A/N: I haven't written in first pov in a long time, so sorry if it's a bad chapter! It'll be long I hope you enjoy!
Charlie's pov:
Im trying hard to keep it together. I'm trying to be a good boyfriend for Nick, while he is adjusting to university life.
But it's harder then I realized. Yes, people warned me that long distance relationships don't last. Tao and Elle even broke up over the summer. I didn't handle that news well. I drank too much at a party, Nick and I got into a bad fight. we managed to get over it and stayed together though. Like we always do.
I'm hoping that's how it will go during Long Distance.
Nick has been offline a lot more then usual. We wanted to talk everyday, facetime every night that we could. Part of me knew that wouldn't last. Nick didn't realize how much work Uni is going to be just to pass.
We haven't talked in 4 days. Not to be dramatic, but I feel like my world is falling apart without seeing Nick everyday.
Okay, that's dramatic.
I walked downstairs after spending the morning in my room to get breakfast.
My eating disorder has gotten a little better over the past couple months with therapy and after I went to the physic ward; Geoff, my therapist, is a big help. I'm able to eat full meals without a problem.
The only thing I'm having trouble with is snacks. Geoff is trying to challenge me to eat a snack during the day, I always forget. Maybe on purpose.
"Why's your face like that?" Tori asked. She was eating a bowl of cereal.
Tori always asks me that whenever she notices that something is off.
It was 1pm on a Saturday, I guess we both have the same plans to chill, do nothing. We were both still in our pjs.
"Nick has been busy lately, we haven't talked as much as we planned to. Im trying not to be a needy boyfriend." I ramble out as I pour myself a bowl of Cheerios.
"Ohhh." Tori nodded. "Long distance troubles?" She teased. Tori is my favorite person to talk to about my problems. She always knows how to cheer me up.
Tori is the best sister.
"I guess." I shrugged and grabbed the milk to pour in next. People who pour milk first before their cereal are insane if you ask me.
"I know Nick's busy trying to adjust to university. So I'm not going to bother him." I take a bite.
"Try not to overthink it." Tori said softly.
Oh Tori knows me so well, I overthink everything.
"I wont." I assure with forced smile.
I barley got any sleep last night, my eye bags are gross looking. At this point.
My sleeping schedule isn't the best. Melatonin is my best friend at the moment.
"Want to hang out with me and Micheal today?" Tori asked, to include me in her plans.
Which I'm grateful for; I don't trust myself alone today. I think Tori could tell.
"Micheal wont mind will he?" I wiggle my eyebrows teasingly.
Tori hadn't confirmed that she and micheal were dating yet. But they hang out just as much as me and Nick did. They would make a cute couple.
"No." Tori said.
I nod in response and walk upstairs to force myself to get ready for the day.
My phone buzzed, the first notification I've gotten in over 24 hours. I excitedly tap on the iMessage, hoping it is Nick.
But my face fell as it was only my chaotic friend group chat. The chat included me, Darcy, Tara, Tao, Isaac and Elle. It's called 'Paris Squad'.
I'm surprised I even have friends at this point. I barley make it to hang outs lately.
My social battery from my depression is always low.
Tao: I demand we all hang out soon. Shall we do a game night? my place?
Elle: demand? I guess we don't have an option lol!
I'm glad that they are at least still friends after the breakup.
Darcy: I'm in! Tell me when and I'll be there! :)
Tara: if Darcy's going I'm going
Tao: Yay! It's happening!! Tao: Can you come Charlie?
I stare at my phone for a bit to long; getting lost in my bad thoughts. They've come back again, I need to tell Geoff.
I don't think they'd want me there while I'm missing Nick. I'll be such a drag; ruin the fun. Maybe It'll be better if I'm not there.
Char: I can't. Sorry
Tao: ugh. You never hang out with us anymore!
Elle: Tao. Don't make him feel bad.
Tara: yeah! Give him a break. Charlie's prob just missing Nick.
I rubbed my face and sat on my bed. Tao is definitely mad at me now. I ruin everything. Tears whelmed in my eyes as I put my phone to the side and take a deep breath.
I'm getting overwhelmed from the group chat. My phone buzzed again.
This time it was Nick.
Nicky❤️: are you okay? I saw you weren't hanging out with the gang.
Nicky❤️: Oops I haven't checked in! Uni is already kicking my ass. Lol!
Dang it, I forgot Nick was apart of the groupchat. He probably is worried about me now, I'm such a screw up.
Today is a bad mental day, for sure. I'm trying not to admit it. Maybe it'll go away.
Char: I'm ok! I understand ur busy babe. Don't feel bad. I love you ❤️
Hopefully he can't tell I'm lying over text. But knowing Nick, he probably can.
Nicky❤️: thx for being so understanding. I feel like a bad boyfriend atm 😅 I love you too. miss you sm.
Nicky❤️: Make sure to take care of yourself!
I smiled at my phone, Nick always makes it better.
Char: you are NOT A bad boyfriend!
Char: Just ate breakfast little late but whatever. Still ate.
Char: I hope your eating ok and not just junk food! Lol!!
Nicky❤️: My mom didn't allow candy in the house.
Soo I definitely have some in my dorm room drawer :)
Nicky❤️: don't tell on me!
I can't believe how pure Nick is. He's adorable, the world doesn't deserve him.
Char: ha! You BETTER come back with a bigger belly I can use as a pillow!
Char: Ur very comfy.
Nicky❤️: I'll come back with abs after all these rugby practices ;)
Char: there better not be any hot guys on that rugby team!
Crap, I hope he knows I'm joking and not a jealous boyfriend.
Nicky❤️: Nah. Your the only hot guy in my life 😍😩🥵
Char: stop making me blush
Char: I do hope uni is going good tho.
Char: and your adjusting well and your roommates are nice!
Char: And that rugby is going good!!
Nicky❤️: yes! Everything is great!! Only chaotic and busy. Which can be nice and annoying at times.
Nicky❤️: My roommates name is Ethan. He's pretty chill. No problems there.
Nicky❤️: Rugby is great too! The teammates are cool. Even if I'm not the best on the team anymore 😅
I smile down at my phone as I began my morning, well afternoon routine. Knowing Nick is doing okay instantly calmed my anxiety down.
Char: not the rugby king I see ;)
Nicky❤️: hah. Nope. Got to do some hw now for a class. Love you xx
Part of me doesn't want this conversation to end. But Ik Nick has more important stuff to do then talk to me now.
Char: ok! I Love you too xx
"Charlie! Are you ready!? Micheal is here!" Tori called from downstairs.
I quickly brushed my hair and rushed downstairs. I give micheal a nod as a greeting.
"You take longer to get ready than Tori does." Micheal teased. Tori snorted and grabbed her jacket.
"So what are we doing?" I ask grabbing my jacket as well.
It's pretty cold in at the moment.
"I thought we can go ice skate then lunch? Well dinner after." Micheal rambled out.
I swore I saw Tori smile a little, which is rare.
They really are adorable.
"Fine with me." Tori nods and pulls me out to the car.
A/n: if you made it all the way to the end I applaud you!
Shall I make a part two? I really enjoyed writing this chapter.
Or I can even make it into a new story too!
Let me know what you guys think!