Scars to your beautiful

Chapter III

I woke up in a jolt, i scanned the dark room trying to see. A figure stood by the open door and moved towards the bed. Without taking my eyes off the figure I turned on the bed side lamp to get a better look.

"What the fuck Bucky? I thought we just covered this, NO SNEAKING UP ON ME!"
"I know but you ran out on me, I couldn't sleep worried. Antonia did i do something to hurt you?" Bucky said looking down at his feet.

I could feel guilt in his tone and patted the bed gesturing him to come sit down. "I am sorry for running out on you like that."I said placing my hand on his. His eyebrows pinched together looking into my eyes for an explanation.

I exhaled looking down at our hands " You know how i got these scars right? The whole Budapest story? I almost died that day and i wish i had!" tears started rolling down my face and i could feel a lump at the back of my throat. I looked over at Bucky who stayed silent rubbing circles on my hand with his thumb.

"I woke up in the Red Room a month later, my father refused to even see me. He made me train with the widows. When he noticed my photographic reflexes that allowed me to mimic anyone's fighting techniques, he had a chip put in the back of my neck." I shifted my hair to the side to show Bucky the chip. "The chip allowed him to be in control of my every action. He turned me into a weapon against my will. I carried out his every deed without ever having a say. For years i had no control over my own body. Every minute i wished i had died in the blast. He made me cover my face at at all times so he shouldn't have to look at me. Every single day he would make me work to reach my 'optimal' potential. Treating me no better than a remote control toy."

Bucky shifted to hold me in his arms. I rested my head on his shoulder as he stroked hair with his metal arm. "I am sorry Antonia. I understand how it feels to not have any control over yourself. Being used like a weapon. I am sorry you had to go through that."

We sat there in silence holding eachother for the rest of the night. As the sunlight filled the room, Bucky got up from the bed still holding my hand. "I am sorry but I should leave now doll. But you know Antonia you are very beautiful please don't ever hide yourself." I smiled as Bucky kissed the top of my head and left.

A warm feeling spread throughout my chest. I couldn't help but smike at myself. No one has ever said that to me. Who knew the once Winter Soldier could be so gentle and kind.