My vision is clouded and heart heavy as a stone,
The world is crowded still I feel alone.
This pain is too much I can't bear it,
For once I want someone to at least hear it.
You're no superman can't see what's inside,
Since forever and ever all I do is hide.
My heart my dear has empty slots,
And my soul is full of Dalmatian spots.
It is so difficult to breath that my lungs burn,
Please remove this suffering, it's all I yearn.
I tried to handle it, fight it to survive,
But now I wonder if I'll make it out alive.
All you see is a beautiful smiling face,
Beneath it lays the true, ugly dark space.
I am tired of hurting myself again and again,
An attempt to even out inner and outer pain.
I can't find no cure, no path to follow,
Can't find nothing but numbness and hollow.
The true me is long gone probably dead,
Or it might be hanging on by a thread.
I am running away from my darkest thoughts,
My deepest wounds and dried blood spots.
Please make it go I can't take no more,
I am so entangled and my limbs are sore.
With every single heart beat I am losing the fight,
I wonder if I will survive through the night.
I am losing my conscious but the persisting ache,
My body is paralysed like death grip of a snake.
My mind is now clean, deprived of any dirt,
But oh my dear, why does it still hurt?
I am stuck here in a dark meadow,
No one to talk to but hear my words echo.
All I wanted was a hand to hold,
To save me from this dreadful cold.
I never asked for shining armour of a knight,
But someone to listen and hold me tight.
I always wished to love you and call you my own,
But now I wonder if you'll miss me when I'm gone.
There won't be no Ifs, no BUTs, no WHYs
I won't bother you, now that I've closed my eyes.
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A Lost Fight
PoetryBreath in= Experience____________Breath out=Poetry I have written the intro for these poems like hundreds of times but due to some technical error in Wattpad app, it keeps on vanishing. And every time my intro is different. All these poems are just...