Unofficially Mine [FIN.] (Editing)

DIECISEIS.

I received compliments from my family, Allen’s family and different business people that night.

And I can’t help but to smile wholeheartedly :)) But ya know, sad pa rin si sister niyo kasi yung taong naging inspirasyon ng pagpapaganda ko, eh hindi pinansin yung effort ko. :((

Anyway, I won’t let that thought ruin my night. Maraming anak na lalake ang mga negosyante sa party. I need to do some nice impression kahit ngayong gabi lang. Emo ako eh.

(LOL. Hanlande !!! Hahahah!)

Di ba guys, kahit di mo nakikita ng diretso, nararamdaman mo pa ring may nakatitig sa’yo. And guess what, I do think that Allen stares at me secretlyyy. Goooooooooooooooosh! Is it that wonderful? :’>>>>>>

Sa tuwing tinitingnan ko naman siya, eh agad niyang iniiwas yung tingin niya. Oh my. ANONG SAY NIYO????? *kileeeeg!*

Bigla namang tumayo si Tito Henry and Tita Ella pati sina mama at papa at nakipag handshake sa isang business couple.

“Oh is that you Amanda? You look stunning! Such a big girl na eh?” Tita Ella refers to the pretty girl beside the couple..

And I must agree. She really is pretty. From the diamond earrings, crystal locket and elegant dress.. Taob na taob ang beauty ko..

I suddenly felt Allen stirred beside me. I don’t know why pero kinabahan naman ako bigla..

Tumingin naman si mama sa side ko and pinalapit ako sa kanila..

Tatayo na sana ako when Allen intertwined his fingers on me..

Syempre nagulat ako coz he never displayed public of affection with me aside dun sa clinic.. He just smiled at me..

But I know Allen too well that it doesn’t reach his eyes. I kinda feel guilty because he didn’t have to do this.

 And ano baaaaaaa, hindi ko naman siya sinabihan na hawakan kamay ko ano!

“Amanda dear, I supposed you remember my son, Allen, and this is Jackie, his fiancée.” Pagpapakilala ni Tita Ella sa amin..

I smiled to Amanda as she smiled back at me..

When she faced Allen and they stared with each other intently, my insecurities started to rise in my system..

Wala rin namang rason para hindi ako ma-insecure. She’s more beautiful compared to me. Ang ganda ng buhok. Ang kinis ng kutis. Hindi ko naman sinasabing hindi ako kagandahan. Pero you know, I’m just afraid that she catches Allen’s attention.. :(

And teka nga! May binanggit si Tita Ella kanina na remember chuchu.. Ano ba yon? posible ba silang magkakilala na ni Allen from the past? That thought scares me. :(( Geez.

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Lumalalim na ang gabi at pagod na pagod na pagod na pagod na ako..

Mukhang wala pa atang balak umuwi sina mama. And sad to say, hindi ko rin mahagilap si Allen..

After kasi nung encounter kanina with Amanda eh nagpaalam siya sa akin na magpapahangin muna.. Pero hanggang ngayon eh hindi pa siya bumabalik sa loob.. Haaaaay..

Napagdesisyunan ko na ring lumabas at magpahangin. I heard may rooftop garden daw dito eh..

As I reached the door to the rooftop, I sighed successfully.. Muntik pa kasi akong ma-stuck sa elevator eh! TT_TT

Dahan-dahan kong binuksan yung door. And the loud breeze of air outside harshly touches my skin.. Hmm. mukhang uulan ata ah..

Nagulat naman ako ng bigla akong nakarinig ng isang iyak.. At first, it was creepy. But as soon as I realized what it is, I am now curious.

Yung iyak eh nagmula sa isang babae. And I think may kausap siya.. Kinakabahan ako.. And I know eavesdropping is wrong but I can’t help it. It’s killing me..

Isinandal ko yung sarili ko sa wall hiding myself from them..

Wala nang nagsasalita. Puro soft cries and sobs lang yung nasa ere..

Laking pagsisisi ko naman nang iniwan ko yung shawl ko sa venue.. Hanlameeeeeeeeeeeg eeeeeh :///

Biglang tumahimik yung paligid and I suddenly have the urged to peek..

And nung sumilip na ako..

There I saw a lady chastely kissing a man with her hands on his nape and his hands on her waist.

Alam kong mali tong ginagawa ko. pero di magawa ng paa ko ang tumalikod at umalis..

When they parted, I was shock..

Because as their face registered to my mind..

Hindi ako makapaniwala..

Si Allen lang naman kasi ang nakikipaghalikan kay Amanda

And there, My Prince, My Babe, My Love, My Allen, broke my heart once again

Di ko na mapigilan ang patak ng mga luha ko.. I turned my back on them with tears running down my face as I searched for a shoulder to cry on. TT_TT