Have you ever felt so incredibly happy that you doubted the realty of the moment and wondered if it was just a cruel game of unconscious illusions? Following that usually comes the second when you pinch your arm to assure yourself, more than anything else, that you're alive.
I say alive, because it feels like that moment freezes your organs and shuts your brain down. Similar to a very brief mental breakdown where all you feel is adrenaline going through your veins. Your heart beats so fast you feel like it stopped.
That's exactly how I feel right now.
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I don't know if I am alive anymore as I run over to Cara and embrace her for the first time since what feels like forever.
I wrap my arms tightly around her neck. "Hey baby!" She giggles softly. I grin and bury my nose in her loosely falling hair as a response. Oh God how I missed this.
I smell her scent in my nostrils again. It's much stronger than her pillow, I smile to myself and give her neck a quick kiss. I pull away from the prolonged hug excitedly. "I can't believe you're actually here!" I hug her again as I jump up and down like a five year old kid. She giggles again. "I had a few days off so I decided to pay my baby a visit." She explains happily.
"You have no idea how much I missed you." I look in her eyes. "Oh Gosh! you must be very exhausted!" Her eyes are extremely red and out of shape. She can never sleep on a plane. "I'm not tired at all!" She protests as she takes a few steps back to get her suitcase from the couch.
"Did I scare you?" She asks with concern. "No! I was just surprised. You told me you were on set like.. " I shrug softly. "Thirty seconds before I saw you!" I laugh.
"I wanted to surprise you but I tripped over that ... Vase..." She sighs. "I'm so so so so so so sorry!" She walks to me with pleading eyes. "It's alright! Don't mind it at all." I hug her once more.
"Let's go to our room?" I suggest and grab her suitcase. "Hey! Thief!" I playfully run towards the stairs. "Give it back!" She whisper yells. "When you're ready, Come and get it!" I joke with Selena's lyrics.
She gives in when she finally catches up with me on the fouth step. I grab her hand as we walk. I need a physical contact to make sure this is not a dream. Believing the fact that Cara is here, with me, 16 days earlier than the actual date sounds like a fictionary fairytale.
She softly strokes the back of my hand with her palm. I think I'm awake.
"How long are you going to be here?" I glance at her for a second. She smiles weakly. "Three days." I stop dead in my tracks. "THREE DAYS?" I ask her loudly. "I know it's very short baby, but it's all I could get. I... I tried so hard to make it longer than this..." She goes on. I can't believe that's how she observes my reaction.
"No! I'm surprised you flew in all the way from Paris to Los Angeles for three days!" I interrupt. "With your sleeping patterns and jet lag, everything is going to be complicated..." I stroke her cheek. "...Because of me." A smile makes its way to her lips. "Nothing's complicated with you."
I lean in and softly kiss her lips. We soon break the kiss as the sound of her suitcase falling down the stairs interrupts our moment. She laughs. "I think it's a suitcase for a vase!" I giggle as I hurriedly rush toward her luggage.
"Don't laugh at me." I playfully scowl her as I walk back up with the suitcase. "I'm laughing at my stuff." She giggles. "I hope there's nothing fragile in there." I muse. "No it's just clothes and stuff like that. It's fine." She smiles as we reach our bedroom.
I open the door for her and motion her to get in.
"Home sweet home." Cara dances around in a circle after we get in. "I even missed the smell." She grins as she takes her jacket off.
I carefully put her suitcase on the ground. "So did I." I reply. She smiles at me sweetly before walking over to her closet.
Her pack of clothing on the nightstand grab my attention. I smile. She never likes folding her clothes or hanging anything on hangers. I missed her messiness. I decide to give her a helping hand.
I spot the grey kitty cat shirt I have forever been looking for next to her jacket. After folding it neatly, I place it back on the same nightstand. She's been wearing my shirt.
I feel a warmness go through my whole body, starting from my stomach and ending in my heart. It takes over me a few times.
It's truly amazing when you realize how hopelessly in love you are with someone that every single thing they do leaves you breathless. They captivate your heart every time you only think about them. You eventually tend to need them for letting every breath you take in. You tend to depend on them to feel alive.
It's undeniably heartwarming when you fall in love.
In the whole universe among galaxies and suns and planets, there is only one better feeling in my opinion :
When you realize they need you just as much as you need them.
Cara walks out of the bathroom with a baggy shirt on. It's somehow a routine we've adopted over time with one another. When it's hot we both sleep in baggy shirts. When it gets slightly colder, I tend to put on as many items of clothing as I can to stay warm while Cara makes zero alternations on her attire.
She comes over to me and wraps her arms around my waist. I subconsciously rest my hands over hers as she gives my cheek a sweet kiss.
"I kind of sneaked it into my a suitcase when you were at D&G's shoot." She confesses the crime she committed. I glance at the shirt in front of us. "Well I have been looking for it ever since." It's her turn to giggle as she plants a kiss on my neck.
"Sorry... I was just embarrassed to tell anyone." "Why?" I turn my head around to face her.
My glance falls into her ocean blue orbs and turns into a gaze. I always feel like someone locked whole universe in her eyes and threw away the key. I see the oceans, the sky, many stars, paths of rivers and even the sun in them. It's shining brightly in her intense stare.
Her gaze leaves my eyes and travels to my lips as I feel her heart beat faster against me. I look down at her cheekbones, her nose, her lips, her jaw and again her eyes to see her stare burning through me.
She leans in softly and I immediately close my eyes. Our lips lock in an extremely intense kiss. I feel the fire burning inside. How I missed our kisses. I bring my hand up and cup her cheek as she deepens the kiss.
She runs her tongue over my bottom lip and I open my mouth slightly. She slides her tongue in. She kisses me deeply and carefully, as if I'm the most fragile glass one can think of.
We pull away panting breathlessly as Cara pecks my lips once again. "I missed you." I remind her. She smiles again and pecks my lips one more time. "Me too."
"God I almost forgot." She smiles and walks over to her suitcase. She carefully places it on the ground and opens the zipper. "Here!" She hands me a gift wrapped box. "What is it?" She grins. "Open and see!"
I excitedly and carefully unfold the wrapping. "Just tear it up already!" Cara whines. "I'm going to keep the wrapping!" She sighs. "It's not fun if you don't tear it! This is too sloooow." I giggle. "It's almost don..." I freeze. "No you didn't!!!" She smiles. "Do you like it?"
I hug her tightly. "I really love it!! I can't believe you remembered this." She got me an Eiffel drawing. Not just any, The one I said I liked the last time we visited Paris together. The shop was closed so we really couldn't t get it back then.
"Thank you." I pull away from the hug. "You're very welcome." She smiles. "Where should I hang it?" She thinks for a second. "Let's do it tomorrow..?" I nod my head. "Yeah you're tired now." "I'm not tired!" She protests. "Let's hang it right now then!" She stays silent for a moment.
"What are you..." She suddenly grabs my by the waist and throws both of us on the bed. I giggle miserably. "Cheater!" She turns the light off and jumps on bed giggling. "Express delivery!" I laugh. "Indeed!" We both slip under covers. I tightly hug Cara's side and listen to the steady rhythm of her heart. I missed sleeping like this.
"I love you." She whispers as she kisses the side of my head. I kiss her neck and breathe her scent in again. "I Iove you." Unlike the past, I fall asleep almost immediately.
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A loud tick wakes me up in the middle of the night. I notice my phone. It must have fallen from the nightstand. It was buzzing on the ground. I try to get out of Cara's tight hold on my stomach but she holds on tighter. "Stay." She kisses my neck. I wrap my arm over hers and smile. Whatever it is, it's got to wait.
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