Life is all about living the way we want......
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"hai Allah!!" I stumbled back as soon as the lift open.. She ran out so quickly making her dupatta touch my face...it has the same fragrance I felt while I was sitting in bus.. Is she new here?? I guess so 🤔🤔.. Ugh!! Watever
Shoving of my thoughts and walked towards my haveli . And yeah I was standing near the neighbours apartment absent-mindedly..
I stepped towards my room greeting my mom and dad was in office.. And maha ki bacchi was buzy in playing games..
"assalamualaikum my princess 👸" I pecked on her cheeks pulling away romote from her hand..
"when did you came.. I m sorry I did not notice you.." she hugged me as soon she saw lifting her head up
"salam ka jawab dayna chahiye maha.." I glare at her
"walaikumsalam" she said kissing me on my cheeks
"did your homework stuff??" i said making her sit on my lap..
"yeah.. It's almost done.. And yeah you promised me that you will bring ice cream for me" she made a puppy face..
"aur moti ho jaogi.. Ice cream kah kah ke" I said tickling her on her stomach..
"did you just said that I m fat??" She groaned jumping on the floor. And faced me keeping her hands on her hips..
"no.. I just said that aur bhi bhi moti ho jao gi" I laughed at her reaction... Every girls has the same expression.... Even though they are fat know one call them fat.. Lol.. Girls and there philosophy's..
I remember chatting with my princess as if we were together...
"kitna Ice cream khaogi Yaar.. Already moti ho.. Agar gir jaogi toh ill not be able to lift your weight haan" I typed *pinching on her cheeks*
"Oye how dare you to call me fat? Tume me kis angle Se moti lagti hun?" She said as if checking herself.. I know she was not that fat.. I was just teasing her..
"i m not talking with you.." she put a smirking emoji turing her face away from me.
"arey Baba naraz toh na ho.. May mazak Kar Raha tah.." I typed putting an emoji of hugging her from back
She jerked me showing me that she was not satisfied with my attention.. With an gif
"Acha chalo..take this.. Aur Hum restaurant chalenge.. And will eat your fav dessert 🍰 with special ice cream.. Agar Phir bhi naraz ho to theek hay kisi aur ke sath chalajaoga" I typed giving her chocolate 🍫 bar emoji.
She send me an gif like snatched it from me giving a death glare at my last sentence.. Making me laughed at her funny face.. Her laugh her presence gives me different feeling day by day...
She was crazy , she was something else... After that last msg she msged me after 4 months then again we spoke for nearly 6 months and she was gone forever..
A tear rolled down from my eyes remembering her cute and innocent chat again.. Why can't I forget her..why do i love her so much when she said me 1000 times that dont love her she can never be mine .. She keeps the same relationship which she starts with. Dost hay to sirf dost no love wali feelings at all.
"bhai.. Ab.. Cry.. Kar..rahe hay" She tried speaking in urdu and chuckled escape from my mouth.... "app na phele urdu learn kare aur Phir talk kare" I spoke like she does.. She laughed..
I hugged her and kiss on her forehead.. "go and play with your friends.. I ll buy your ice cream later.. Promise" I said keeping my hand on Adam's apple
She jumped in happiness and hugged me back saying " the world best brother.I love you brother ." I smiled saying "I love you too meri choti Se shaitan sister"
I came back to my room and close it behind me... And allowed my tears to fall down freely...
Yeh Allah!! Kya mere is Dard Ko koi dawa nahi. Kab tak yeh silsila jari reheyga.... May bas itna janna chahta hun ke aqir uske sath huwa kya hay..usne muje itna Bada jhoot kyu kaha..itna Bada fareeb aur dhoka aqir kyu diya? Mera kasur kya tah.. Meri dosti toh jhoti nahi teh. Mohabbat shayad usne Kabhi mujse kia hi nahi... Jaise ab meri muskurahat jhoti hay.. Pareshan hogaya hun aise zindagi jeete jeete..
May janta hun ke, yaha har koi meri fiqr karta hay.. Isiliye may aj bhi zinda hun.. May yeh bhi janta hun ke shehry mere liye.. Meri khushi kayliye kuch bhi Kar sakta hay.. Isiliye uski khushi kay liye may apne ghum Ko chupa layta hun..
Haan mujhe is baat ki khushi hay ke.. Khuda ne mujhe Meri zindagi may 2 aise wajah Di hay jiskeliye may jina nahi chod sakta.. Family and friends..
Ye allah! Aj may apse Kuch aur dua karunga.. Har baar uske khushi kayliye dua karta tah. Aj pheli baar apne liye dua karunga.. Bas meri zindagi may Phir Se Kuch aisa toofan lay ao jo meri takleef Ko mujse duur Kar sake aur mera humsaya ban Kar Bina Kuch Kahe hi wo mujhe pehchaan sake...meri khushi meri takleef Bina izhar kare wo samjhe.. Kya koi hay aisa banda jo mera humsaya ban sake. Aur jise dek Kar mujhe yeh mehsoos ho ke aj may khush hun. Aur issi bahane may har waqt uska DIDAR-E-YAAR Kar saku.
I walked towards my balcony to take a fresh air to wash out all my thoughts.. I just need a Spotlight Around my darkness..
My gaze shifted towards my front balcony...... "i never saw anyone staying in opposite apartment.. Did someone??? Who is staying their now??"..
Imran p.o.v
It has been a years.. We never spoke with me... But jab bhi milogi.. I wanna thanks her for guiding me to the right path.. I m really sorry.. Jo Kuch bhi maine tumhare sath kiya muje nahi karna chahiye tah.. I remembered today's date.. How badly I wanted to meet her when I was not even aware of her real feeling...
"imran lets go wo fariha nahi hay" asshar shrugged me shrugged me ..
"Chalo" i felt really bad..
"Socha tah agar aj mil jati toh may usse friendship karlunga but its ok.. " i smiled
"Dont be sad ab mujhe bhi see off karna hay .toh plz rona dohna baat may ok" ashhar teased me.
"Oh come on" i laughed
"Ab uska bhoot apne dimag se nikal de ok" bilal punched me "awcchh theek hay baba"i said
I was driving a car and stopped suddenly... I wntd inside the city mall... I saw those eyes again.. I just looked her from a distance.. She was silent.. Looking at the stuffs around her...
But she left with someone.. A boy.. I promised myself to make her mine hoe can she ignore me like that..,
Then when I reached home I had my lunch.. Came back to my bed..
I was just going through my phone
I heard a Beep sound. my phone vibrated..
It was a msg from unknwn person on WhatsApp..
Should I reply Kon hosakta hay? ..
"Agar tum duao may kisi ko mag rahe ho aur wo dua qabool nahi ho rahi hay toh yeh samaj lena kay tumhe duao may koi aur mag raha hay..."
Wow!! Par kon ho sakta hay.
Interesting
Kya reply karu?? Nahi ignore karlayta hun?? Nahi..
"Shukriya" i replied.
And waited for sometime
Some days but no msg .. alag alag no. Se mujhe kon inbox msg kar rahe hay...
Shall I say this to bilal... Noo I won't.
Me:
"Plz may i knw your name"
Unknwn:
Guess karlo . Itne jaldi bhool gaye mujhe. This is not fair.
Me:
U knw me??
Ukn:
Will kisi had tak jan tih hun.. waise tumhe us din drop karne kayliye thanks kehna tah :-):-):-)
Me:
Drop karne kayliye??????thanks????
Unk:
Oh come on bhool gaye mujhe .. jis ne kaha tah ke mere ankhao ko dek kar hi pechan jao ge.
I said those things to her..
No she can't be...
How did she got my number..... M I dreaming?? How can I forget
That's means
it's fariha
Me:
Dont tell me its you.. I know you. :-):-):-).. hw can i forget you. Uhhh! You took a long time to msg me..
I tried to act like I'm sad
Me:
How did you get my number..
Unkn:
Yup.Well its long story.. and now bye i have to go.. dont msg and reply on this no.. reply me back when i says ok.. i dont have cell phone . This one is my friend cell phone.. now bye"
Me:
Ok bye see you soon.
I was damm happy.. Imraan aj toh tera din ban gaya Yaar.
. As I waited for this day for long time.. Ab dekhna muje intezar karwaya na...
Aur Phir aisi hi mulaqat hoti teh humari.. Bas ankhao Se baat kiya karte teh.. Kyu ke humari mohtarma jo teh bohot sharmali teh..
Every day at college DIDAR-E-YAAR ho hi jata tah...... Use apni bahao mein lay lynga.
For the first time I was like
UFFF!!!! YEH KYA HO RAHA HAY MUJHE KAHI MUJHE PYAAR TO NAHI HOGAYA. Hahaha
"imraan ap ka cell phone switch off hay kya?" her voice brought me back to the real world.
"ji.. Kuch kaha Tumne?" I said hiding my tears..
"wo actually.. Sam ka phone aya tah..wo keh Raha tah apko call kiya ap ne utahya nahi.. Wo Kuch office related kaam tah.. Ap theek toh haina.. May bata deti hun....." I kept my fingers on her lips to make her shut her mouth
"Sab ghar wale kehte hay ke jabse tum America Se wapis aye toh khamosh si hogaye ho.. Lakin jab mujse baat karti ho.. Itna bak bak karti ho.. May kis ki baat par yaqin karlun" I frowned and kept my both hand on her shoulder making her shy.. She smiled ..
I have plan to execute sorry baby I have to use you for this*
"ap bhi na.." she turned away.
"kaha ja rahi ho.." I asked holding her wrist
"wo may nahi.. Bas bahar ja rahi teh" she said turning towards me
"OK get ready.. We will go for a dinner tonight" she widended her eyes in disbelief.. "Se. Se.. Serious..sly"
"tumhe pata haina, may Kabhi mazak nahi karta.. Khaas Kar ke apano ke sath.. Tum toh meri bivi ho.. Aur tumhe wo sari khushiya dayna mera faraz hay.." She hugged me immediately
I hugged her back..
"thank you so much for understanding my situation.. Ap may tumhe shikayat ka maoqa nahi dunga. Thank you for coming into my life.. Your the best bivi that no one can have..except me..Ruhi..." we kissed
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Fari p.o.v
I came back to my apartment she was already left.
I was sitting in my room with hopeless and aimless life.. Kaha jana chahti teh kaha agaye. Zindagi ne mere sath itna khel khela ke may khud nahi samjh paye what's right and what's wrong....
My phone vibranted
I saw unkmown's name on my screen...
Fb
"Assalamualaikum mamma" i acted normally
"Walaikumsalam"mom respond
"Itna late kyu hogaya" mom suddenly asked
"Wo actully clases thoda late khatam hogaye teh and thats why i m late"i said normally but inside i was freaking nervous kahi mom ko pata toh nahi chal gaya.
"Itno late tak " mom repeated
"Haan maa aur vans bhi late aye teh toh aur aj mujhe bhi late chod diya" i lied jhoot se mujhe bhi sakat nafrat laykin agar sach bata teh to hamesha ghar mat hi rehna padta.
"Chalo theek hay lunch karlo sabse phele"mom smiled the world bestest smile which relief me from all the pain.
Trin....trinn...
"Mom di ka call araha hay" i gave cell phone to my mom and i went to have my lunch..
I came back to my room
I locked my self in room thinking about imran all the time . 😣😣They way he treated me..
Fari no you cant fall in love . Kyu kar rahi ho aisa... koi tumse pyaar nahi karta kyu sabse attention layna chahti ho.. promise kar kal to imran ki taraf dekegi bhi nahi. Tuje pata hayna tumhare family ke bare may they will kill you even if you dare to see at unknwn person... aur waise bhi teri life toh sirf dard se bhari hay yaar.. phele Ashhar ne tujhe chod kar chala gaya phir mod kar deka tak nahi.... jehan (phupo ka beta) jo tujhe sabse baat karna sikaya aur tujse baat karna hi chod ddiy, uski wajaha se u speaking with your Chacha ka beta adi abbas khan jo teri family ko wo banda pasand tak nahi... aur toh aur friendship may dhoka tumhr kaam toh nahi mila tah na.. phir bhi dusrao pay bharusa itna jaldi karleti ho.... hadd hay yaar .. plzz door reh har kisi say kya pata kal tumhare new friends bhi tume akela chod kar chale jaye....
"Farii darwaza kholo kitna late hogaya pata nai kya karte rehti hay" mom yelled
Oh shit "aye mom"
"Wat were you doing for so long time.. half hour has been passed.. i dont understand wat you do closing the doors..may allah safe me of hearing bad things.... aj kal ka zamana itni bura hogaya hay ke kisi bharosa tak nahi karsakte.. listen fari beta do you have cell phone " mom enquired me
"No mom why will i use cell phone and why will i hide cell from you mom.. " i was so depressed
"I dont know whether I should trust you or not. you can cross any limit.. remember if you will cross your limits na then see" mom was now calmed
Hadh hay yaar.. banda bohot dair tak room may bayt bhi nahi sakta.
"Maaaaaa " i got up and went inside the room and lyed on bed
For their happiness i sacrifice my dream and stayed with them and doing watever they wanted me too do but still they dont trust me... why always everyone give me pain why??? Kyu ho raha hay mere sath aisa...??why allah why?? Meri bhi zindagi hay jisi jeena chahti hun apne andaz se.... kisi ko duk deyna nahi chahti...i want to die
Ab bas bohot sehliya dard bohot bardasht karliye aur ab nahi chalega.. jo mera dil kahe wo may karungi.. jis cheez se mujhe khushi milti hay use apnao gi.. bhad may jai meri family.. muje ab kisi ki parwa nahi.. kabhi dil chaha to flirting bhi karungi aj se i m going to be a BAD girl.. ill ignore everyone... Chahi wo ab imran hi kyu nw ho. ab pyaar aur Dosti toh dur ki baat hay sabr to may sirf timepass karungi ...
A painful smiled played on my lips ..
I took blade in my right hand and wrote "I HATE YOU MY LIFE" on left hand with blade.. i dint feel the pain i saw the blood ozing out .. i just kept on staring on it.... i acted as heartless no pain nothing..
"Fari jab deko tab room may rehti ho.. tum yaha reh kar bhi koi faida nahi.. bhar ajao.. pata haina ghar may sirf may aur tum ho."mom said
"Your dad wanted to speak with you fari come out" mom called me out once again
I pulled down my sleeves and came and sat next to my mom hiding my teary face
I spoke with dad
After sum mins
"Deko beta we scold you not bcz we dnt trust our children.. we scold you bcz we are worried about your future... aj kall aise aise hadsat sunne arahi hay tum nahi janti .. you still a kid.."mom hugged me maybe she knws that i cried ..
I felt really happy only at. That time.
After few months
Then suddenly I received a msg... "open the door🚪" I was scared and damn nervous
I opened the door slowly..
"ass.." before I could complete my sentence he grabbed me and pushed me in.. And closed the door behind us.. Making me jumped back a little..
" kya Kar rahe ho tum.. Wats wrong..." I asked gaining all my energy.
"Whenever I call you,I msg you reply me..orelss tumi pata haina tumhare photos chat or vedios viral kar donga..jab bhi mein bulao tumhe tum ajana mere paas warna..ek sec nahi lagenge mujhe to remove you clothes" he said caressing My checkbones..the lust in his eyes were clearly seen to me.. The 2nd mistake I did trusting this person.,
"Just shut up..jo hona tah wo ho chukka hay... Aur humare beej is baat par bhi baat ho chuki hay.. Galat fehmi tumhe teh.. Mujhe nahi... Ab plz Chale jao yaha Se aur muje apni shakal bhi mat dekana ..i m getting married soon" I jerked his hand from my face and yelled at him with tight slap he still came closer to me and pushed me closer to him keeping his hand on my waist..
"what do you think of yourself..nafrat hay mujhe apse.. Sirf nafrat. Chalein Jaye yaha hay. Ap Ko khuda ka wasta hay.. Mat rukawat bane meri zindagi ka.. Muje meri zindagi jeene day.." I shouted holding his collar the next thing he did to me again ..
"Imran Noo don't touch me..leave me" He kept his hand on my face stopping me from screaming🥺
"Shhhh khamosh yeh toh kuch nahi hay..theek hay mujhe jo karna hay wo mein kar ke Rahunga ok.. HOW DARE YOU TO SLAP ME? " His hand movement were making me uncomfortable . I was pleading him to leave me but he started kissing me forcefully leaving a scare on my shoulder,lips and neck.. Ipushed him away with all the energy I had
The next thing was I was surprised with his reaction
Kabhi apki zindagi ka kata nahi banunga. Ek baat yaad rakna.. May tumhe Kabhi nahi bhool sakunga.. Kabhi nahi... Meri mohabat tum par Kabhi havi nahi hogi.. Bas wada karo Kabhi rao go nahi.. Hamesha khush raho gi.." he laughed sarcastically leaving me horrified with his behaviour
" Kabhi reh sako gi khush.. Me koi aira ghaira nahi hun..tumhe muje face karna hoga. Jab bhi tum mere taraf deko gi, tumi guilt hoga.. Khud Se nafrat karne lago gi tum. Jitni logao ke dilao ke sath Tumne kehla hay na.. Unsab ka hisab tumhe ek din dayna padega. Apni galti ka ahsaas hone par rogi tum. Laykin tumhare pass koi nahi hoga. Jab tume mohabbat hogi aur tumhe bhi Dard hoga.. ... Ap Se aur kya umeed rak Sakta hun may.. Aur ek baat may tume itni asani Se toh peecha nahi chodunga.kabhi nahi. Jo cheez mujhe pasand hay use may hasil karke rehta hun. Jo dard mein tumi dunga na wo tumi marte dum tak yaad rahega kyu ke wo dard sirf ek baar milta hay. See you soon" he holds my arms so harshly almost digging his nails and even tears were forming in his eyes..then suddenly he came more closer to me. .
Muje yeh yaqin nahi ho Raha tah ke.. Tears a true or false.... He left me jerkeing harshly towards the wall with lifeless life...after Giving a severe pain in my body.. I turned away from him cryingly... He walked away and closed the door with thud. Making me scare. I was crying screaming for help.. Wanted to tell my mom and dad.. Himmat nai teh..
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Aur jab mujhe ehsaas hua adi mujhse sach me pyaar karta tah.. Wo duniya ki nazarao mein sirf ek jaal bichaya tah that he is bad person.. Uski ek galti be meri life barbaad kardi kaash kaash hum samjh sakte ek dusre ko... He ruined my life..
"I loved you so much fari.. Meri life mein sirf tum hi teh... Tumhre alawa mein aj tak kisisi pyar nahi kiya.. Mere liye 2 saal intzaar nahi kar sakti" Adi was begging.
"It's too late now... I.. I.. Never... Liked.. Or.. I. Never...... Lo... Love.. Loveed you... I hated you.. Tumhari ek galti ki wajah say I chose a wrong path iska andaza hai tumi Adi.. Kyu, kyu kiya tumne aisa... " I signed controlling my tears "chalejao yaha say.. " Ab na mein tumhare kaabil hun na kisi aur ki.. Sab khatam hogaya.. Everything is finished.. Mujhe baat nahi karni apse.. Just go"
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FB End
But I did not change my decision.. And yes I m regretting now....
Unknown msg " We will meet soon my love"
I m still scared wo phir se ayega..wo sab ko such bata dayge ke that he... He.... No.. No.. He can't do this... No.. He can't say this to anyone...
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