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Hypocrite

As a friend. you try to give the best advice you can

If you see something wrong, you try to help, try to fix it.

Even if you know its hard for them, you would want to tell them what would be best, right?

I know I try.

I give advice, not thinking. not considering the mean time, always thinking about the future.

I have been in those situations, and I'm still alive,so it couldn't be that bad, right?

I guess over time you forget.

I think about the advice I've given, and look at the advice that I should be giving myself

And yet, knowing that its not the way you would want a friend to go

I walk down that path. Maybe its worth the risk?

I'm a hypocrite, the very kind of person I try to avoid.

I'm a hypocrite.

I try and I try to not be the person I would hate to see in the mirror.

I'm satisfied with me. Or at least I think I am

I feel great, I have morals, I'm growing

Its nice to feel a sense of independence not only physically, but mentally

your beliefs. Its nice to be alone,

for a while.

I think about who I am. How I must seem to others.

And I ask, would I want to have myself as a friend?

and although I realize that I do have traits I like in a friend

the word hypocrite rings over and over in my head

Am I just one of those girls? a stupid teenager? am I living the stereotype I've grown to resent?

The stereotype I hate that everyone assumes who we are.

Not all of us are doing drugs, not all of us are having sex. NOT ALL OF US ARE IDIOTS

but actions say more than words,

Are my actions really saying that?

I'm a hypocrite. Why would I consider myself elsewise?

I always look at things that other girls and boys do, and say their stupid, and whether I say it or not, I think they're weak for giving in

But I finally see myself in that situation. I finally see myself and I'm just like them.

I've given in.

And whether or not that makes me weak, I have to apologize, I have really taken for granted what emotions can do to you, I've forgotten

Hypocrite.

Echoes and echoes of "hypocrite" go on in my head. 

that's who I am. 

I can't even follow my own advice.

but honestly, for once,

I hope that my advice will be proven wrong.

I'm doing this.

I'm going to be a hypocrite, I'm going to accept it

And I'm hopefully going to make it.