" In most cases, alleged anti-social bahaviour is evidence of extremely social action. We won't lie to the people. We are not gods. It is not possible for us to defend and protect everything that lives and has a heart. We do not make it our business to save this lost planet, but we do our best to protect those who deserve it and give them what is called a carefree life. We protect what needs to be protected and that includes using all the power at our disposal to fight the obstacles that stand in the way of your deserved peace ! " - quote, "the Young"
I was lying in one of my permissive black-gold swimsuits on the sundeck of the cold, black yacht. The middday sun burned into my smooth skin and i looked far into the distance, where the untamed ocean had to touch the land. I looked at the distant cliffs, the rugged ochre-colored limestone rocks, and the resinscented cedars that stretched out their long, dry branches toward the sea.
Somehow they seemed to reach for me. They seemed to think that I belong to that distant land. They wanted me to stay.
They showed no sign of mercy.
Well ...I should not care that much about what those dirty trees might want ...and instead what I want, shouldn't I?
I focused the deep blue waves beneath me, the way they hit the sides of the boat with full force and made everything shake.
Me or the glass with light, yellow, bubbling champagne, inside the expensive plain glass. The liquid reflected in the sun and threw its goldan shadows on the small white table in front of me. The monotonous movement, arround ten past midday...
I guess that every beautiful girl my age would appreciate the harmonous nature , the water, the wether their life. There won't be a sign or glimps of revolution in their sparkling eyes, no awarness, no doubts. You know what? You people out there, I do.
I doubt...many..many times, a day.
For me this is not a beautiful dream, that has come true (because of our so loved governers)
but a curse that has been a reality all my whole fucking life!. because nothing, not the boat, not the glass, even the clothes that dress my body really belong to me. No one in Europe owns anything but the dynasty. All I "have" is borrowed for a limited time, if they want they can take everything from one day to the next. That this has not been the case so far, we owe it to our parents, who have so far knitted everything that was required of them. and by everything. I mean everything.
Don't missundestand. I know that they think, that they do their best, their utmost
but have I no right to wish for privacy? to wish for own property by law and a stable life where no one would be allowed to handle everything without a reasonable permission?
I dream.
I am not a good daughter. sure. Thats true. ya fine....
I am not a so dam good daughter, so grateful to my beloved parents, Morgan and Cline for not even trying to change something of the current situation.
They are prowd of what they have become. They don't even notice that they live in a pink soap bubble, that threatens to burst every second. I've been trying to talk to them and argue with them. Always with the same result. I was the evil one and i had to be lucky that my own flash and bone did not already hand me over to the "protectors", the henchman of the commanders who run our district and belong to the young. I allways lived with this fear in blood and bones, with them being unsupportive. Unloyal to their daughter. Me.
Their little Eve. or just the naive.
But lets give you all some backround information...in current politics
I think that nowadays there are three groups that a european citizen can belong to. The first group is just like my family who don't even relize what loyal dogs they are and then there are those who are like me. We want to see "the Young" burning in flames and try to use all the possibilities to gain power and keep the appearance of the good citizen, to eventually get up and put our real project into practice.
Then we have those who notice the unrightfulnes and dare to act abruptly. It's the stupidest idea. Most of the time, this ends in a huge massacre that is also portrayed by the media as if it had been pure defense. I am not that simple and stupid as to believe that i could change something in my current situation and i am not as helpless as to beleave that their won't be an over choice, not yet.
Or I still i can change it, depending on what's writen in the white letter I received three days ago and didn't dare to open.
It contains the results from the first test, which can be taken djuring the last week of school. About two-thirds of the students take the test, about 20% pass. The knowledge is tested in three optional school subjects, like art, music.....science. You are asked about the themes and get a score depending on how well the question was answered. The 20% with the highest scores in the first test are allowed to join the second one, in one of the schools or "Training centres" for future Young memberes. If you don't pass the first, or do not compete in the first place, you have to be at peace with life as normal citizen You have to follow all orders from above. But have the opportunity to get married, have children and lead a reasonably carefree life, even if the partner could be assigned. As a member of the dynasty, you usually don't have this chance of founding a family. As part of "the Young" you strive for power and influence, and you can make decisions for all of the others benethe you, which is better than allways obeying orders. (my personal opinion ladys...!)
I just don't want to spend my whole life here! Can't you understand? Let alone leave my district at all holy times and possibly marry one of my childtime friendships, like my neighbour coldan. Really bad idea!, and than die as a person who had no succes in her wlole lifetime period...I'm not saying that I won't miss my family (a little) I will, but they are not something I wouldn't give up for my ideas of a fullfilled life and my ideas of a good world. I'm Young, I want to be free, I'm smart. I need to use what I have as long as I can, shouldn't I? Assuming I pass, I'll do all i can to get a high position and strive for power, but not to continue "the dynasty" as before, but to model everything arround, hopefully in a good way. Lets say I use the system to pull my own thing through. (unseen and undisturbed)
Over people came up with ideas, which where much worser, am i right?
I hear the high voices and tones of the seabirds, flying over our Boat in circles like satelites around me. Watching and oversseing all things i do.
I tear along the side of the high-quality paper and pick up the small, light note which sailed previously on the oakwooden ground. There is just one word on the paper and this had been all I needed. I passed! i really did. Abruptly, I released the air from my lungs. This information was so liberating, but it also felt like like....
I sealed my destiny.
I felt like a bird which desided to live in a golden cage, because it hoped for freedom. And the cold wind that brushed my hair in circles, made me think.
But this was only the first test.Well and I guess it is official now. I'll turn my back on all of this!
With this, I mean everybody and everything I know. Not that I'm going to lack luxury, but maybe emotions, feelings.
I looked around noticed every little detail of my surrouning so i would not ferget. This certain feeling of or kind of home.
I could endure all what will come! I am strong and I'm not going to resign from my decision now...
Nothing can stop me from doing this.
I think.
Hey guys,
This is the first chapter, and I need to say that I am quite statisfied with it. what do you think about Eve? what is your first impression?
I Hope you love it,
love sarah