"when you find the match inside your hand,
put it away to avoid burning yourself and those around you",
they said this to me as though the first domino is easy to control
as if I like to see the flames destroy and slowly consume, which maybe I do
Is that so wrong? To be bloody and raw?
To see the results of my actions, to know I make a difference at all?
I play cat and mouse like this, playing games when I'm really the prey
I just want to know what can handle the turmoil when my world goes grey
But it's so conflicting, the advice they give
One minute it's "Say what you feel" then "Hold all that shit in"
They sound worse than me with these contradictory statements
Like "I want to feel better" but "It's easier to embrace the chaos"
But I tell myself it is vital to at least put it down on paper,
where it can't touch anyone as deeply as myself,
but I won't have that itch to see blood on my hands
- and that's what art is really all about