My alarm went off and I was scared to check it. I can't be pregnant again, Anthony's literally killed almost killed me and it was the worst. The gynecologist told me that I have less than 5 percent chance of getting pregnant and if I were to get pregnant I wouldn't be able to carry it to its first trimester and most likely miscarriage.
I walk over to the table and see the words
"Positive"
I drop the pregnancy test back on the table and grip the dresser. My head drops and I'm not in the state of panic
I can't be pregnant again, I physically don't think I'll be able to do this again. I release the dresser and lay on the bed looking up to the ceiling
The chances of my keeping the baby and making it past the first trimester is slim to none. Making it to its full term is less than two percent and that also means that it doesn't kill me.
I can't do this, I won't be able to do this mentally or physically. I feel the tears prick and i knew this would happen. I can't control my emotions and I don't know what to do anymore. Stefan will have a do over with the new baby maybe even me, but the cost of having this baby might not be worth it. My phone started ringing and I sat up and found my phone
"Hello" I said
"Stassie I need help please, they want to see you" Samantha urgently said
"With what? Who wants to see me?" I questioned
"The dealers, they won't listen to me. Please" she begged. I looked over to the time to see it's 6:45, the play doesn't start till 8:00.
"Text me the address" I said ending the call. I grabbed my car keys and picked up the flowers I got for Ella. I rushed to the car and put in the address. It was going to take me 25 minutes to get me there and then 30 minutes from there to the school. This needs to take less than 30 minutes in order for me to get there in time.
I pulled into the lot and parked it quickly then found where Sam is
"What's the problem?" I questioned asking Samantha
"They won't bother talking to me and want to talk to you" She said
"Why me?" I asked
"I'm assuming because you're still the don" she replied
"Ok let's get this over with" I sighed walking to where everyone else is. There were crates around on this dock not knowing why
"Why was I summoned?" I questioned
"So you're Anastasia" a tall guy in maybe in his 30s answered
"And you are?" I raised my eyebrows, tilting my head down
"Alessandro" he smiled flashing a bright smile. I came down here because of a flirty man who won't give me what is mine
"So why am I here?" I questioned
"You're short" He said
"Excuse me?" I questioned
"You're shorter in person" He said
"I'm sorry" I laughed
"When they talk about the infamous Anastasia whitmore I expect this fierce woman and instead I get this" He pointed up and down to me. I was getting fed up with this game so I pull out my gun and shoot one of his men in the leg
"Fierce enough" I gave him a sarcastic look
"I guess I have to see you in action" he said
"Yes now what is the problem" I was getting frustrated and I already spent 10 minutes talking to this idiot and have gotten no where.
"Our price increased" He said
"Since when?" I exclaimed
"Since you stopped showing" he stated
"I'm retiring Alessandro, your boss knows that and knows Samantha is taking over and the price will stay the same" I replied
"He's not the boss anymore" He said
"What" I questioned. I just got into contact with Jess and I liked him and was the best and gave me a reasonable price
"What's your new price?" I questioned
"One hundred grand on top of our normal price for this much" He said
"Hell no, there's no fucking way" I exclaimed
"I guess no product then" he replied. It was bickering back to back for almost an hour and the was about to start in 10 minutes.
"Alessandro we are your top customers, you lose us and you have nothing" I said
"See that's where you're wrong" He taunted, walking around me "I have been growing under your skin, working with other groups and businesses slowly becoming the top. We give the best products and if I lose you it will mean nothing"
Don't crack, don't crack, don't crack
I looked at my phone again, it is already 8, the play started and I promised Ella I would be in the front row.
I have enough money for it I can spend it but he can't bully us into spending more and more and bully us into spending triple the original price.
"We'll pay an extra 15 grand but that's all" I stated
"I guess no product, wrap it up" Alessandro called out. His men started scurry off.
"Fine" I said, started walking away towards my car.
Please crack alessandro, please crack.
He didn't, I started driving off towards the school when my phone started ringing
"Hello" I said
"Turn your car around, we have a deal" the voice stated. I smiled at the words he let out and turned the car around. Once I got back we negotiated the deal and finished it off. I had to wait for the truck to come which took an extra 30 minutes. It is now 9:05 the play finishes in 25 minutes and I am not going to make it
Once we finish everything I sped to the school and parked, I found the auditorium and see the lights on and families with their kids
I missed it
I had the flowers in my hand looking for my family, spotting them towards the front of the stage. I walk over to them with a sorry look
"Ella I am so sorry, I had a work emergency and I rushed over here as fast as I could" I apologized profusely, I needed to make it up to her and this won't do it.
"You promised" She said
"I know and I am so sorry sweetie, I promise I will see the rest of the shows" I replied getting closer but she backed up
"Don't, just leave me alone" she started walking away, everyone following her.
"Where are you guys going?" I asked
"You messed up" Elijah said
"I know, Elijah please you have to understand" I begged
"Do better" he stated before he walked away leaving me by myself with the flowers in my hand. I stood there dumfounded, not believing this happened.
I have lost everyone in my life, my kids don't like me, Stefan and I don't get along, I lost my parents, brother and more.
I am alone and have lost everything.
I walk towards my car and got in and drove home. Tears were streaming down as I drove home, continuously wiping them
I want to get high and not feel like this
I need to get out of here, I need to get out of this place. Once I got home I packed a bag and called the jet to be ready. Once I got to my office I opened one of my drawers and pulled out some vials and bags
pills and syringes
I shoved it in my bag and left a note for the family. They don't need to worry about me, they never worry.
I rush to my car and to the private terminal and boarded the jet.
"Mrs whitmore, the destination is currently having a storm so there will be some turbulence as we approach it" a stewardess said
"Ok" I replied. I grabbed the blanket and pulled it over me. I didn't have my bag with the stuff with me but I did have some Benadryl to help me sleep.
I took some Benadryl and fell asleep for about 3 hours. I woke up and headed to the bathroom. I looked up to see my reflection in the mirror. My mascara was dried up on my cheeks and my eye bags are atrocious. I washed my face and tried to get most of the makeup off and dried my face.
I was a mess not only my appearance but my mental state. I am not okay and have lost everything
How could I have lost everything
I spent the next three hours contemplating everything that happened. I couldn't stop crying and replaying the scene. The turbulence wasn't bad and it is ironic how my mood correlates with the rain, usually this place is sunny.
Once I landed, I got into the car and drove to the house. Once I pulled up I started ringing on the doorbell. It's midnight so he has to be up. I continued banging and ringing the doorbell, praying he will open.
The door open and he appeared at the door