TW: This contains mentions of stalking and sexual topics.
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Tuesday 21st August 2018
Dear Diary,
Today was AWESOME! I got to follow Mark around in the summer heat. Like, damn. I thought he was hot, but the Sun sure does rival him. Actually, no. No one can beat my man in a beauty contest. Mark will always come out on top, and that's where he should always be. Especially with me.
He should be,
On top,
Of me.
Yes, I like the sound of that very much. And yes, diary, I am a little crazy, thank you very much! Not like I can tell anyone close to me. Writing it down is the closest thing to a friend I've got. It's sad, but I manage.
As each day goes on, my loneliness eats me up inside, and that makes me want Mark even more. I'm in love with Mark if you couldn't tell. I know, I know. It's a pretty good secret I hide well.
Even with my secret, it's so hard to resist Mark. I just had to follow him today, sorry! I can't be the only one that wants to get railed by Mark, right?
I̷f̷ ̷t̷h̷a̷t̷'̷s̷ ̷t̷h̷e̷ ̷c̷a̷s̷e̷,̷ ̷t̷h̷e̷n̷ ̷I̷ ̷m̷i̷g̷h̷t̷ ̷j̷u̷s̷t̷ ̷l̷o̷s̷e̷ ̷m̷y̷ ̷b̷r̷a̷i̷n̷.̷ ̷H̷e̷'̷s̷ ̷m̷i̷n̷e̷ ̷a̷n̷d̷ ̷o̷n̷l̷y̷ ̷m̷i̷n̷e̷.̷
God, it sucks being in love with a popular guy as an outcast. I wish I could be a football player beside him, disappearing into the locker room and having him fuck my brain and guts out. What a dream!
I̷'̷m̷ ̷c̷r̷e̷e̷p̷i̷n̷g̷ ̷m̷y̷s̷e̷l̷f̷ ̷o̷u̷t̷,̷ ̷b̷u̷t̷ ̷I̷ ̷c̷a̷n̷'̷t̷ ̷h̷e̷l̷p̷ ̷i̷t̷.̷
Moving on!
School starts tomorrow, so I'm nervous. I'll have less time to watch Mark sleep in his room, but oh well. He's my number one priority, so homework can always wait.
Well, I'm tired from today, so I'll be going to bed. I hope I dream of Mark banging me so hard my legs just pop off like a barbie doll.
Haechan☀