Me Without You

Chapter 43

Dear Bennie,

God.

When was the last time since I wrote to you? It feels like ages, maybe it has been a few years since I've done this.

College is....definitely an experience. New people and newer experiences. 

I hate to say, but I really wish you were here to see how different life is as a legal adult. It was is crazy the amount of shit I see on a daily basis. 

I'm almost done, but I did have fun on this journey. I decided to follow my writing passion and now I'm an intern at a newspaper agency. It's new and it's nice pay; especially since I'm friends with the boss. She's really nice and has great connections.

I feel strange writing to you. I thought I would honestly never stopped, but from graduation night those years ago, to now time just became an illusion. Doesn't mean I forgot about you, I think I didn't have time to reminisce about that time.

I kept up with my promise and so did Q. We visit you for at least an hour on your birthday, and this year is no different, but I'm going home a bit earlier. My mom is getting married. Jacob finally asked the question and she's really excited. 

She wanted it as close to your birthday because she knows I'll be home. I kept my promise with you; I promised to never stop loving you and I swear I haven't. I haven't loved anyone like I love you and I don't think that'll be changing ever.

I guess I can give you an update as well. I'll start off with Mindy.

She's doing great; she finishing her last semester and she has a really good job; she works for Google; she does some analysis thing. It sounded really important and had the word date in the job description. She and Bria are still together and Bria finally came out to her parents. They knew and were really supportive. 

Jessica is a social media influencer and is really popular on Instagram and what not. It fits her personality; she also has a job as a journalist for this really popular website; called CelebGoss. Basically she interviews celebrities for gossip and mess. She is perfect for the job.

I also have some really ironic shit; her brother Jason is gay. He came out a few months after school was finished. He told Jessica he was afraid because he saw how bad you were bullied. I wanted to be so mad, but at least he's living his truth; I guess.

Quinton is coping a bit better. Last year he told me he met someone and I am really happy for him. He was a bit ashamed to tell me, but I told him it was time for him to move on. He was afraid to, but I know this is what you want him to do so I hope he and his new beau are still good. I'll see him in a few days.

Ricky and I are still cool. He finished last year, he did school year round. He graduated with honors and it was my first time in Louisiana. I loved it there and we even visited New Orleans. It was definitely a sight to see; literally strip clubs on the street and drunk people and parades. It was an experience.

Now for the final person, I know you're begging to hear about.

Darian.

I guess time was an illusion for him too, because after my first semester here we seemed to lose focus on our friendship. I guess being on the opposite sides of the world does that to you. We tried to keep in contact, but it became a job. And that's not how friendships work; you know.

It sucks because I miss him dearly, but I hope he is happy.

I dated a few people here and there, but nothing too serious. A few hook ups as well, but again no one caught my eye.

Time has skipped by Bennie and although I don't burst in tears when I hear your name, the pain is still there. The wound isn't healed and it won't ever be, but time did mend it a bit.

Until then,

Roxie