Warning: cutting
Millie
Finns mouth collided into mine and moved in sync. I've never kissed a boy and I can't believe on what I've missed out on. It was like we were in our own little world and it felt nice. I felt loved and being loved felt way too good, which is why I pulled away and ran.
I ran and ran until I barely could anymore. I looked back and didn't see his house, which was good
Finn treated me like I was something, somebody. He didn't treat me like dirt and gray water.
I really liked Finn and that was what I was scared of. Finn is the most popular guy in school and I'm nothing. Literally nothing
I didn't wanna end of on bad terms but I didn't move to quickly. Everyone would hate me even more than they already did.
I just wanted, no, needed a friend. Not a boyfriend at the moment. I wouldn't be able to take any more pain. I go into my house realizing I left my backpack at Finns house. I had nothing to do tomorrow but clean, and by clean, I mean really clean, so I'll have to get it Monday
I lie down and try to gather my thoughts together but I eventually fall asleep
Monday~ School~ Lunch~ Millie
I walk into the cafeteria and make my way slowly towards Finns table. He has been avoiding me all day and hasn't let me say a word to him
I hope he wasn't mad because of the kiss. I told him it wasn't the kiss and I needed a break, but not from our friendship. The main thing I need right now is friendship
I sit down and look down. I was getting better at keeping my head up but obviously now I wasnt really wanted to be seen
Gaten stares at me with large eyes as if I did something
"I'm gonna go get something to eat now I guess" I whisper lowly
I get up and make my way into the lunch line which was practically empty
"He's never been rejected before" says Sadie who startled me because I didn't even know she was behind me
"I didn't reject him" I say and grab my tray
She raised her eyebrows and steals an ice-cream when the lunch lady wasn't looking
She does a dramatic turn and mocks Finn "I can't believe she rejected me! Her beautiful brown eyes looked at me ran. Ohh how will I ever get over such an amazing beautiful girl!?!" She says loudly and I can't help but smile a little
Did he really act like that?
I leave my tray on the counter and walk up back to Finn's table where Sadie was just eating her stolen ice cream
"Can we talk Finn?" I ask lowly
All of a sudden Noah pops out of nowhere with a huge hickey on his neck, "what'd I miss?"
"Alot" says Sadie
Finn gets up and walks outwards the door and here we are, standing in the hallway
"Why are you avoiding me?" I say
"Why would I not?" He says sarcastically
"It's not a time to be sarcastic Finn. Im serious!"
He rolls his eyes which hurts me a bit
"What happened to our friendship?" I say quietly on the verge of tears
We got along so great. We had an amazing connection and I didn't want that to leave.
"That kiss, Millie! That kiss"
"That kiss was nothing. It meant nothing Finn!" I say. Pain and hurt flashes in his eyes and I can't believe I just lied like that. That kiss was everything to me
Finn
"That kiss was nothing. It meant nothing Finn!"
I hear my heart break a little as those words escape her mouth. I've kissed plenty of girls before but none made me feel the way Millie made me feel.
"You mean nothing Millie! I fucking hate you. I can't believe I let you ruin my reputation.I just felt bad for you! Felt bad you get picked on in the hallways, felt bad you ate lunch alone, felt bad you were a nobody. But guess what, your still a nobody. You'll always be a nobody"
Millie
I felt my heart get ripped into a million pieces. Tears escape my eyes and Finn walks away leaving me. I start sobbing and I couldn't feel my hands, or my feet, but somehow I felt pain. Pain from every part of my body
My hands and lips were trembling and I fall to my knees. He left me, he hated me. The first person I felt safe with, and I could trust, my first friend, and my first love, hated me.
I got up and ran out of school. I ran into my bathroom and slammed the door shut. I slide down the door sobbing and trying to get these horrible thoughts out of my head. I couldn't think straight and I just wanted to be numb, which is why I grabbed my blade, and slowly started to cut
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sorry this was so depressing BUTTTTT it gets better so yeahhhh
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Saving Her ~Fillie~
FanfictionMillie was your average nobody. She got bullied at school and abused at home. She needed saving. Saving from school, saving from her dad, and saving from her mind Can Finn Wolfhard save her and hisself before it's too late? Completed!