My safe place (Jensen X Reader)

Chapter 52

Of course I couldn't sleep. How didn't I notice earlier? Why am I forgetting so many things lately? Am I getting Alzheimer's? Like my dad's aunt, who's name I still can't remember.

A few hours later Jensen came in the room probably to check on me. "How are you feeling?" he asks
"Please come here" I say and he does. He sits next to me on the bed and I hug him. "Whatever happens I want you to know that I love you and I will always love you" I say
"Babe, what happened?" he asks pulling away.
"I think that I'm getting Alzheimer's" I say and a few tears form in my eyes.

But Jensen laughs at me "No, you're not. I mean you? Alzheimer's? No, never. Your memory is better than anyone's" he says
"Not anymore" I say
"Why? Because you forgot Kelly's birthday?" he asks
"No, it's not only that. You texted me and I forgot that I replied. I put the clothes in the washing machine last week and forgot to turn it on. I even forgot the stove on. I went to the grocery store today and I forgot to buy half the things I needed" I say
"Then make a list" he says
"I never needed a list. But this time I made one because I was gonna send you to the grocery store and I forgot that too" I say
"Then put a post it on the door to not forget the list" he says
"Yeah and then I should put a post it in the car to don't forget the post it on the door" I say ironically.

"I'm starting to forget things Jensen. DNA is a big factor here and I have it in me" I say
"Yes, but pregnancy can cause it also. By the way, who had Alzheimer's from your family?" he asks
"My dad's aunt! Why do you think I am trying to remember her? She died from Alzheimer's" I say
"Ok, she is barely your family. I mean I don't know much here but your grandmother's sister isn't really close family" he says
"Yeah but she is family. And I still can't remember her name. I've searched every name starting from C but nothing" I say
"If that's what's bothering you, call your dad and ask him. He should remember" he suggests
"No, I don't want to just hear it. I need to work on it and find it myself" I say and he rolls his eyes.

"Jensen..." I say and I cup his face "I know that it's gonna be hard... But if that day comes that I don't remember you... Please don't keep me here. Leave me in a nursing home. I don't want you to live like this" I say crying and he takes my hand and rubs it softly. "And if you can't come and visit me, I won't be mad because I know that it's gonna be hard for you to be standing there and I won't recognize you" I continue still crying
"Baby, baby, look at me. You will be fine. Please calm down" he says
"Just say to our babygirl that I love her very very much and that she'll always be my baby and I'll always love her even if I don't remember her" I say between my sobs.

"Hey, hey..." he says holding my hand making me look at him "If what you think happens... And that's a big if... If what you're scared of happen, I'll be there. I won't leave you alone" he says
"Really?" I ask
"Yeah. I'll be right there in your bed, day and night. What should I do? Just sit here and do nothing? No. I'll be with you because you are my home. You are what makes my life brighter so I'll always be with you" he says making me emotional again. "And I'll keep reminding you of who I am, how we fell in love keeping only the good parts of course" he says
"Like The Notebook?" I ask
"Yes" he says "I'll be... I don't remember his name..."
"Noah, but you're prettier than Ryan Gosling" I say and he chuckles
"Thank you. And you'll be an even prettier version of... Uhm..." he says trying to remember the name
"Allie" I say
"Yes, thank you" he says.

"See? I might be the one forgetting things not you. You are just a little distracted lately" he says putting his hand on my belly
"I'll be fine?" I ask
"Yes baby" he says and hugs me
"I love you so much" I say
"I love you too" he says and kisses me. "Now let's go to sleep and we'll talk about everything in the morning, ok?" he asks and I nod. I get under the covers and Jensen holds me close to him.

I open my eyes and I sit back up immediately. "Corliss!" I say
"What?" Jensen asks
"Her name was Corliss! Yes! Yes! Yes! Aunt Corliss" I say
"Ok, can we sleep now?" he asks
"Yeah" I say and I lay back down more relived. "Corliss. Eat my dust Alzheimer's" I say and Jensen chuckles.
"Goodnight" he says
"Goodnight" I say and I kiss him before I close me eyes.