Thoughts from Late at Night

Uneven Friendship

I’m so worried about everyone else. They all take precedence over myself in my own life, and I’m okay with it. They all have more important things going on and different things they are battling right now. Their issues reach all across the board and I can’t begin to explain them or the ones that I probably don’t even know about. I think that is what worries me the most, the things I don’t know. I run through scenario after scenario about what they could be thinking or doing and that scares me. It all is really scary to me. I never want any of them to feel this way, and I want me to feel it all. I rather feel it then them feel it. 

This is all so stupid I feel. I’m saying these things knowing that I’m a secondary. I’m that friend that is there, but I’m not important. They can do things without me and be fine. I think about this stuff a lot too. If any one of them was given a ticket to six flags, or go to there favorite band’s concert, or even travel the world, and they were aloud to bring one other person, none of them would pick me first. Maybe not even second. I’m the secondary or whatever place friend, but I’m not complaining. At least I am a friend.