To cry inside and not let your tears flow
To miss someone so close to you physically but in reality they are so far emotionally. The old person has vanished away and turned into a destructive hated person.
It hurts so badly not to feel their affection. I keep it in me though. I tell myself one day it will be okay. But in reality I'm not . I miss her... My Mom .
She's here but gone. I want to hug her but I can't. Torment every time I see her.
I want my mom back. I sit right next to her but it feels so different now from then. I want to hug her and be with be with her. Do the things we once did.
Did age and time make things worse?
Where is my mom ? She's in my mind and heart. I cant stop thinking about her.
The warm embraces I wish we could have, Instead I give everyone long hugs to try and fulfill the ones she doesn't give.
I cant stand the silence between us anymore. Something to hold on to not wanting to let go but it already slipped out of my hands
Soon she will come and join me again ...
