Impossible *Conor Maynard love story*

chapter nine : tell him i was happy in my heart is broken

I tried to focus on my chemistry subject but i cant i felt pain on my stomach and mouth . I heard a knocked from my door .. Im not open it , just wondering who is knocked my door that's impossible my step father and my step mother coming here or Adriana coming here . 

"Keira open the door , you have a guest" Adriana still knocked the door . I dont want to open the door or get out from here . I dont want people to see my face like this .

"who?" I asked

"i think a guy, his name is Conor Maynard" she yelled . I was shocked , why is he here ? I want to get out but i cant i dont want him to see my face like this .

"say to him im busy right now.." I yelled to him

"Ok" I hear footsteps gone , gone from my bedroom . I sigh i dont want him to see me like this full of bruised . I dont want him worried about me and make him trouble .  I dont want him thinking about me and he forget about his fans .

I felt a tears dropped my face , my legs trembling i fell on the ground . I closed my face with my hands . I dont know what to do .. should i let him know about me , about my life . Life is full of darkness no brightening , brightening cant help me from my darkness . 

I want Conor help me to save me from my life .. i dont to be a kid drowning on the river , dead alone there and no one want to help her . I need Conor and no one else . I cant held this pain anymore .. but someone teach me to be patient . Someone who was love me when im 5 .. that is my dad and my mom .. 

I loved them so much .. i want them come back but i cant ... i need them if they're still alive .. maybe my life not like this , full of drama .. my physical i was smiling and always laughing . but my mental i always crying , crying and crying and no one know about this .

I already lose my family and i dont want to lose Conor , i dont want him gooo , go and leave me alone like a girl no one want to be her friend and no one care about her as she just born for useless people and loser .

I laid myself on my bed , and cover myself with blanket . I felt my eyes getting heavy ,heavy and heavy .