Warning: This may be triggering!!
depression,cutting, suicidal thoughts
Otay! Hope u enjoy
LETS BEGIN!
(Michael's p.o.v.)
Why were people so right?
Why,how did they know everything?
I think about what they say...
It's true
Everything they say is true..
No matter how hard I try to push away the thoughts.
It comes back
Why am I even on this earth anymore?
How can people even look at my ugliness?
"Hey it's time to go to on stage" Calum tells me
He doesn't know I cut and have these thoughts.
No one knows.
I don't want to worry them.
"Ok Cal" I put on my best fake smile.
"Oh yeah later wanna play some FIFA with me Luke cheats and plus your funnier to play with" he smiles
I nod and get up.
"Okay, let's go" I walk out of the room with Cal behind me
I grab my guitar with the X on bottom right.
I'm wearing this long grey sweater to cover my shingles.
So I guess I'll be playing with sweater paws tonight.
"U look cute" Ashton winked playfully
He turned to see Luke with a jealous look on his face.
"Oh come on Lukey I still love u" he kissed Luke on the lips
Yeah if your wondering there dating.
Luke blushed "I love u to ashy"
I wish someone loved me.
And by some one I mean Calum..
Oh who am I kidding he will never love me!
We walk onto the stage, we are singing Don't stop
You're like perfection, some kind of holiday
You got me thinking that we could run away
You want I'll take you there,
You tell me when and where,
Oh oh oh oh
But then I asked for your number,
Said you don't have a phone
It's getting late now,
I gotta let you know
That everybody wants to take you home tonight
But I'm gonna find a way to make you mine
Don't stop doin' what you're doin'
Every time you move to the beat
It gets harder for me
And you know it, know it, know it
Don't stop 'cause you know that I like it
Every time you walk in the room
You got all eyes on you
And you know it, know it, know it
You're coming close now, swear I can taste it,
You got me tongue tied, I can't escape it
I'm loving what you got,
But then you push me off,
Oh oh oh oh
And everybody wants to take you home tonight
But I'm gonna find a way to make you mine
Don't stop doin' what you're doin'
Every time you move to the beat
It gets harder for me
And you know it, know it, You're like perfection,
some kind of holiday
You got me thinking that we could run away
You want I'll take you there,
You tell me when and where,
Oh oh oh oh
But then I asked for your number,
Said you don't have a phone
It's getting late now,
I gotta let you know
That everybody wants to take you home tonight
But I'm gonna find a way to make you mine
Don't stop doin' what you're doin'
Every time you move to the beat
It gets harder for me
And you know it, know it, know it
Don't stop 'cause you know that I like it
Every time you walk in the room
You got all eyes on you
And you know it, know it, know it
You're coming close now, swear I can taste it,
You got me tongue tied, I can't escape it
I'm loving what you got,
But then you push me off,
Oh oh oh oh
And everybody wants to take you home tonight
But I'm gonna find a way to make you mine
Don't stop doin' what you're doin'
Every time you move to the beat
It gets harder for me
And you know it, know it, know it
Don't stop 'cause you know that I like it
Every time you walk in the room
You got all eyes on you
And you know it, know it, know it
Every day it's the same love and games that you play
Back and forth, round and round,
kinda like it this way
Don't stop doin' what you're doin'
'Cause every time you move to the beat
It gets harder for me
And you know it, know it, know it
Don't stop 'cause you know that I like it
Every time you walk in the room
You got all eyes on you
And you know it, know it, know it, know it
Don't stop (don't stop, stop what you're doing) doin' what you're doin'
'Cause you know that, you know that I like it
Every time you move to the beat
It gets harder for me
And you know it, know it, know it
Don't stop, 'cause you know that I like it (you know that I like it)
Every time you walk in the room
You got all eyes on you
And you know it, know it, know it
know it
Don't stop 'cause you know that I like it
Every time you walk in the room
You got all eyes on you
And you know it, know it, know it
Every day it's the same love and games that you play
Back and forth, round and round, kinda like it this way
Don't stop doin' what you're doin'
'Cause every time you move to the beat
It gets harder for me
And you know it, know it, know it
Don't stop 'cause you know that I like it
Every time you walk in the room
You got all eyes on you
And you know it, know it, know it, know it
Don't stop (don't stop, stop what you're
doing) doin' what you're doin'
'Cause you know that, you know that I like it
Every time you move to the beat
It gets harder for me
And you know it, know it, know it
Don't stop, 'cause you know that I like it (you know that I like it)
Every time you walk in the room
You got all eyes on you
And you know it, know it, know it
When we finished the song I heard a 'fan' yell
"Micheal your so ugly! useless and untalented u shouldn't even be in 5sos they don't need you!!"
They were right.
The guys didn't hear the fan.
But I did, loud and clear.
We walked off stage I rushed into the tour bus and was about to go into the bathroom to handle my business.
When someone grabbed my arm and I winced a little and pulled it quickly away to hold it to me chest.
It was Calum.
"Hey I bought u said u were going to play FIFA with me?" he asked
"Oh yeah, sorry I forgot let's go" I chuckled, it was fake obviously
We went into the back room and started playing.
My cuts were starting to itch, to be reopened.
"Hey Mikey?" Cal suddenly said
"Yeah Calum?" I replied
"Why did u pull away so quickly when I grabbed your arm?" He asked looking very concerned
Oh no....
"I-I uh.." I trailed off.
I don't want him to know.
He will think I'm a freak, a emo.
"Mikey lemme see your arm." he demanded.
I shook my head.
"No" I stated
He grabbed my arm.
I winced again from his sudden rough movements.
I tried to pull away but he was to stong.
"Please..Cal...stop" I pleaded and tears built up in my eyes threatening to drop.
He rolled my sleeve up.
He saw them.
(Calum's p.o.v.)
Why would he so this to his perfect skin?
I let my fingers trace the lines.
There were so many...
"Mikey why would u do this?" I almost whispered
"I couldn't take it, no one loves me! The fans don't even love me!" he cried
"Michael that's not true!" I argued
"Yes it is I heard a fan and I seen tweets and know one will love me! I will be alone forever who likes a faggot who cuts and is depressed all the time?" he cried even harder
I pulled him into a hug
"No one cares about me" he whispered and sniffled
"That's a lie" I say
"I care about u Mikey, god I care about u more than I should seeing u like this makes me depressed, and maybe I like u more than I should" I state
"What are u talking about Cal?" Mikey says clearly confused
"I love u" I say calmly
(Michael's p.o.v.)
"I love you"
He loves me.
Calum loves me.
"I'm sorry I couldn't hide it anymore, Im so deeply in love with u Mikey I want u to be my boyfriend please don't say no, I love I for who you are" he stated
"Calum, I love u to and I would love to be your boyfriend" I smile.
This time it's a real smile.
He leaned in and gave me a long passionate kiss.
"I want you to promise me that you will never cut again please" he said
"I promise Cal" I cuddled loser to him and laid there.
I was so happy.
I was loved.
The end
I hope u guys enjoyed this was probably the most cutest thing I have ever written I will update soon, Otay bye love y'all! xxxx ;)