Alarming Dreams

Savior

I can see.

I can hear.

I can’t feel…

But then his lips land on mine.

I don’t need to be idly staring out at the white clouds painted across a blue sky.

I don’t need to disregard every click and conversation ringing through my ears.

I don’t need to not pay attention to the world around me.

I just need to pay more attention to the world inside me.

A thought, an emotion, a random notion 

which comes from within.

Every time I’m overwhelmed with the reality,
he guides me into my subconscious. 

I can forget about the endless hours of trying
to balance school and people and work and meals
and everything that makes me dizzy.

Because everything with him is simply
being there and doing nothing.

Absolutely nothing while he holds me
close and comforts me, kisses and caresses me,
with an electricity that makes me alive again. 

And I can yell and cry and laugh and smile.

And I can be speechless because he already knows.

And I can just be.

Be anything, everything, and nothing.

And it’s when I’m nothing, 

When I see nothing, 

When I hear nothing, 

That I feel something.

Something indescribable… 

Something incredible… 

Something like here and now…