?
"Get your shit together, Addy" I tried to calm myself down and it worked.
That Bitch has nothing to threaten me with.
A/N please keep in mind that this is not reality - brooke's character isn't like the actual brooke. thought i'd have to say this bc some ppl seem to be confused?
