Riannon's POV
I couldn't bring myself to talk, everything came flooding back at that moment,all the hurt,the pain,the unanswered questions. I was afraid if I opened my mouth, I would break down in front of him and I didn't want that. He leaned in closer and I could smell the alcohol on his breath.
'I missed you Riannon.' He softly said, his voice a bit shaky like he was holding back from crying as well.
'Don't. Just don't Jackson. I can't do this..you just left without any explanation. And I tried my best to get over it. You can't just barge right in whenever you feel like.' I was choking on my own words as I tried my best to keep my tone firm. My heart didn't need any more hurt.
He didn't say anything. Instead he ran his fingers through my hair, down to my face, his thumb caressing my quivering lower lip. I wanted to push him away but I couldn't. His hands trailed down the side of my body to my waist at an agonisingly slow pace, like he was trying to savour this little moment with every single second that was passing by, with every touch.
'Why Jackson?' I managed to say through the confusion,the pain piercing through the barriers I had set up. By then, I couldn't hold back the tears anymore.
'Just know that I love you so so much.' He said it with so much emotion,pain intermixed in his words that I almost felt like I could believe him. He ran his fingers up my back and I felt my breath hitch as he pulled my body closer to his. He brought down his soft lips on mine, placing gentle kisses like he was afraid I was too delicate and might break. I was so lost that I didn't stop him, a part of me missing his touch and his love but I couldn't respond. I didn't realise that he was crying as well only till I tasted the saltiness of his tears as I felt his body trembling. My heart hurt and as much as I hated him for what he did, I still wanted to reach out to him and soothe his soul.
The kiss was gentle at first,his own pain hitting me like waves and I was caught in the tides. I didn't know how to react, my arms hanging limply by my side. But before I knew it, I was kissing him back. When he felt that I wasn't resisting anymore,he dived in deeper,our tongues colliding, my hands curled around his collar. I could feel his urgent need through the kiss as the intensity gradually increased. My knees felt weak and I was clinging on to him even tighter as I felt myself going dizzy. He pulled back only to run his lips down my neck,the sound of our laboured breathing filling the room.
I knew this was wrong,but why does it feel so right to be in his arms again?
'Do you know how crazy you drove me when you came in with that guy, Jinyoung?' He whispered as he continued to place kisses on my skin.
My brows furrowed and it was like a bucket of cold water had been poured over me as I caught hold of my senses again. 'Is this what it's all about? You can do whatever you wish but when I finally found a friend in Jinyoung, you decide to come running back?' I slightly pushed him away but he held me firmly in his arms.
'It's nothing like that Riannon. I am sorry that I left, it can't be helped. But at the same time, I want you all to myself and I can't stand the sight of you with him.'
It can't be helped? Is he being serious right now??
'Tell me what you mean by that Jackson? If I really mean anything to you then give me a good reason right now why you left and why it was okay for you to break my heart.' He moved away from me and turned his back towards me.
'I can't.' That was his only reply and I felt the anger take over, more at myself for allowing my stupid heart fall for a moment of weakness.
'Then I have nothing more to say to you as well. Good bye.' I turned the doorknob and was about to walk away when he grabbed hold of my hand.
'No wait! I know I can-'
'Can what??! Enough is enough jackson. Let me go.' I cut him off,trying to pull away from his grip. I didn't want to hear anything he had to say anymore. I just wanted to leave.
'Please Riannon.. I do love you. Please believe me.'
'Are you fucking kidding me right now jackson? What about Jiyeon? Who is she to you then? Care to explain?' My eyes were filled with tears again, and I finally managed to escape his hold as I ran away from him. Heads turned towards us as he came running behind me. 'Riannon. Wait!'
I was almost at the bottom of the stairs when I saw Jinyoung coming towards me, his features filled with worry. His glance shifted to Jackson behind me and for the first time, I saw anger brewing beneath his usually calm demeanour. He pulled me into his arms and skimmed over my tear stained face before a look of resolution settled in those eyes.
'What did you do to her Jackson?' His tone,deathly calm.
'Fuck off. It's none of your business.' Jackson said through gritted teeth.
I tugged on the sleeves of Jinyoung's coat, not wanting to cause any further trouble. 'Leave it. Let's go,' I told him softly. He nodded his head hesitantly and was about to turn when Jackson grabbed his arm. 'No, you're not taking her anywhere.'
Before I could even comprehend what was happening, Jinyoung raised his fist and punched him across his face. Jackson was taken by surprise and fell over, his lip bleeding. He stood up immediately but didn't make any attempt to fight back.
'Stay away Jinyoung. You don't even know anything.'
'Maybe not but I know enough that Riannon doesn't deserve to shed a single tear for anyone.' He turned away from him and pulled me along with him as we walked towards the doors. As I took a look at Jackson, I could see Jiyeon appearing at his side, glaring at him and her head whirled around towards me, hatred in those eyes.
It isn't my problem anymore. She can have him.
I followed Jinyoung silently as we finally reached the car. He didn't say a word as we drove off but I could feel his fury simmering beneath the surface. The drive back home was quiet, I didn't really have the right words to start the conversation anyways.
When we arrived at my apartment,he took a long deep breath and looked at me, his eyes softening as he calmed down. 'I'm sorry if I made you feel uneasy. I was just so angry.'
'It's okay Jinyoung. I can never thank you enough for always being there for me.' I smiled at him.
'Anything as long as you're happy. I'd like to see more of your smile, that's all,' he said, with honesty in his voice. 'Would you care to tell me what happened though, if you don't mind? I really want to help in any way I can.'
I couldn't really hide it from him anymore so I ended him telling him everything, feeling a bit of the burden slip off as he listened patiently through it all.
'It doesn't make sense but it also doesn't change the fact that he shouldn't have done that to you.'
'I guess so but I just wanna forget about it all now. I feel emotionally drained,' I grimly said, feeling tired of all the constant hurt that I've been through these past few weeks. I opened my door,craving to go to my bed and get a good rest after such a terrible night.
He stepped out as well and walked me to the front steps of my building, still deep in thought.'I know you'll be okay Riannon. You are a strong woman. And I will always be there to pull you up if you need a hand.'
I smiled at him. Why couldn't there be more guys like him? He really was an amazing person and he deserved to find a good girl someday.
'Thank you Jinyoung.'
He bade good bye, promising that he would make up for the bad night with a day out coupled with lots of food the following day. I couldn't help grinning as I climbed up the staircase to my apartment. Well at least I had something to look forward to.
I changed and flopped into bed, my cat crawling next to me as if sensing the cloud of distress hanging over my head. I smiled as he purred while licking my face and settling on the spot next to my pillow.
Yeah. He's right. You'll be okay.
I tried my best, hope you liked it. ^^
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