Yes Daddy

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

FlashBack

"Daddy please dont do this. Please dont take my baby from me!" I begged my father as the nurses held me down so they could sedate me. "Daddy please I'll  be good im begging you. Uncle 8 please dont let him do this. Im sorry please im so sorry please dont punish my baby for something I did please!"

My screams filled the room as I faught against the nurses. My uncle 8 had head against the wall of the hospital room and even though I was struggling I could see tears falling out of his eyes. My dad stared at me with pure disgust.

"Stop." The nurses held me down but the doctor stopped his movement. "You wanna keep this baby? You want the world to know that my little girl is a fucking whore? If you keep this baby I will make the rest of your life a living hell do you want that Britt?"

Tears fell from my eyes as I looked at my daddy. This wasnt my dad this was Black the man that nightmares are made of. My tears kept falling as I stared in his eyes they held no emotion.

"If it means you'll let me keep my baby then yes daddy, im begging you daddy please." For a second my dad eyes held compassion before they went back to that soulless stare.

"Kill it." A scream left my mouth again as the doctor started trying to sedate me again.

"Daddy please..." my body went numb as the doctor aborted my baby. My dad would never love me the same anymore. I know im going to eventually forgive him because he's not himself right now . He lost one of his best friends and found out that his preteen daughter was pregnant all in the same week.

When he first questioned me I lied through my teeth. I knew if I told him who the father of my child was he would go nuts and seeing this side of him probably say I'm a liar.

I also knew if I told him I killed his best friend he would either kill me or beat me. So this would go to the grave with my "uncle" Pac and our unborn child. The child he made when he raped a beat me repeatedly.

I thought my dad would notice his friend acting different with me more friendly with me and more possessive of me. But he didn't I was forced to endure my so called uncles abuse until last week. When we found out I was pregnant.

He wanted me to run away with him to be with him I said no and he just started beating me. He never hit me in my face maybe afraid that my dad might notice. I dont know how but somehow I got his gun off him and shot him.

I turned my head to the side  and saw what I think is my placenta or whatever my child was in, I turned away and saw my dad and uncle 8 staring at my child with hatred. Nothing would ever be the same for any of us. This was the day he lost his heart his compassion the last thing that made him human.

And it was my fault I should of just went with my uncle let him do whatever he pleased with me. My dad would still have his soul and he would have the two people who meant the most to him in the world. My Uncle 8 and my Uncle Pac. He would be disappointed and not disgusted. And I would have been able to keep my child.
END OF FLASHBACK

I woke up out of my dream in sweat. I haven't thought of my "uncle" in years. But the fact that im thinking of him now lets me know that apart of me still feel guilty. It was 3 in the morning and i bet you any money my dad and Shadow 'nem are still at the shop. I roll out of bed grab my keys and head towards the shop.

When i pull up the shop is empty except for Cherry, Tiny, Shadow, Tina, James, my dad and uncle 8. I walk in while my dad is talking to James.

"Hi Britt!" Tiny said.

"Hi... Dad i have to tell you something."

My dad eye twitched before he gave me his full attention. "About?" i let a breath out and before i realized it i was crying. Tiny started to come comfort me when i shook my head no.

"Im so sorry i didnt know what to do and i was scared to tell you you or Uncle 8 what was going on because i knew you wouldnt believe me and you might not believe but i needed to get this off my chest."

"What are you talking about?" my uncle 8 asked with a confused look on his face along with my dad.

"When i got pregnant and you asked who the dad was i lied. I told you i didnt know but i did. I wanted to tell you what he did to me. What he made me do to him but i was scared how you were going to react towards me. I didnt wanna get trouble so i stayed quiet and then he found out i was pregnant and he was gonna make me leave with him and i told him no... I was scared of both of you but it was something really wrong with him he help and i told him you were gonna help him and he got mad i wouldn't leave with him and he just started hitting me. Im not sure how but i got his gun off his hip and shot him... I killed him." For the first time in years i saw a part of my dad that havent seen since i was little girl.

"Brittany who are you talking about?" my Uncle 8 looked pissed off and so did Shadow.

I took a deep breath "Uncle Pac." my dad eyes snapped to me so fast i thought i was tripping.

"Did you just tell me you killed my BestFriend?" i couldnt say anything so i just nodded my head. I was scared.

My head spun as my dad punched me in the face knocking me on the floor. Tiny and Cherry screamed at him as Shadow, James, and My Uncle 8 blocked them from coming near us.

My dad squatted down to my level and i couldnt even move away from him. I deserved this i knew he would of been happier if i had just left with him.

"You are so fucking lucky you my daughter or i swear to God i would kill you." i looked my dad in his eyes and all i saw was pure hatred. My lip quivered.

"Im sorry." he shook his head before getting up.

"He did everything for you. He loved you and you repaid my bestfriend my slandering his because you couldnt keep your legs closed and then you try to justify killing him by saying he was abusing you."

As my dad spoke i realized he was right uncle Pac did take care of me. He gave me anything i asked for and he's saved me from more then i can count and all he wanted me to do was be there for him sexually.

My dad was shaking his head standing in front of the window holding his nose. Im just now realizing how much pain i had caused over the years.

You know how some kids take one bad situation with they parents and immediately think "maybe they would be happy if i wasnt here." when i was younger my dad fell out of love with her because she used to burn and cut me out of anger. My dad was in love with my ma and even she got in trouble i got in even more. And he hasnt looked at me the same since. 

I slowly stood up. "Im sorry looking back on it your right i should of with him and he would be alive and you would be happy. Im just gonna leave and you wont hear from me ever again i promise."

I left i refused to keep causing my dad pain everything changed when him and my mom called a quits which again was my fault so this is for whats best so i got in my car and just drove. I didnt think of anything when i found myself in Cali.

Maybe Cali would be a good thing for me i can just drop everything and move on start fresh. That sounded nice a clean slate.