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Chapter 37

"Y-you ok?" Jungkook said as you were already back, walking towards your rooms
"Why wouldn't I be?" You said and smiled towards jungkook,l
"It's not your fault" you continued and stopped in front of your rooms door
"That's revealing" jungkook said and sighed
"You know, we can still be best friends" he said and smiled
"I had fun today, the next time I'll choose where to go ok?" He said and you nodded your head
"Please don't tell anyone ok? About me being gay..." he said awkwardly scratching the back of his head looking down at the floor
"Don't worry jungkook, your secret's safe with me" you said and shot him a smile
"Ok, then. Bye" he said and walked away
You put your hand on the door knob, twisting it slowly still trying to hold your tears
You opened the door walking with heavy steps inside with your head hung low

"Look who is back" yoongi said eyeing you from top to bottom
"I said that twice but I'll say that again, I already warned you but you pushed my advice away" he said looking at the TV

"You already knew..." you said wiping your already falling tears

"You already knew that he is gay" you continued

"How did you know?" You coughed

"Why didn't you tell me already?" You said and looked up at yoongi who was shocked when he saw your unstoppable tears

"Why am I so pathetic?" You asked and sat on the floor

"Why do I always put my hopes up?"

"Why isn't anything working out for me?"

"I am so pathetic!"

"Y/N!" Yoongi yelled at you seeing your current state, he wasn't ready to see you break down again

"Don't talk with me! " you yelled back at him feeling all broken

"You aren't pathetic because a GAY guy rejected you, a girl" he said and stood up

"And you MUST know that life is a mixture of sadness and happiness, that means that after all of this BAD LUCK you are coming through, will end soon" he said holding your shoulders

"Jungkook isn't a perfect guy, you can definitely find someone who is way more better than him, easily" he continued

"Jungkook didn't want anyone to know that he's gay, so I was willing for you to just forget about him so he doesn't have to tell you about his sexuality" he said

"But this isn't the first time this happens" you said gulping down

"Suga also left me like this after our promise, You don't know how many years I've been waiting for him' you said

"I looked for him everywhere, but I didn't find him. I started to believe he already forgot about me and just got hooked with someone else" you said as yoongi's grip was getting tighter

"Maybe he's looking for you too" he said looking directly in your eyes, Suga wasn't looking for you because he already knew where you were, but since your father was his father's enemy, he couldn't do anything but wait for the right time to come, but here it is, everything is just being messier and messier every day

"If he was already trying we would have been a couple by now" you said

'No y/n, we couldn't' yoongi thought and gulped down

But you flinched hard when yoongi pushed his soft lips towards yours, pecking them, making you calm down a bit
He broke the kiss and looked at your eyes with serious eyes

"Just forget about that suga and find yourself someone who'll love you" he said gulping down

You looked at his eyes as your cheeks were burning red

"What's that for?" You asked yoongi in a nervous tone

"To shut you up" he said and walked towards the coach

"You know what? I miss y/n who used to be my rival, studying her ass off looking forward to beat me one day" he said and sat down

"You've changed a lot y/n" he said as his words were stabbing you hard

He's right, you changed a lot, love is just like some poison, and you were so stupid that you realized it just now

You stood up and wiped you tears, something was telling you to just go and forget about everything, and just go have a 3 days break to clean your messy thoughts. You've been in a sensitive situation ever since your father's death and you SHOULD snap out of it

You should go back to the normal y/n who used to prefer studying over hanging out with taehyung,who used to wear a random hoodie and jeans for school, who used to like herself for being herself, who used to depend on her own self

Who used to be strong...

You walked towards the room and closed the door quietly behind you as yoongi's gazes were following you

'Y/n, I don't want you to love me because I am Suga, I want you to love because I am Yoongi'

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*sigh* I feel good now after writing this hehe