Meet me at the tree house

Part 1

Please be warned this collection of poems contains mature content and topics. Containing abuse, heavy trauma and implications of suicude please do not read if you are heavily triggered by sensitive topics

Won't you meet me at the tree house a book of poems... The following 28 poems may come off as sad,depressing,suicidal, emotional and various other things but this is how I think and feel on a daily basis. What goes on in my mind and how I put things together. Depending on who you are you may interpret the words in these poems differently but this is my art my creation. This his is how I feel and this is how I choose to express myself and I can only hope you enjoy reading these poems as much as I have writing them but don't assume you know what I'm going through once you've read them. This may be a peek into my mind but it is not a complete portrayal of me but rather an attempt to burn the facade I put on every day so I can discard my negativity and do better. I am jawndrago and I welcome you to the tree house Enjoy...

1.Those emotions
It's that emotion I can't express
The demon that won't let me rest
That hurt inside my chest, The truth I can't vent
A sign that I'm not trying to race till I reach the finish line
But rather racing to crash when the road bends, bring myself a quicker end

2.Worth it
It wasn't only her eyes that told lies
All that shit she said had me feeling like I was going home with the best prize
Turns out I was gone be left falling from the sky
After that got high
She almost made me cry
Felt like I could die but that shit ain't right
That hoe ain't worth my life
I gotta start succeeding
Leave her mentality bleeding
Make her regret leaving
On her knees now she pleading
Gonna go buy my mamma a house
That bitch was never even worth it

3.Sad
Scared to commit suicide
Not because I'd die
But because of the pain that comes with the ride
So I look alive Struggle to survive
Appreciate the ones that help me enjoy this life
Stare at the knife I'm alright I'll be fine
So don't worry about this life of mine
It'll take time before I flatline
Imma run wild portray a Euphoric facade just to pass time I'm alright I'll be fine

4.She is
She is passionate every word she says is magnificent
A queen she's excellent
But she has no need for the world she's in
She's wondering why is this my life
Am I lost she thinks
but she'll never know
All she can do is go home
and make the same mistakes tomorrow

5.Bonnie with no need for Clyde
It hurts that you don't know what this means to me
Hurts even more cause you act like you would bleed for me
When we go out you don't even save a seat for me
But it's okay I've been here before and I'll probably be here again
With another girl who thinks she's a nine outta ten
Got the pretty face
but her IQ level tragic
type of girl that failed all her classes
but with the right words and actions people kneeled with passion

6.My mind and me
It's heavy, my minds unsteady
I'm not the least bit ready Struggling to stand up This fears unsettling
My palms are sweating
But it's okay I don't have to do this today
Play that lo-fi shit and try again the next day
There's always going to be pain
But that doesn't mean I have to feel it today
I'm not insane my minds just accompanied by versions of myself that are hard to maintain
So stay away It's better when I'm alone I like it that way

7.A letter from the heart
I've never liked anyone But the moment I realised I did But couldn't have this person That hurt Not as if I'm heartbroken But rather as if Someone stopped my heart from doing what it wanted to do without legitimate reason I wish I could tell this person but I don't wanna lose them in exchange for emotional honesty and the unlikely possibility something will happen between us

8.Best of the best
At this point I'm starting to think This is just how I'm wired
If wanting to be alive was A part of the jobs requirements At this point I'm the guy they'd think is going to get fired
But everything I do is fire
So they could never let go Of their best hire
And so my pay just went higher
Room full of people But I kept talking to myself
It's the task that will never tire
Worst of all you don't hit my phone no more I'm tired
So I guess I'll just retire Goodbye
I know all of you loved me
And I hope you all know I'm a Liar

9.Tokyo
Bad bitch from Tokyo
Told her she's too perfect
I'm just trying to love her
But she don't even deserve it
Told me she was worth it
But she don't even show it
I'm done Never chase a girl
She can't make me run
I can't even say it was fun
Led me on Played me like a song
Such a cliché I knew you weren't the one
Don't ever come back Or else I'll get my gun