This year just past
went far too fast
yet so much changed
to have it last
Right at the start
we grew apart
she in reverie
I in ennui
I saw the ugly change take place
the sense of loss upon her face
when searching for the words to say
and tears collecting every day
Refusal of the needed care
small things we always used to share
now mountains unassailable
the connections left unable
Hallucinations are taking hold
there's always something she's been told
by a him or her that was just there
but we can't find them anywhere
The meds all fight to hold the line
but I know it's just a matter of time
her conversation makes no sense
though the effort is immense
Each day there's something else forgotten
the mood gets worse, demeanour rotten
instinctive acts are lost for good
things if she could I know she would
And at the end of the day when she's put to bed
and confides to me a wish to be dead
my soul's lining is ripped asunder
because it indicates she still can wonder
That in that mind the owner hides
the key to where all memory resides
in a flash erased without a murmur
gone forever through electric failure
So a new year begins
lacking disciplines
and like the slowly setting sun
I watch the remainder vanish
fighting a battle
that
can't
be
won
H̶a̶p̶p̶y̶ New Year
As the song says, I held her for a little while...