𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍, bradley bradshaw

chapter twenty five

And yet, she couldn't help the stupid, stupid words that tumbled out of her mouth, "What are you talking about?" She heard a barely audible sniffle come from him as he still looked down at the asphalt below them. "You. I'm scared of losing you."

Dakota swore her ears just decided to stop working, that after years of flying in insanely loud jets that it had finally taken its toll on her hearing. And yet, somehow, just by him lifting his head, his red eyes that threatened to spill salty tears down his cheeks connected with hers, that showing her sudden confusion of his words. "What?" She felt so idiotic by uttering such a simple word, but her brain just didn't seem to process.

Bradley stood back up to his full height, leaning his left shoulder on his car as he held eye contact with her, to her dismay, making her stomach tighten up in knots of anticipation, her heart beating so rapidly that she was scared it was going to eventually fall out of her ass. "It's like every time I share someone important in my life, they always leave."

The sun cast golden rays onto his tanned face, highlighting his hazel eyes perfectly, shining through his honey curls; god she couldn't be more obsessed with the man in front of her than she was right now. "My mom when she got a boyfriend, my dad with Maverick," her breath hitched in her throat at his words, teetering on the edge of what she felt like she's waited to possibly hear.

"And now you with Payback."

Bradley tugged at her wrists, pulling her hands out of her pockets and held her fingers with such delicacy that she wasn't even sure she felt his touch dancing along the palm of her hand; the rough pads of his fingers tracing small hearts, sending bolts of electricity through her nerves, making her mind fog.

She heard him sniffle lightly once more, making her pull her eyes from their hands to his, her jaw slack, at a lost for words. "Bradley-" "I just can't lose you too. Not right now." He softly spoke, bringing her hands to his mouth, placing a soft kiss on her knuckles.

All the words that were strung through her vocabulary seemingly didn't exist anymore. Her mind was in shambles, a city after a tsunami, angry bees after violent winds swept through their hive, wheat after a thunder storm. She didn't know what to say.

Her mouth opened, trying, wanting, hoping for words to tumble out; yet none did. The person that her mind had by fixated on for god knows how long, finally spit out the words that she wasn't just some fuck to him. She was at least his something. And he was her something too.

"You mean something to me, Dakota." He breathed, pulling her closer to him by her hands, wrapping them around his torso. "And I'm not expectin' you to even say something." He brought his hand up to her cheek, cradling it as if she was the most important person in the world; and she might've been, to him. She leaned into his palm, relishing in the feeling of his hands, one on her cheek, the other around the small of her back, pressing her more into him every so often.

His eyes connected with hers, making her nerves jump, feeling herself meting at the intimacy that the two of them were sharing. . . on the base's parking lot. "I just," he inhaled sharply, his eyes focusing on her mouth as he spoke. "I just wanted you to know that. Before we," a small smile pulled at his lips, hers doing the same. "Before we head out tomorrow." He let out an airy chuckle, the sound encompassing her.

She stayed silent, wanting to cherish what might be the last moment of them alone together, before the mission; her heart clenching painfully in dreading anticipation, her head spinning with thoughts. She didn't want this moment to end, the moment she found out she meant something to the man whose been on her mind for years.

He watched as her teeth peeked from behind her lips, an adorable smile making the corners of her eyes crinkle, a giggle that made his heartrate quicken in his chest. And he couldn't help but match the smile, wanting nothing more than to take away the pain that he might've caused her previously.

Dakota brought her soft palm up and placed in on the back of his neck, fingers getting tangled in the soft curls that grew there. Her eyes softening as she gazed longingly up at him, her smile faltering. Why on earth was she scared to tell him that she felt the equivalent? The doubts overpowering the once gleeful moment.

"You are incredible, Bradley Bradshaw."

She was still hesitant to admit she felt the same way towards him, to admit that he was her something as well. Scared that for some reason, this was all some terrible joke that him and Hangman made up.

So she didn't, and pressed her lips against his lovingly, hoping he could feel, taste, experience the thoughts and feelings she felt for him.

-

Phoenix knew what she was in for when Dakota walked through the door of her apartment with teary eyes, her nose scrunching up every time she sniffled quietly.

So when she walked out of the bathroom, frame engulfed in one of Bradley's old Naval Academy shirts, eyes puffy and red, and hair thrown up to at least be out of her face, she wasn't surprised when the girl walked over to her spot on the couch, and laid her head in her lap and bawled.

Muffled yells and sobs could probably be heard from her next door neighbor, but she didn't care; her best friend was hurting and she needed to be there for her without worry.

She brushed her fingers along the length of her cheek, her other hand holding hers, Dakota squeezing it tightly when occasionally when another round of tears over flowed along her lash line. Phoenix heard muffled words pour from her mouth as she sobbed, stuff along the lines of 'Why didn't I just tell him' and 'He means so much to me'. Her heart broke as she felt her lean her body more into hers; the left side of her face squishing into a pillow that was placed on her lap, pulling her legs further into her chest, setting their intertwined hands on her thigh.

Now Natasha knew Dakota wasn't mad at him, or anyone in that matter. It was herself she was mad at.

Her free hand still delicate brushing down the side of her face, her fingers wiping away the tears that escaped her eyes. "Shh, you're okay 'kota, you're okay." Phoenix tried so desperately to calm her friend down, knowing that they shipped out tomorrow for their mission, and that she didn't and couldn't fly up to her standard with her mind this scattered.

More and more tears just continued to flow down her cheeks freely, her face red and covered in dried tears as she just cried and cried. It's not like there was much more to do, like there was someone else she could pour all this onto, someone else that she could blame for making this happen. She could've easily just told him that he was her something too; that he meant something to her. But she didn't, too brought down by her own doubts.

And so, all that night, while the two of them should've been resting, sleeping, mentally preparing for their upcoming mission that they left for tomorrow, she stayed up with Dakota, knowing that she just needed someone to be there for her, someone that wouldn't judge her, someone that understood her.

PAIGE SPEAKS
OH MY GOD IM IN LOVE WITH THIS?????

now i had to get in the right head space to write this so here are the songs to listen to while reading this if you'd like🙈

penny's return - interlude, by harold faltermeyer

deliverance, by thomas bergersen

and

grace, by arturo cardelús

the last two songs mean a lot to me bc my high school marching band (yes yes ik im in marching band DONT LAUGH) played these songs in their show last year and i cried every time we played that portion of the show ngl🥹🥹

and yes, i'm aware, there has been a serious lack of smut recently BUT NEVER FEAR!! a lot is in the last chapters of this book okay???????😝😝😝😝😝😝😝🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭

i'm really tryna focus on soft! brad x dakota rn and i hope u guys likeeeeee