Why Not Me?
~Enrique Iglesias
Escaping nights without you
with shadows on the wall .
My mind is running wild
trying hard not to fall.
You tell me that you love me
but say I'm just a friend.
My heart is broken up into piece.
'Cause I know I'll never free my soul.
It's trapped in between
true love and being alone.
When my eyes are closed
the greatest story told.
I woke and my dreams
are shattered here on the floor.
Why oh why tell me why not me?
Why oh why we were meant to be?
Baby I know I could be all you need.
Why oh why oh why?
I wanna love you.
If you only knew
how much I love you.
The day after tomorrow
I'll still be around.
To catch you when you fall and
never let you down.
You say that we're forever ,
our love will never end.
I've tried to come up
but it's drowning me to know.
-♡-
Chapter 34 : MESSED UP
ISABELLA'S POV
"What are you doing here ??" ,
I ask instantly
" Surprise ? " He says cheekily
" How did you know?"
" Lucy might have helped me " he says while scratching the back of his head , okay that was adorable...
" So hop on " he suggests
I instantly look at Ro ,
who's expression are something I can't figure out at the moment .
" Pepper Spray?" He mumbles
And I look at him like he grew
two heads ,
but end up nodding right after .
" Fine , go and
call me once you guys reach "
" Okay daddy " I squeak
" That sounds so bad "
"Please jump into a dustbin!"
" That's not very nice "
" I said 'please' , didn't I? "
Before he can come up with something savage , Marv calls me out .
" Bella?"
" Yaa , I'm coming "
Since I have a few bags ,
I keep it on the backseat itself and settle myself in the front .
Fed's car comes right after .
" Mario drive safely "
" It's Marvin "
Ro ignores him.
Expected !
" Ro we are not going to the
other side of the world "
" Whatever "
" Stop using my lines "
" Stop messing with my mind " ,
he mumbles.
" There! You did it again!" I yell
I wave my hand and he waves back .
He looks at Marvin ,
who's already looking at both of us .
I kinda expected him to give him
'the talk' but he doesn't.
" Let's go " I say
" Let's go!" Marv repeats and starts the engine .
I don't know what to say to him ?
I mean it's such a sweet gesture that someone makes efforts for you.
' Thank you? ' my inner voice says
"Thank you"
" My pleasure" he says
" By the way , is there a airport nearby or is my heart actually taking off " he says , while staring at me .
" um that's where you picked me up from" I say , pretending dumb and then look out of the window .
After a while , I extend my arm to play music and he does the same ,
our fingers collide and then we just look at each other.
" Look straight " I remind him and he obeys .
"So how were your holidays?"
"Quite good and yours?"
"Same . I returned back yesterday morning "
"Yaa , so why did you come and pick me up?"
"Truth or lie?"
"Obviously truth"
"Then let's just say I'm trying my chances"
"Marvin" I sigh
"Don't Marvin me . I know I'm cute so if not love , infatuation may definitely happen " he winks at me
I just send a forced smile in his way .
If only others knew for me being in a relationship means so damn much !
Even if I like you ,
I still won't be ready for that commitment , reason being the base of a relationship is love and till I'm not sure about my feelings ,
I'm gonna wait for the right time and the right person .
To go on a date would be fine , I suppose . I mean it's just a hang out between two people who like each other .
But still I haven't dated anyone so far . And Marvin's intentions are indicating that some or the other day , he may ask me .
I don't even know what he saw in me in the first place ?!
For the first time ever ,
my crush is actually giving me some attention and even though it feels good ,
I'm not able to ignore the feeling that if something happens between us ,
it's gonna be too soon and I don't know , it just doesn't feel right or maybe I'm just overthinking..
"For that moment , I actually thought you and Royal Miller are dating .
I was like , wasn't he in a relationship with Jessica Schulz ?
Also , that thought about you guys kinda made me jealous "
"That's why you came ?"
"Yaa , that too " he says
"Me and Royal are best friends "
"'Good for us then "
Us ? As in me and Marvin ?
What do I think about us ?
How would Ro think about us ?
Why do I get a feeling it's gonna be a messed up situation?
-♡-
Yesterday night ,
I was all alone in the room.
Chris hasn't returned yet but he will arrive today by midnight .
Me and Lu had breakfast in the morning.
Harv was also going to join us
but he overslept .
Now I'm listening to Music in the dance room while I wait for Jessica to bless me with her presence .
I check my last messages and see that Ro seenzoned me , ugh .
I mean , he read my last messages
and then didn't even make efforts to send a reply .
He must be drunk and still sleeping !
I go through our yesterday's chats once again .
' I reached (: '
' Good '
' You?'
' Not yet .
Me and Fed stopped by somewhere'
'Don't drink'
'How do you know I'm somewhere drinking??'
'I didn't but now you said it yourself'
'Wait what!'
'I repeat , don't drink'
'As if I'm listening to you'
' What about your
New Year Resolution?'
Not giving it a second thought ,
I put my phone in my bag and
get ready to practice.
I start warming up and the soothing music makes it better , otherwise I'd be tired with the warm up itself .
" Someone's on time! " , I hear and straighten up .
Initially I was trying to touch my feet without bending my knees ,
key word trying .
Someone's late!
Bell be nice !
"Yaa" I say and give her a faint smile
"Someone's happy" she says with a fake expression plastered on her fake face .
Bell be nicer !
"Nothing special" I reply
" Oh , I thought you would be having the time of your life with something which belongs to me " she says and glares at me
"If by that you mean Ro.. Royal ,
then let me tell you , he's isn't a thing to own"
"Why are you getting so worked up ?"
"Because he's my bestfriend!"
" Just bestfriend? I don't think so .
You are secretly trying to steal him from me , aren't you ?"
"Listen , I don't know why you are throwing a fit at me , but when you will cool down , then we'll practice "
I grab my bag and just I'm about to exit , I almost collide with Fed but we back away at the same time .
" Careful " he says
"Sorry" I mutter and just as I am about to walk away , he says ,
"Isabella?"
"Yeah?"
"I am sorry "
"Sorry ?"
"For that day when I bullied you .
I shouldn't have done that , especially when I didn't know what exactly happened "
"It's okay "
"You are a good friend to Royal "
"I hope so "
"No , you definitely are . But it kinda ruined our night"
"Why , what happened ?"
"Chill , I'm kidding . Actually ,
I decided to go to bar and had plans for drinking . But , you asked him not to do that , so he dragged me out of there and we ended up just talking "
"Oh , I thought he ignored it"
"Clearly he didn't"
"Feddy what are you doing here with her??" Beca asks while walking in our direction
"Nothing to worry about " he says and pulls her close
"Okay guys , I'll get going"
"Yeah" he smiles at me and Beca looks at him as if he's just committed a crime.
Why our girls so hard to handle and harder to understand?
You are also a girl !
That's the point!
I'm not that frustrated now , thanks to Ro .
But still , why did Jess behave so rude?
She's always rude to you .
I know , but today it felt mean .
Like she disliked me even more .
Wait a sec , is she jealous because of me and Ro getting closer ??
But , I don't like Ro that way and
even if I did , then also I won't ever wish for breaking his relationship with someone else !
What matters at the end of the day is the person you love should be happy , with or without you .
Well said ! Proud of you !
Are you mocking me?
Why would I do such an honourable task , I'm you after all ?
You are doing it again !
What ? Am I making fun of you ?
Do you even have to ask?
It's so fun pulling your leg
My leg is your leg too !
I regret that I am you !
"Stop talking , will you ?!"
"Sorry! But I didn't say anything"
" You what?"
Oh shit !
"No no , I'm sorry .
Actually I have a weird habit and
I keep on talking to myself . Sometimes , okay all the time ,
day dream and zone out , like I just did.
And when I said 'shut up' or whatever it was to my own self and not you , sorry I'm probably rambling right now , but you understand , right?"
He nods his head and shakes it right after .
Great!
I just made a complete fool of myself !
Nothing new !
"Did you hear it?" I ask
"Hear what?"
"My inner voice , mocking me again and again "
He chuckles
"Okay then tell your inner voice that's it's really lucky to be a part of you. "
'Joke of the year , ha ha ha'
"That's indeed sweet of you "
"Tea?" he asks
"Coffee?"
"Whatever you like "
"I'll pay " I suggest
"No , I'll do it "
"Okay , let's pay for ourselves ?"
"Great" he says and we proceed towards our canteen .
My lectures are starting from tomorrow so I still have a day to relax .
I order cold coffee for myself and he takes hot coffee for himself .
He's looking nice today .
He's wearing olive green coloured hoodie and with army pants .
His blond hair is neatly combed ,
he has light freckles on his cheeks
and his brown eyes are looking straight into mine .
Oopsie , caught !
I immediately look away .
He gives a fake cough and then asks , "So were you angry at someone or something ?"
"Kinda"
"Why?"
"Just something , don't worry "
"If you don't want to share , it's okay "
Yup he used that line !
I swear that line has some special powers to extract the truth from someone .
"No , it's not like that , it's just that me and Jessica don't get along"
"Jessica? As in Royal's ex ? The hot girlfriend?"
"Yes that one , but they are still together "
"Oh I thought that because of his text that day "
"But I messaged you that he was just messing with me so he said whatever he said "
"Yaa I was relieved to know that "
Okay , now what should I say ?
Somebody help me !
Never ever did my crush pay attention to me ?
And now I'm getting what I wanted ,
I don't know what to say or do !
Is this really what you wanted ?
"So you really think she is hot ?",
I end up asking
"Why ? Are you jealous?"
"No , just asking , like what did Ro see in her? "
"What every other guy saw but he was lucky enough to actually date her"
"So you also have a crush on her ?"
"Nope , for now, my eyes are set on a different girl "
"Oh okay "
Should I ask him who's she ?
Does he like someone else ?
Obviously , why would he like you ?
Why do you have to interrupt again and again ?
And what if that someone is me ?
I mean he actually came to pick me from the airport .
So let's say he likes you , do you like him ?
He's cute .
That's just infatuation.
Whatever , now let me drink my beloved coffee which has turned colder now .
Wait , what ?
I gulp down half the glass in one go and then lick my lips .
Coffee tastes divine .
I take another sip , while he sips his drink .
I chuckle .
"What ?" he asks
I let our a chuckle again .
"There's something on my face , right?" He asks and wipes his upper lips .
" It's still there , a bit lower " I say
"Help me please " he says , and leans forward .
" Okay?"
Nervously I wipe whatever foam was left on his lower lip with a tissue.
His eyes are boring into mine .
" I'LL TAKE COLD COFFEE !" ,
Someone's whose 'suddenly loud' voice I know on a whole another level breaks our trance and Marvin settles back into his chair .
-♡-
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Posted on : 1st April , 2020
Yup, I know there's a lot of self annoying talk in here but that's just the way Isabella is ...