Adopted by Joe Sugg

8

maisie's pov:
i woke up and i was back home in my bed. i checked my phone and it's 8am. wow i must of been tired. i got up. brushed my teeth and headed downstairs.

today i feel a little bit better. hopefully i won't cry as much. i felt like i let joe down yesterday. he was so happy for me and then i felt like he was disappointed. i understand though. i shouldn't of been sick. i just needed to get up the food though. i felt too fat.

i approached the couch and sat next to dianne. cuddling into her side. she was uploading a new video to her new youtube channel buswellness. it's going great and i'm proud of her. she's always wanted to do this.
"how are you feeling today bub" dianne said whilst putting her arm around me, pulling me closer to her. i nodded my head
"a lot better actually!" i said and dianne smiled at me
"i need to apologise to you and joe though" i continued what i was saying.
"why?" she asked confused. she pushed my bed head hair out of my face whilst listening to me explain myslef
"i don't know if joe told you but i threw back up my dinner last night." i replied, disappointed in myself. i looked back at diannes laptop
"oh sweetie, he told me on our way back home. it's okay. we all know you tried to atleast eat it. it's a big improvement and we are all still proud of that. no need to apologise. i understand you" dianne said softly reassuring me that it's okay
"i'm still sorry though. i just felt disgusting and fat afterwards. i needed to get rid of it" i rested my head on her shoulder and dianne sighed.
"i can take you to the doctors if you want." dianne said rubbing my arm to calm me down as she knows i won't like the idea. i gulped and shook my head
"i can't" i spoke so quietly it was almost a whisper.
"i could never" i spoke and dianne looked at me sadly
"could you atleast try. they're here to help you. you need to get better maisie. what you're doing is so unhealthy and i know it's not your fault. it's not anyone's fault but it's not good. we are all worried about you" dianne said almost crying. i looked up at her and could see her eyes watering.
i am hurting myslef and others. what is wrong with me. she's probably mad at me now.
"i'm sorry" i said looking away from her
"it's okay" dianne sniffled
"we will talk about this later with joe" she spoke again and i nodded my head

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it's now later on in the day. i don't really have much to do these days. i've done my school work and stuff, cleaned my room, helped dianne film a tik tok and had a nap.
all 3 of us are watching tv downstairs, joe and dianne cuddles together and me in the corner of the sofa. sometimes i feel like i get in the way of them. they never really have alone time because i'm always around.
my thoughts start to get louder in my head. maybe i should leave but i don't have anywhere to go.
i can feel myself shake. i put my head in my hands quietly trying to calm myself down without anyone noticing but of course i fail

"mais?" joe speaks up causing dianne to look at me too
i don't respond. i don't have anything to say
"i'm sorry" i burst out crying and they both look at me confused
"i'm always in the way, you're constantly looking after me, i should just leave" i cry. about to get up but joe pulls me back down onto the couch
"no, don't say that! i'm your parental guardian. i'm responsible for you" joe said looking at me worried
"what's made you think that you're in our way mais. you could never be in our way" dianne said standing up and sitting beside me. pulling me into a hug, i cried into her shoulder. she rubbed my head soothingly trying to calm me down.
i didn't want to cry today
"maisie, come on, we love you. we hate seeing you like this" joe said moving closer to me. i stopped crying and looked down.
"i'm sorry, i'm so sorry" i whispered and joe pulled me into his side and cuddled me for a while, dianne laying on me.
"maisie?" joe said catching my attention.
he looked scared
"we are going to take you to the doctors at the weekend okay" he said quietly. i looked at him, my heart dropped and i nodded my head. it's the best thing to do.
joe kissed my forehead and reminded me that he loves me. i love them too. it's just tough because i want to get better but part of me doesn't want to.

A/N: so i'm going to jump to today's date in the next chapter. maybe make things up a bit. i'm not really sure but whatever i do i hope you enjoy