Fuck I love you (yumikuri)

Chapter 7

After she finished packing up, she picked me up with one arm and put me on her hip as she walked back to the car. When we got to the car she unlocked it, putting the picnic things in the trunk and opening the back car door to put me in my booster seat. When she opened it we found a teddy bear with a red ribbon tied around its neck sitting in my booster seat. It had a note sat at its feet and my mom picked it up, reading it. 

"What's that mommy?" I asked pointing at the teddy bear.

"It's from daddy" She said while tucking the note into her back pocket and picking up the bear, handing it to me.

I marveled at the stuffed bear while she put me in my car seat, buckling me in.

"Let's go home" She said, wiping away tears, pulling out of the parking lot and onto the road.

When we got home I walked into her room and saw her leaning against her bed, looking at the note and sobbing.

"Why are you crying?" I asked her, still holding the teddy bear.

"Promise me something" She said, puting the note into one of her drawers and walking over to me, picking me up and hugging me. My face was in her shoulder, my legs dangling once again. "Promise me you will always be strong." She said, pulling me out of the hug and wiping away her tears. "For me, be strong for me."

Everything switched back to that one night, I walking through the hallway calling for my mother. "Mommy?" I asked, peering around the corner and into the kitchen. "Mommy?" I asked, watching the scene unfold. 

Suddenly everything went into slow motion, my mother was on the floor with her arms up, trying to protect herself as she was getting stabbed many times over again by the man. I watched as the knife went into her abdomen, penetrating her skin and blood splattering everywhere. I heard her long high pitched screams that were filled with agony as the knife continuously went into her and was pulled out. After a few more seconds she stopped making noise and her lifeless limbs fell to the floor, landing in the pool of her own blood and splashing more all over the walls.

"MOMMY!" I yelled, running to her lifeless body that was on the floor. I looked down at my dead mother who was laying in a pool of her own crimson colored blood. Her eyes were open and her face was stuck in an expression of udder horor. Her jaw hung open and her hazel eyes that were one full of life and joy and kindness now only resembled death. I watched as the color drained from her beautiful face and her eyes went into a lifeless state. The happy mother I once knew, gone.

I turned around to look at the man holding the knife that was soaked with my mother's blood. I looked up at his face and joyfully realised who it was. 

"DADDY!" I yelled out, running into his arms and dropping my bear, its left arm dipping into the pool of my mother's blood and soaking some of it up. He pulled me into a hug, it was the first time I had seen him in a few years. "Daddy, your back!" I exclaimed pulling out of the hug and looking at his face as the held me. His once admirable face was gone, it had changed and was now tired and sinister.

"Let's go home" He said while picking up my bear and walking out of the house, me still in his arms.

"What happened to mommy?" I asked , "Why is she on the floor?".

"Mommy's taking a nap" He said while putting me in the passenger seat of his red pickup truck and hopping into the driver's seat.

Everything flashes to when I was at the place he took me, I was in a white dress, still holding my bear and getting crowned. The man who was placing the crown on my head was reading from a book and muttering words that I didn't understand. After he placed it and finished talking the crowd of people started to clap and cheer. I didn't understand why people were clapping, but I didn't really care.

The next thing I know these men in black and blue uniforms kick down the door and start shooting everyone in the room. Things went into slow motion again as I looked around, seeing bullets penetrate people's heads and watching their lifeless bodies go limp and drop to the floor. A tall man in one of the uniforms picks me up by my arm and drags me out of the building.

He threw me into a car with flashing lights at the top and started driving while muttering under his breath "You disgust me". He stopped the car when he got to a bridge that was over a river. He picked me up by my arm and looked at me, dangling me over the rushing waters. 

"Filthy fucking animal" He said before letting me go. I looked up as I fell, watching him walk away from the edge and back to his car. I glanced down at the rushing water beneath me and screamed. I watched as the water got closer and closer and closer. I closed my eyes and braced for the impact of the water against my face. "MOMMY!" I yelled as I felt the cold, rushing water smack my face.

-----End of dreamland-----

I woke up as a pillow hit my head. I looked towards the doorway and saw Annie standing there with her arm in a position that looks like she just threw something.

"What the fuck?" I asked, looking at the pillow that just bounced off my face that's now on the ground beside the bed 

"Your girlfriend's making breakfast" She said then walked downstairs.

I walked down the stairs, stumbling as I was still half asleep. When I made it to the bottom I turned the corner to see everyone in the kitchen. Historia was at the stove cooking bacon and eggs, Mikasa was sitting on a barstool and Annie was on her lap. 

"Look who's up, sleepy head" Said Mikasa looking at me

"Good morning 'mir" Said Historia running up to me and hugging me. "Sleep well?" She asked as she pulled away from the hug and looked up at me.

" 'guess so" I mumbled as she stood on her tippy toes and I leaned down so she could give me a kiss on my cheek

"Jesus christ Ymir, you look worse then when I found you on that river bank" Joked Mikasa

I guess I froze because the next thing I knew Historia was shaking my arm and asking me if I was alright.

"Ymir!"

"Oh sorry" I said, scratching the back of my head. "I must have spaced out"

"Ymir about that, I'm sorry. I know that's a sensitive subject for yo-" Said Mikasa before I cut her off

"No it's fine." I said before looking down at Historia. "So whats for breakfast hisu?"

"Uh well we're havi-"

"Wait, let me guess" I said, bending over and giving her a long kiss on the lips. 

"Ymir i-" She said after pulling away.

"Bacon, eggs, orange juice and either ice or frozen waffles"

"I- uh how did you?"

"Why were you eating frozen waffles, they have no flavor?" I asked

"I uh- how did you know then?"

"Your mouth was cold and Annie's fridge is almost always stocked with frozen food."

"Tha bcoonz gohd" Said Annie with her mouth full

"Yeah I agree" I say, smirking at Hisu.

"Ymir-stop" She says blushing and burying her face in her hands.

"Lemme get some more" I say, pulling Historia in for another kiss.

"YMIR!"

"What? You taste like bacon"

"Ymir I-" She started to say

"Love me?"

"Yes Ymir I love you"

"I love you too" I said, giving her a kiss