A/N: wala lang, basta wala akong alam HAHAHHA
Comeback
Sometimes, we don't expect someone to be back. You didn't ask someone to come back but in just one snap that person was in front of you. I learned how to forgive but to forget? I think it's not easy to move forward, because pain is not easy to fade away.
"Natasha?" A familiar voice called me. I didn't bother to look because I was busy choosing what should i buy. "Kilala mo pa ba ako?" Sinilip niya ako dahilan para magkatama ang tingin namin. Bahagya pa akong lumayo sa kanya.
This guy never gets old. He's still the man that I loved before, before... his charming eyes, messy hair, thin lips. I laughed silently. How can I forget you? You made me feel like nobody's like me before. You're the one who broke my heart. The one that I trust the most yet you broke it.
"Of course! How can i forget you, Pau!" I said, laughing bitterly. Sadness strike in his eyes. Gusto ko siyang tanungin kung bakit ang lakas ng loob niyang lumapit sa akin at para bang walang nangyaring sakitan. I want to curse him until he's dead. I wonder why did I loved this man. "How are you? Mukhang marami ka nang babaeng pina-iyak ha?" I tried not be offensive but I can't.
He laughed awkwardly. "Mukha ba akong nagpapa-iyak ng babae?" I want to punch his freaking face!
"Oo, manhid ka lang dati! Tangina mo!" I said back in my head.
I just shrugged at him. "Ewan, malay ko. Umiyak kasi ako."
He became serious, "Come on, Natasha! It's been 6 years ago. Learn how to move on!"
"Seriously? At the mall? Dito talaga tayo magtatagpo? Dito tayo magsusumbatan? I know how to forgive because you're forgiven but moved on? How? The pain is still here. It can't be vanished easily." I said bitterly. Nasa tago Kamin lugar ng mall kaya walang masyadong tao. Mabuti nalang din dahil gusto kong isampal sa kanya ang dahilan kung bakit hanggang ngayon ay nasasaktan pa rin ako.
He remained silent. Tears formed in my eyes, "T-The trauma...is still here." I feel something stuck in my throat while holding back my tears. I deeply sighed. "Let's not talk here, it's a public place. May hiya pa rin ako."
Iniwan ko siya at pumunta na sa counter, binayaran ko ito pagkatapos ay lumabas na. Ramdam ko ang pagsunod ni Paul sa akin pero hinayaan ko lang ito hanggang sa makarating kami sa parking lot.
I look straight at him. He stopped walking when he saw me looking at him. He gave me an apologetic smile before walking towards me. I crossed my arms.
"I'm sorry...Natasha, I'm really really sorry. Let me explain please. Hindi mo alam yung nangyari–" I cut him. I shook my head, alam na alam ko. "Hindi...hindi mo alam! Kung alam mo, iiwanan mo ba ako?"
"Explain everything Paul, as I've said–you're forgiven. Papakinggan nalang kita kung ayan ang gusto mo. Go on."
He sighed. "She put drugs on my drink. Hindi ko alam ang ginagawa ko no'n. I swear. Wala ako sa sarili."
"Sige. She put drugs on your drink. Okay, what do you want me to do? Gawin ko rin sayo? You already told me, it's been 6 years ago so move on. Ako hindi ko pa nagagawa pero sana gawin mo naman. Hindi ko makakalimutan yun kasi para akong kumuha ng tira-tira. Nandidiri ako sayo! Diring-diri." Marahas kong pinilig ang ulo ko nang makita na naman 'yun sa isip ko.
"Pinatawad na nga kita eh! Ano pang gusto mong gawin ko ha? Ayan na! Sinabi ko na yung gusto kong sabihin, pwede ka nang umalis." I said calmly. He didn't move instead he held my hand tightly. "Take your hands off, Paul."
"Please come back to me...Natasha, I still love you. I haven't forgotten you." He said, begging.
I burst out laughing. "Sorry for laughing but did you hear what you say? Come back, to you? You're making me laugh Paul. Hindi gano'n kadali ang bumalik sayo. Alam kong wala akong alam doon pero...bakit ka pa kasi pumunta doon? I need you that time pero wala ka! nasaan ka? Nasa kaibigan ko. Kino-comfort mo ba siya? Comflirt gano'n?" This time I can't do nothing but to cry. The pain, it's coming back again.
He hugged me, I didn't refused. Maka-ilang beses ko siyang hinampas sa dibdib, hindi niya ako pinipigilan at tinatanggap lahat ng ito. Why do you have to come back? To bring back the pain? I pushed him hard, I was stunned. I saw him at tears...he's crying.
"Hurt me as long as you want. If that's the way to vent your anger, go ahead." He smiled. I shook my head. I slowly walked backwards while my eyes were still on him.
I sobbed. "It's better if you leave Paul. Don't ever come back." Bagsak balikat siyang umalis kaya naman napahinga ako nang maluwag.
Yes, it's been a year yet I'm still hurting. How can I run away if my feet couldn't do a single step. It's like I'm a prisoner in my own cell.
I was about to leave but my eyes caught a familiar face, his face was serious. He's staring at me, narinig niya ba? He rolled his eyes before leaving. He heard it. I laughed while shaking my head. Bakit ba nag-sisi-balikan kayo?
I drove my car back to Jared's apartment. I can't call it mine because it's Jared's apartment by the way. Mabuti nalang at may ilaw sa mga pasilyo kaya hindi ako nahihirapan. Nang makarating sa pintuan ay nagkanda-hirap hirap pa akong maghanap ng susi. Ibinaba ko lahat ng pinamili ko para hanapin sa sling bag ko. My body went cold when someone spoke behind me, he had my keys.
"You left this." He handed me my keys. I took it, still not looking at him. I was about to enter the room but the man immediately held my wrist. "and you left me too..." He's drunk. I can smell the alcohol in his shirt.
I removed his hands on my wrist. "I got my keys, thank you. You can leave now." I said in a calm voice.
He shook his head. "Why would I? I live here." Turo niya sa pinaka dulong kwarto. I was shocked when he hugged me...very tight. It's like he's scared. Isiniksik niya ang ulo niya sa aking leeg. "Are you leaving again? Don't leave me..." my heart suddenly stopped beating. He's still here, the Iñigo that I loved.
"Iñigo, you're drunk. Go to your place." He shook his head again. Naramdaman ko ang labi niya sa aking leeg at paunti-unti itong hinahalikan. "I-Iñigo a-ano ba! Stop!" I tried to push him but he's stronger than me. He continued planting kisses on my neck. I was about to stop him again but his kisses traveled to my jaw and to my lips. It's driving me crazy. I couldn't do anything but respond to his kisses. His lips taste like strawberries. He opened the door of my room, I slowly closed it, still not letting go of his kisses
His hands went from my waist to my back, gently caressing it. My knees become weak. "I-Iñigo..." fuck! This isn't my voice! I can feel him smirking. Shit!! Naka-inom nga! He stopped kissing me.
"I will never let you go again. Never." He said before claiming my lips again.