Chapter 43
Amy's POV
"Okay am I good to go Alex?" I ask my manager as I finish my shift at the bar. Tonight had been an easy night and I was so glad to have finished. It was just past 11:30pm and I was finishing my shift at work. I was working with Alex but Katie had just got here meaning I could leave. I was tired and just wanted my bed, today had been a long day. After going to the mall this morning with Jade, Klaus and Harry I was so tired. We stayed out till about 2 and had a drink in the pub before they all left. It was nice. Awkward in a way but nice. Harry had gone to help set up for the party and get the kegs from his friend at the diner. Klaus and Jade went back to see my Mom, to break the news to them about the baby and apparently she took it amazingly well. Which I was glad about.
"Course! You get off now hun!" Alex shouts across the bar at me and I smile at him.
"Thank you! See you next week!" I shout back to him as I grab my bag and phone and head for the door. I hang my key up on the side and wave him off and say bye to a few customers on my way out. I make my way down the street and start to head home. Luckily my house was only a block away and it wasn't that quite on the street. I feel my phone start to vibrate in my pocket and the ringtone follow shortly. I pull it out checking the caller ID.
Harry.
"Hello?" I answer. I should of known it would be him. He knew exactly what time I got off and I know exactly why he is ringing.
"Hey, What time are you coming?" He says down the speaker and I instantly just feel relaxed for some reason. In my ideal world I would just spend the night on with him in bed watching documentaries and Game of Thrones with pizza, chicken and a puppy. That obviously wasn't going to happen.
"Harry I said I'll think about it! And I thought about it and I don't want to come" I sigh and I hear him hiccup down the phone by accident. I was too tired to even go, I didn't want to. But I knew he would be persistent.
"What? Why? Where are you? I'll come get you- Niall, fuck off I'm trying to have a conversation" I hear him say and I can clearly tell he is drunk.
"No honestly it's fine! I'm nearly home anyway-"
"Are you walking by yourself?" He interrupts me making me roll my eyes.
"What? Yes, why does that matter?" I sigh. I can't be dealing with him when he is like this.
"It's late!- Niall- Oi, give me that- sorry one second- just light it!" I hear him say making me frown.
"Harry are you smoking?" I ask and I hear him cough awkwardly. I was confused as I thought he had quit at the minute because he insisted that he had 'a bad cough' and complained that he 'can't breath normally' and even looked up his symptoms when actually he just had a bad cough.
"Yeah why?" He says nonchalantly making me roll my eyes.
"I'll be over in half an hour, Okay?" I sigh knowing he is gonna be so drunk by the time I get there.
"Okay? Bye" he says while laughing at god knows what.
"Bye" I say before putting the phone back in my pocket. Knowing he was already in this state this early on was not good. I practically ran the rest of the way home and as soon as I got to her house I could hear and see everyone at Harry's making me roll my eyes, this is literally the last thing I need. Once I had gotten a quick shower in the empty house as everyone was obviously at the party, I picked out the first outfit I could see in my closet which was a co-ord baby pink denim skirt and jacket and I teamed it with a white bralette. I picked out my white heels and grabbed my phone. I check my appearance in the mirror, I only had mascara on and lip gloss but it will have to do. I ran down the stairs and locked the door behind me putting the key back under the mat. As I walked across the road I could see Niall on his phone out the front garden.
"Was bloody wondering when you were gonna turn up" he shouts across the street as I cross the road.
"You look cute, new shoes?" I ask as I see his old boots still on his feet which he never takes off.
"Funny" He says sarcastically as I pass him.
"Niall, do you know where Harry is?" I ask him trying not to bring such attention to what I was asking.
"Oooo why?" He smirks as he sips his drink.
"Why do you think?" I roll my eyes. Boys.
"Well I could come up with a number of reasons why you would want him, but I'm guessing none of them would be the right reason" he laughs and I laugh lightly.
"So helpful" I sarcastically.
"You know it!" he shouts back flipping me off as I walk in side making me laugh. Wow. That is all that came to mind as I noticed how many people were here. It was packed. Knowing Harry I think he would either be out the back or in the kitchen because that's where most of his friends usually hang out seen as they aren't big dancing fans. I pushed through the crowd and eventually found my way through to the kitchen. I knew him too well. There he was stiff with Klaus, Jade, Zac, Liam and 4 of Harry's friends from the Serpents bar who I recall being Tristan, Jordan, Justin and Dua who I knew really well. I walked over to Jade who was just getting a drink at the table.
"Hey..."
"Oooo you look amazing, I didn't know you were coming I thought you were working?" She says as she smiles at me putting the lid back on the bottle of vodka.
"Just thought I would come by, oh I'm glad it went well with my Mom she must be so happy!" I say making her smile even more.
"Yeah I'm really excited now, Klaus said she would be happy but I guess I just had my doubts seen as we haven't been together that long" she says and I instantly feel a little bad for her. They haven't been together that long but who put s time limit on when things are supposed to happen? Everything happens for a reason.
"Time doesn't matter, if you love someone you just know" I say. Like I fucking know my shit, I've never been in love in my life.
"Yeah I know-"
"Jade! Come with me a minute" she's cut off by one of her friends calling her over from the other side of the room. I think her name is Claudia, but I really wasn't sure, me and Jade don't hang out enough anymore to know things like each other's new friends.
"I'll be back in two seconds" she says leaving the vodka on the table which obviously we for Klaus, Jade doesn't drink vodka and she can't drink anyway at the minutes. I smile and nod as she leaves before grabbing my own cup and starting poor myself a drink.
"Not talking to me now?" I feel Harry come up behind me pressing his front to my back teasingly.
"I've been here two seconds" I say rolling my eyes as I pour my drink. He moves the side of me, still incredibly close to me.
"I'm surprised you came-" he says as he looses his balance briefly before composing himself acting as if I hadn't seen him.
"I'm surprised you can even stand up, how much have you even had to drink? you smell like a brewery" I say, scrunching my nose up at the smell of alcohol that was coming off of him.
"Chill out babe, I've had like 4- I think" he says as I look up at him. His pupils were a weird size to say he had been drinking which made me think differently.
"Let me smell your breath" I say as he smirks down at me laughing lightly.
"If you wanted to kiss me just say" he says cockily edging closer to me.
"Harry..." I warn him.
"Fine" he rolls his eyes, blowing into my face before laughing lightly. I knew exactly what he had been doing instantly.
Weed.
"Your smoking pot? Are you serious?" I frown at him as he laughs.
"No"
"I can't believe you-" I shake my head as I turn back to my drink pouring coke into it.
"That's a bit hypocritical" he says making me frown.
"Oh really? How?" I turn to him awaiting his response as I know exactly what he was going to say. I little part of me thought that if he really was the guy that I thought he was he wouldn't dare say what an asshole would say but right now I couldn't work him out. This wasn't the Harry that I wanted to spend everyday with.
"Well I'm just saying atleast I didn't have a drug problem-"
"Wow" I cut him off as my heart sinks. The one person I cared about and who I thought cared about me would throw my biggest mistake in my face for no reason. It hurt. I was heartbroken. He really was the asshole who I thought he was from the beginning. Nothing had changed. He just fooled me. Played me, like I was nothing. Right now I wanted nothing more than to just cry.
"Is that why you brought me here? To rub it in my face that I had a drug problem? Really? You know what? I'm not doing his with you right now-"
"That's your answer for everything, when things get tough you just fucking run away never wanting to talk about your problems at all, it's fucking childish" he yells at me in a whisper cutting me off. I laugh in disbelief at him and his words and pick up my drink off the side as I turn to face him.
"Well then maybe you should find a girlfriend your own age if I'm so childish" I say as I grab another cup off the table and throw the content in his face without hesitation.
"Fucking Asshole" I spit at him as I push past him walking off towards the doors leading to the garden.
"Amy wait-" I hear him call after me as I get to the door.
"What's going on?" I hear Niall say jut as he grabs hold of my arm obviously just witnessing the scene that had just played out.
"Nothing, just keep him away from me" I spin around snapping at him pulling my arm out of his grasp. I see Harry stood there clearly drenched in the content of the drink I had just thrown at him. I could see how other people had started to stare and some people were laughing at Harry being swilled.
"Your making a scene" Niall whispers to the both of us but right now it wasn't me making the scene it was Harry.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean it-" Harry steps closer to me trying to take my hand looking partly sincere but I was to angry and hurt to care.
"Get away from me- Niall I swear-" I say through gritted teeth at him before backing up trying to get Niall to help me.
"Okay, Harry mate come on..." Niall quickly steps in between us but Harry doesn't take his eyes off of me.
"Niall I'm not being funny just let me past" Harry says trying to mask his anger at the fact Niall had gotten involved but it was to no avail.
"People are staring, are you forgetting that everyone else has no idea about you two? Her brother is right there, don't do this" Niall snaps at him, pointing discreetly to the people staring at us around the room including my brother and Jade. He grabs hold of Harry's shoulders seeming to calm him a little as Harry's eyes still meet my own.
"Just walk away" Niall pushes again as Harry eventually looks around the room briefly noticing the scene we had caused.
"Please" I beg him. I try to hold the tears back as I see his face alter, he knew he had upset me and I don't think he meant to as of right now. But I couldn't get past what he had just said.
Within a few seconds of hesitation Harry slowly turned around before walking off into the crowd. My heart broke. I spun around heading off into the garden walking as quickly as possible to the quote area at the back of the garden where me and Harry had first really had a proper conversation. I sat down on the rock at the end of the garden trying not to cry. Why did this have to happen? I feel like all we ever do is argue.
"Hey... God you run so fast, I couldn't keep up" I hear Niall say whilst out of breath as I see him coming towards me. I didn't think I had ran but clearly I had.
"Are you okay? What happened back there?" He asked as he sits down on the rock next to me when I don't acknowledge him.
"Nothing, He was just being an asshole" I shrug. Niall didn't know about my drug problem as far as I was concerned so I didn't want to make things worse for myself.
"It's my fault, Harry usually doesn't get involved with... you know, drugs and shit but I gave it him and it's my fault-"
"It's not that, I don't care if he smokes pot but I just don't want him to do it around me and I know he wasn't but it's just- it's what he said, I don't know why he would stoop so low" I cut him off. I knew it would of probably been Niall giving him the drugs but it's not his fault Harry is a grown man he can say no or at least no when to stop so he doesn't become an asshole.
"He's not himself, he knew he fucked up" he sighs and I don't reply as I don't know even what the say. Of course Niall would stick up for Harry. They're best friends.
"Look, I know this may not be what you want to hear right now but I have seen the way Harry is with girls-" he starts but I cut him off not wanting to hear about Harry's past conquests and actions.
"Niall-" I try to stop him from continuing but he carries on.
"Just listen, he used treat girls like shit, he used a few and told them things just to keep them around for his own pleasure you could say. But when I found out about you guys something had changed with him. He was like weird about things like he just started to act strange like girls would come up to him at parties but he just wasn't interested. He talked to me about you the other day actually-"
"I don't want to hear this Niall, Thank you-" I try to stop him as there is just too much going on right now for me to even consider speaking to Harry right now.
"He said he feels like he likes you more than you like him, he said things like he just wants to spend time with you all the time, he literally worships the ground you walk on. I don't think for a second he would mean to hurt you. Tonight he fucked up, I don't know what happened but just know that you probably know him better than anyone else and you know he wouldn't intentionally hurt you. He's drunk and being an asshole but just remember he cares about you, God I think he probably is in l-"
"Niall, quick come here Styles and West are kicking off right now!" We are both interrupted by Zac shouting Niall over waving his hands like a mad man to get our attention. It took me a second to process what was being said before my heart sank. There is only one thing that they could be arguing about and that was me. But only if Klaus knew.
"No... Did you tell him?" I jumped up off the rock and looked at Niall. He is really one of the only people who know along with Evangeline and my Mom.
"What? No, come on quickly" he grabs my hand before dragging me along down the garden. I could here the shouting from here which wasn't good. Harry never really raises his voice at all but all I could here was them shouting over each other. As we got nearer the crowd got thicker. Niall pushed his way through with me trailing along behind.
"How fucking dare you-" I could here Harry yell at Klaus as we pushed through. Just as we got there Harry pushed Klaus causing Klaus to swing for him. Zac and Liam ran in between them pulling each person off each other. Well, we're trying to pull them apart.
"Oi! Harry!" Zac shouted as he tried to calm Harry as he held him against the kitchen counter as Klaus was kicking and fighting Liam to get out of his grasp.
"Klaus stop it!" Jade shouted over the crowed whilst she was crying being comforted by Claudia. The room was just in chaos. There was glass on the floor, my brother and Harry pinned so they wouldn't fight one another, my best friend was crying and I stood there in the middle of it all not knowing a single thing to do. Zac seems to calm Harry enough to let his arms loose but stands there telling him to calm down as Harry breathes heavily in anger. I watch as Klaus starts yelling stuff at Liam, so I take the second to go over to Harry. No matter how upset I was, it wasn't important right now, he mattered. He always mattered.
"Harry..." I stand behind Zac looking up at Harry as his eyes catch mine. He looked angry but yet broken at the same time. My heart broke just looking at him.
"Amy I've got this, go get your brother out of here" Zac snaps to me.
"Zac let go..." I say as I put my arm on his shoulder.
"What? No-"
"Please? I can take it from here" I say causing him to look between the two of us skeptically. He paused for a second before letting go in realisation of what was going on.
"Oh.." He lets him go and I step in his place as Harry follows my every move with his gaze.
"What happened? Your hurt" I say as I reach for his cut cheek. He pushes my hand away from his face breaking his gaze from me.
"Harry..." I reach up to his face again making him sigh.
"Don't, it's stupid" he says taking my hand away from his face.
"Don't push me away, what happened?" I ask him as he tries to look anywhere else but me.
"I didn't mean-"
"Of course you would be here! Look what you've done!" I hear Klaus shout causing me to turn around. Was he talking to me? I see Liam still holding him back as Klaus glares angrily at me.
"What have I done?" I ask with a frown on my face as I see him aiming his comment at me.
"Oh don't fucking act innocent! You know what you both have done! Why don't you tell everyone? It's out now... Come on!" He says and my heart drops.
He knows.
I don't know how but he knows.
"Klaus fuck off don't do this right now" Harry says almost in defeat.
"You can fuck off, you out of everyone! How could you!" Klaus shouts making me angry. Hypocritical. Everything he does he thinks he can get away with but he doesn't like it when we do the same even though it doesn't concern him.
"Give it a rest" Harry sighs.
"Your one to talk! You got with my best friend!" I fire back at Klaus making him laugh in disbelief.
"What so this is your revenge? You get with him to fuck me off? Well played! How mature?" He says sarcastically as he applauds us mockingly.
"Are you kidding me?-" I start but Harry instantly cuts me off.
"Amy leave it, come on-" he says in my ear as he steps in front of me touching my arm.
"You don't fucking touch her!" Klaus yells angrily trying to free himself from Liam's grasp.
"Klaus stop it!" Jade yells at him from across the room before she starts to run over.
"Did you know about this? I wouldn't be Fucking surprised if you did" he spits at her angrily for no reason.
"I didn't know!" She yells back as I could see tears forming in her eyes.
"She didn't know-" I try to back her up.
"I'm sorry what the hell is going on?" Zac asks from behind me making me sigh.
Not now.
Not in front of everyone.
"Ask Harry!" Klaus yells. Harry moves to stand beside me sighing as he goes.
"He'll only tell you that he fucked my sister!" Klaus says making me sigh. I don't know how he knew. Niall said he didn't tell him, Evangeline doesn't even know we had sex, hell I don't even know if Niall knows that.
"Dude..." Zac frowns in confusion causing Harry to sigh in frustration.
"That is not true, well that's not how it went down-" he says and my mouth drops agape.
"Harry!" I hit him on the arm to make him shut up.
"It's not like that! I actually care about her-" he tries to say but Klaus isn't having any of it.
"Don't give me that fucking shit, the other week you were all over Evie!" He says and I roll my eyes.
"That was months ago!" Harry argues back stepping closer to Klaus, only stopping when I put my hand on his chest pulling him back.
"What? Were you still fucking my sister at that point in time?" Klaus fires.
"Klaus stop" Jade says to him.
"Your delusional mate, you fucking forget who your talking to. I would never intentionally hurt-"
"Fuck off, you fucked my sister!" Klaus yells over Harry causing me to become angrier than before.
"You don't get it!" I yell at him and he laughs sarcastically.
"What is there to get? It's pretty self explanatory! You get with my sister and keep it from me knowing I would never let you go near my sister-" Klaus fires his comments aimed at Harry causing me to yell over him.
"We didn't mean for this to happen-" I try to say but he interrupts me.
"Wow, really? How long has this been going on for?" Klaus snaps a little more calmer than before. Neither Harry or I reply instantly or at all for that matter. I can't understand why he has freaked out this much I knew he would be angry but not this angry.
"Just fucking tell me because I already want to fucking kill the both of you, can't really get much worse can it?" He says and I shake my head.
"I don't know..." I say even though it was barely audible.
"Harry? Did you fuck her before or after I paid you to spend time with her to get her out the house? Oh or does she not know that yet?" Klaus snaps whilst pointing at me.
"What?" I turn to Harry not understanding the situation at all.
"Amy I can explain-"
"He paid you? What is he talking about?" I ask trying to hold my anger in, even if I wasn't that convincing I didn't care right now. I just wanted answers.
"Harry! Answer me! Was this all just a massive game to you? I can't believe you would fucking do that to me-" I say when he stands there like a deer caught in headlights.
"It's not what you think, I swear-" he says but Klaus laughs cutting him off.
"No it is what you think, I paid him to get you out of the house because I wanted time alone with my girlfriend, you were a cheap date though $100 kept him quiet" he snaps with a wicked smirk on his face.
"Oh my god-" I say in disbelief as my worst nightmare seems to be coming true. I couldn't even look at Harry right now or everyone else I'm the room who was witnessing all this. Before anyone else could make this situation any worse I bolted. I pushed through the crowd of people and bolted for the front of the house. As I got outside I felt the first tear fall. How could he? After everything we talked about, everything we were and he just did that. Our whole relationship or whatever we were was a joke. It was fake. Based on lies and deceit. He didn't even tell me. He didn't bother to mention it, even if it happened months ago everything after that was built on nothing except lies.
"Amy wait-" I hear Harry's voice follow as I slam the door and walk across the wet grass as it was now pouring down with rain. Within a second I was drenched. I could barely hear him speak over the sound of the rain hitting everything in sight and the drains running down the street. At least they masked my tears.
"No Harry not right now, I think you've done enough" I say as I walk away from him. I couldn't bare to look at him never mind actually talk to him right now.
"Please just let me explain it" he shouts over the weather as I storm away from him.
"What is there to explain? You used me! You lied to me-" before I could finish my sentence I was spun around in his grasp facing him.
Even looking at him hurt. I just wanted to kiss him because I still felt for him but what he did hurt. More than ever. And looking at him wasn't helping. I felt my heart beating faster and my breathing increase as my emotions started to get the better of me.
"I didn't lie to you! I just- I kept it from you because it didn't matter to me anymore! It was a mistake! I did it before we were even involved with each other-"
"What do you want me to say to you? That I get it? That it's okay? Because it's not! It's not okay to do that! Especially to someone who you say you care about" I yell at him as I pull my arm out of his grasp stepping back putting distance in between us.
"I do care about you" he sighs. I watch as his curls fall as they are now drenched in water. I notice the water dripping down his face and soaking through his shirt.
"Your actions don't match your words" I say as I turn away from him.
"Everything I do is for you! I have never intentionally hurt you, I never would! You know me!" He shouts grabbing my attention and stopping me in my tracks.
"Do I? Because you've based this whole relationship or whatever we were off lies and deceit! You did that! Not me! God you never changed! You are still the same person you were before we even became friends! I don't know how you kept up the act this whole time, maybe you deserve an Oscar or 100 dollars... Oh wait you already have that!" I yell at him angrily. He doesn't understand how much he has hurt me just because he thinks he hasn't done anything wrong.
"Just listen..." he tries to calm the situation taking a step closer to me.
"Listen? Listen to what? Your bullshit? Because god Harry have I fucking heard enough!" I say causing him to run a hand through his hair in frustration.
"I'm sorry, it was a mistake! I didn't know that we would get this close! I didn't even know we would become friends never mind actually falling for you" he says. I would be lying if I said I didn't feel anything when he said that. I felt like a brick wall had just been thrown at my chest.
"Don't" I warm him, not wanting to get any deeper in to this.
"Why not? It's the truth..." he says. Before I could reply the door swung open revealing Niall and Jade at the front door. As they both come over through the rain I feel instantly bad. I never even told Jade about us and this is how she finds out? I'm such a shit best friend. At least she had the decency to tell em about Klaus.
"Everything alright out here?" Niall asks as he stands next to Harry.
"Yes Niall we are fine" Harry sighs.
"Amy are you okay?" Jade puts her hand on my shoulder comfortingly as I smile apologetically at her.
"I'm fine Jade, I just need to go" I tell her and she nods. As I go to walk away she puts her arm round me walking back with me. I smile at her giving her a brief hug as we cross the road. No matter what, I knew she would always have my back.
"Amy, stop running! For once in your life, face up to it. If you actually cared about me or us you would talk this out-" Harry yells over at me causing my blood to boil.
"Talk this out?" I spin round as quick as I could, seeing him now stood in the middle of the road.
"Oh god.." I hear Niall murmur putting his head in his hands for a second.
"Are you joking? I would talk things out if they were things like little petty shit, like arguing over where to eat or when to have children and you honestly think that I can forgive you by just talking things out when you deceived me! God your delusional! Get the fuck away from me" I yell at him, my anger getting the best of me as I grab the nearest thing I could- being a garden gnome- and threw it at him causing it to smash at his feet.
"Delusional? Delusional would be me thinking for one second that you felt the same way for me as I feel for you but clearly I was Fucking wrong!" He yells back at me angrily as he kicks a piece of the broken gnome.
"What are you talking about? I'm not the one who has started this on fucking lies! I was honest with you from day one and you fucked up way before day one!" I scream at him as he takes two steps towards me.
"Don't you think that I know that? If I could take it back I would! But I can't so I'm trying to fix what I did and if you cared you would want to fix it too!" He says and I roll my eyes.
"Maybe you guys just need some time-" Jade tries to say but I cut her off.
"No, I can't do this. This- whatever this is, is done. You can't start something deceitfully and expect it to work out Harry-"
"Do you want to know why I accepted Klaus' offer to distract you?" He cuts me off as he now is stood directly in front of me. The rain has become even harder making it hard to even see because water was dripping down our faces into our eyes and mouth.
"No-"
"Because I wanted to see you! I wanted to talk to you and just be around you but I didn't have a reason too, he gave me one and I took it! I took the money to make it not look suspicious! I know that was wrong to do but I did it because I was selfish, because I wanted to talk to you and you weren't talking to me at the time it was my best option! I know it was wrong and I'm sorry but if I never did it we may not have gotten this close. You know me better than anyone and I know you like the back of my hand, I know that you know that- even if you want to deny it" he says and I stand there speechless.
"I know I can't apologise enough to you but if I could I would because I can't risk loosing you! You just have this hold over me that I can't shake, I hate that I have no control over my feelings for you. I know you don't want to hear any of this but I can't let you walk away from me without trying" he sighs causing me to look away from him.
"And I'm trying, I'm really fucking trying" he sighs and I almost feel bad for him. Was I being too hard on him?
"Try harder" I spit before turning away from him. He grabs my arm stopping me causing me to look back at him.
"Give me a chance-" he sighs. I'm that instant I could of just given in, but I didn't. I couldn't. He needed to know how much he fucked up.
"A chance? Are you serious? You had your chance and you blew it, move on" I snap as I pull my arm back off him before storming up the porch stairs to where Jade was.
"Move on? How can I move on when I'm fucking in love with you?" He yells causing me to stop dead in my tracks.
"Don't-" I warm him to stop but he carries on, walking up he stairs stopping at the top.
"It's true and you know it" he sighs as he comes closer to me.
"Stop-" I say weakly, my gaze falling anywhere but him.
"I can't, I wish I could because you can be just as much of an asshole as me-" he says but I cut him off pushing him away from me.
"You don't get to say that! You can't just throw that around-" I yell at him in frustration as he cuts me off.
"Like it's nothing? I'm not. I mean it" he says as I turn around running a hand through my hair in frustration.
"I'm in love with you" he sighs. I instantly feel this bursting feeling in my chest running into my stomach making me uncomfortable.
"Holy shit" "Oh god" I hear Niall and Jade murmur at the same time as there mouths fall agape.
"Why don't you go tell that to Evie? I'm sure she would love to hear it, because I don't and I'm pretty sure she'd be worth a little more than a 100" I snap watching his expression fall from his face before opening the door and slamming it behind me.
I ran up the stairs hearing the door open and close again behind me. I knew it was jade, I could hear her heels behind me. The tears started to fall as I got into my room. I ran into the bathroom locking the door behind me. I could hear Jade knocking on the door and shouting me but I couldn't face her right now. I turned the shower on and stripped myself of everything before letting the hot water run across my body. After standing there for a few seconds just staring at the wall feeling no emotion what so ever, shutting everything out. I just broke down. I slide down the wall as the tears streamed down my face. I pulled my legs up into a ball as I sat on the floor letting the water wash over me.
All that was going through my head was the words he said.
He loved me.
He is in love with me.
He is in love with me but I walked away.
I always walk away.