ELLIE'S POV
As I walk towards Jesse's door I took a few stumbles but kept my posture completely shrugging off the drunkness. As I made it to the door my hand started shaking so I clenched it to form a fist then used my right hand to knock at the door I knocked gently three times until I heard someone walking towards the door and as it opens the door revealse Jesse whose surprised to see me
-" Ellie....what're you doing here? It's midnight and you're drunk" He said
-" I ain't drunk I just had a few drinks that's all" I answered
-" Still...what're you doing here?" He asked
-" Jesse I'll go straight to the point........I need to talk to Dina" I said
-" Ellie I don't think-----" I stopped him at his sentence
-" Please Jesse I promise this is the last time we'll talk then I'll go away if that's what y'all want" I said
-" Ellie as much as I wanted to but I don't think Dina would want to talk to you right now especially you're drunk so how about tomorrow?" Jesse asked
-" Jesse this can't wait tomorrow" I said
-" Ellie-----" He wasn't able to finish his sentence as Dina steps in
-" Jesse it's ok" Dina said
Upon saying that Jesse let's me in and as I stood in Jesse talked to Dina then walked upstairs
-" I'll go check on Thony......you two can talk at the living room if my parents aren't in there if they're there you two can talk outside on the porch" Jesse said
-" Yeah sure" Dina answered
When Jesse disappeared Dina waljed to the living room as I follow her when we got there I saw Jesse's parents watching a movie
-" Dina what brings you here?.......Oh Ellie you're here" Jesse's mom said
-" Are you drunk?" Jesse's Dad asked but I didn't answer
-" Ellie's just here because she wants to talk to me" Dina said
-" Oh is that so....you two can talk here " Jesse's mom said
-" Really?" Dina asked
-" Yeah the movie's over anyway" Jesse's dad answered
The couple stood up then walked towards me giving me a hug
-" We're glad you're back Ellie" Jesse's dad said
-" Hoping you're still the Ellie we know eventhough many things have changed" Jesse's mom said holding my left hand ang examining my two missing fingers
-" I still am" I said
After tbat the couple went upstairs. After making sure they're gone Dina walked over to the right direction to sit at the chair then I sat to the other chaur facing Dina in the middle there's a medium sized coffee table seperating us. As I sat down silence took over and the only noise you can hear is the howls owls make and sighs me and Dina releases we went silent for a few minutes when Dina broke it
-" Ellie why are you here in the middle of the night in a drunken state?" Dina asked
I'm immediately going to answer her question but I stopped myself and decided to change the topic
-" How's Thony?" I asked
I can tell Dina got pissed iff as I didn't answer her questuon but she kept her cool
-" She's fine" She answered
-" Ok that's good to know" I replied
-" When you left she kept asking when are you returning but I didn't know what to answer so I just kept telling her to wait" She added
After hearing that I couldn't help but feel bad for Dina and Thony once more
-" Oh" I said
-" If you want to spend time with Thony I'll let you since you became close to her" she said
-" Thanks I appreciate that" I replied
-" Now tell me Ellie why are you here?" Dina asked again
At that moment I couldn't control myself anymore drunkness reuled over me and instantly I answered her
-" Dina I'm sorry..........I'm a fucking idiot as much as I don't want to ruin the family you had now.......I just I couldn't help myself.......Dina I'll go straight to the point I still need you, I missed you I missed your hugs, your kisses I missed all of you so much and I........I want you back and I.....I....I still love you" I said looking down and started wiping my tears that are building up in the corners of my eyes
-" Heh........Are you fucking Joking Ellie? Tell me you are" she simply replies
I looked at her and our eyes interlocked each other and then I answered
-" I wish I was Dina but I ain't fucking Joking............I-I know I'm an idiot it's my fault I got into this mess It's my fault our family fell apart but I ain't joking
-" Are you hearing yourself?......I mean is it really worth breaking our family Ellie?...did you kill her atleast?" Dina asked
-" No.........I was about to......I was there drowning her but then I saw the boy and I thought of Thony and you then I saw my mom and at that moment I just I couldn't do it......I.......I......I-I couldn't" I said looking at my two hands then I looked at Dina who I cam tell was concerned but didn't bother to say it
-" Ellie.....I am glad you found forgiveness at that point and didn't kill her" she replied
-" Dina.......I still am the Ellie you loved" I said
-" Ellie it's been fucking 5 months......you don't know how hard for me to take that you chose her over us" Dina said
-" Dina.....I k ow I fucked up I know what I did is messed up but Dina I didn't intend for you to feel that she's more important than you and Thony" I said
-" But Ellie that's what you made me feel" She replied
-" Dina------" she cuts me off
-" Ellie in those 5 months I already urge myself to stop loving you in those 5 months my heart griefed for a person that's alive but for me is dead. Ellie me and Thony and Jesse are going well at running our family but when I heard you're back my heart starts to get confused again" Dina stated
-" Dina I didn't intend for that to happen but I know deep inside your heart I know you still love me" I said
" Maybe Ellie.......maybe deep inside I still love you....but I don't think that's enough reason for me to forgive you.....Ellie I need time and space......when you left that farmhouse for me you ended our relationship you broke me apart" she said and broke me also
-" Dina...I love you I still do" I said as both of our tears dtarted falling
-" Ellie you need to go home you need rest you're drunk you don't know what you're saying" she said
she stood up then pulle me out of the chair pushing me towards the door and out of the house she's about to close the door when I grabbed her right hand as I grabbed her hand I notived two familiar things one is the ring I saw in Seattle and two is the bracelet she gave me I didn't notice those two until now Dina also looked at it and we both stared at it for seconds
-" This is the ring I found back at Seattle How'd you find it I hid it at thr flanel I used when we're there" I said
-" It doesn't matter" Dina said pulling her hand and closing the door but I stopped it again
-" Dina hear me out......I just want you to know for the last time........I ain't joking when I say I need you, I ain't joking when I said I wan you back, I ain't joking when I said I missed you but most of all I'm not fucking joking when I said I love you and I still love you" I said
-" Ellie just go" she said pushing me and conpletely closing the door
agter she closed the door I rested my forehead on the door as I did that I can hear Dina on the other side crying I stayed in that position until I heard Dina walking away at the door and completely silence took over the other side of the door I took one last look at the door then decided to go home. When I got home I saw Joel drinking coffee while looking at me
-" Where've you been?" He asked as he went to me and gave me a hug
-" I told you I'm at the bar" I said
-" Yeah I know I can smell that but based on your eyes you went somewhere else" He said
-" Ok.......I went to Jesse's house" I said
-" Ok what'd you do there?" He asked again
I went to the chair next to where Joel is sitting earlier and he did the same
-" I talked to Dina" I continued
-" Ok" He replied
-" Yeah" I replied
-" Mind telling me what happened?" He asked
-" Eh....sure" I said
I started telling what happened then I started tearing up I'm just glad Joel was there to confort me
-" Hey kiddo all I can say is I wouldn't blame Dina she went through a lot while you're gone and all I can say is give her time........how about you get some rest I know you're sleepy and tired so got to your room and rest" He said
-" Sure.....thanks Joel" I said giving Joel a hug
-" Ofcourse kiddo" He said
I went up to my room but I didn't sleep I was wishing my drunkness to take over so I can sleep but it didn't I went to play the guitar and when I felt tired I decided to lay in my bed then slowly faded to sleep
