I perpetually inquire the depth of truth that my acquaintances and friends happen to provide me.
In the prospect of me pondering this, I generally delve into whether or not others happen to have any remote amount of faith in me.
I will simply ask you this. As a reader, do you believe that I have the potential to succeed as a theoretical or experimental astrophysicist? A quantum computer scientist?
Regardless of your response, why exactly?
I highly doubt that I am capable of doing so.
To those of you that consider my intelligent?
May I ask why?
I don't believe that I exert a remote amount of intelligence or a mere essence of knowledge at all.
My writing must also be sufficiently horrendous to the extent in which what I previously had a passion for, writing fiction and science fiction, dissipated and plummeted in attention.
Perhaps I should not pursue any of my initially formulated thoughts and dreams.
It is not as though my thoughts wished to be heard.
Generally no individual comprehends the discussions I wish to prompt, thus I must listen to blabber over social media and nonsensical topics rather than anything remotely stimulating.
Despite being in "advanced" classes, the only time an intellectually stimulating discussion is heard is when a teacher forces it, and it fades rather swiftly.
The curriculum is absurd and illogical.
You may question why I am succeeding in it, well after a certain duration of time, enduring it causes you to conform, despite the fact that I hardly retain any knowledge of the many irrelevant topics discussed.
Idiotic assignments which serve no purpose to my future.
Pardon me, but rather than a health class which does not inform us of sexual education and simply things that we are aware of, why not have a class which delves into finances?
Why isn't that mandatory? Is comprehending mortgages, finances, transactions and transitions not amply important?
I'd rather learn this than have the vast majority of criteria recited. There are very distinct things which are crucial to survive in this world. Yet do we review laws? Do we engage in governmental structures?
I truthfully couldn't care less that it may delve into politics. Controversial topics are controversial due to the amount of information, stimulating topics, and shocking portions which exist inside of them. If an individual is remotely upset, well they can simply leave.
I comprehend outrage. Despising political figures. Of course, that is natural, I do all of these myself. Yet sobbing and refusing to even obtain knowledge about a topic because you dislike the opposition is absurd.
When we happened to have debates in language arts, which @comparings actually wrote about, I was genuinely enlightened.
Our topic was animal testing, we had to be for it, and well, I'm relatively unsure about my fellow teammates, but through the tedious yet riveting task of being knowledgeable about the topic, I became intrigued. We won our debate, over a topic that is generally dismissed.
In a considerable amount of places, stating that you are for animal testing would have your opinions immediately dismissed, and you would be heavily disliked.
However, a plethora of valid arguments exist for both sides.
I'm exhausted of nonsensical topics and fallacies sprouting from adults and children alike.
I simply want logic. Yet with that erupts confusion, debate, and unnecessary complication as well as general intricacy.
Hopefully I survive high school. Hopefully I find my calling and actually accomplish what I wish to.
How many of you believe in me?
None?
That's perfectly fine. I truthfully would not believe in myself if I were another individual.
But I will attempt.
Farewell for now I suppose.