prologue
I looked down at the table my hands were shaking as i tired to keep still and then i remembered i wasn't alone , his shaggy blond hair was even longer now and his blue eyes looked distanced . It had been two years since i've seen him , two years since i came out of rehab a part of me wanted scream at the thought of the word but i kept still and quite . " Jenna " he spoke my name soft but far away , i rushed my head up to look into his eyes but i was far too late he looked away just before i could . " look brandon , we can make this work we can , please we can make it work " i tired to make my words come out carful and not sound like i was begging for him but i was i need him . " jenna " he whispeared softly so soft that i don't know if it was my mind making me think that he said it but didn't " it can't work " before i could think he stood up and walked out the door . Tears rushed to my eyes and the waiter came around " miss , can i get you anything ? " before i could think i spoke " get me the menu on the alcho section " , i knew this wasnt right i've been clean for two years but i needed to find my way out my way our this place .