I already hate myself for being a person who does Author's Notes. I am so sorry.
Basically I was gonna just do a wee announcement on my account then realised I should probably just ask here. I sincerely apologise again for anyone who got this notification and now wants me to die in a ditch.
I promised to link some form of my outline for the rest of this fic if I didn't update properly for over a year. It's definitely been longer than that but I've realised I don't actually have an outline that I can give anyone? Plus I feel any outline would be a letdown???
Would anyone want this in the first place (you're allowed to abandon me besties don't worry this is a clown show) and if so what kind of format of an outline would make it still satisfying to read? Should I just start re-outlining and chuck that at y'all? with all my sarcastic jokes included.... or should I do the two months of class-work I'm behind in? lol (i want to commit autodefenestration)
I feel the need to excuse why I didn't write while I had time (which I now don't really have) and it's because basically the next few chapters are covering possibly the biggest part of this fic, I want it to be fucking awesome and I want to be doing my best work when I write it, if this bit is a cop-out I feel like I'll have let myself and this entire fic down.
I'm still not abandoning this I'm just also still having a breakdown, like a proper one this time (as in affecting my future) so that's fun. Sounds like I'm joking but the phrase "If I don't laugh I'll cry" sums up my life right about now, evidenced by the fact I do just keep crying when someone tells me to be serious. So side note anyone got advice for severe executive dysfunction that isn't just 'get medicated' cause I can't do anything and I'm gonna get kicked out of school lmao.
To be clear don't worry about me guys, I'm not in any kind of danger other than my life possibly being put on delay for a year so I can get my shit together, I'm just struggling and this isn't a priority right now. Please don't feel obligated to leave me those sweet messages you all keep throwing my way everytime I mention being a mess, saying you hope I feel better soon. I'm not fishing for pity I'm just trying to be clear as to why I'm not available and might not be for yet another while.
So Hi to all my hoes who have been hanging around for ages, I love you all and I don't understand why any of you return, and anyone who bookmarked this while I've been on hiatus, have no idea who I am and kind of want me to fuck off, Hi to you in particular.
But yeah people who want closure on this fic, would you like an outline? And if so what kind of format would make it still be satisfying for you? Just let me know, or even just message me if you want the sparknotes version or have a question about one little thing you want to know so you can move on. I know with this not being a plotty fic there's less fuss, as it's more the fun of watching it be played out, but I thought I'd offer for those desperate.
Sorry if this is a little late and my sincerest apologies again for sending this notification out when I've got nothing to give any of you.
Also I feel bad for always talking about myself, let me know what y'all have been up to, let's start an oversharing circle maybe I won't feel as bad