love is confusing

perfect.

-sero boi pov-

(short chapter, sorry) well, i've known I was gay for a while now but, I never thought I'd fall for denki kaminari. the biggest crackhead in the whole world probley, much less our school. but he is so funny! and he is so, so cute! he actually Isn't as dumb as he, and most people think he is. sure, he's not the brightest. like when he told me that the color of a lemon was called lemon, just like how an orange is orange. if you take the time to work with him, he will get it. he really tries, I know he does. he is also really sweet. I love his blush, his smile, his laugh, legit everything about him is so perfect to me. damn, I mean, h/e's just so perfect. I'm just...i'm sure he likes girls. It's obvious. but, If I could just kiss him one time. If I could just- No! no! not those bitchy sexual thoughts again. see, recently, I've been having more...graphic..thoughts about this angel boy. It worries me sometimes. like, am I really that in love with him or am I just super horny. I honestly can't say. all I know is that, he was acting kinda weird when we were walking this morning. though, I can't say much, I basically told him he was cute and then ran away blushing. I'm supposed to be taking notes but, I already know this and, why focus when I can just stare at him being all cute and slightly confused. he looks like he has something else on his mind though. something important maybe. I want to kiss him so bad but I can't. but..I can. even if he hates it. I would hate to ruin our friendship but, it's getting really bad. I want him. I need him. and if I can't be with him,I-I-I just hope that no matter what happens that he is happy. even if he becomes a fucking criminal. as long as he is happy, heathly and as long as he gets the best life he can live. I only hope I can give him that. You know, A happy life. I want to make his life better, just like how he made my life so perfect when i'm with him. you know what, I'm gonna do it. I'm so gonna kiss him. except, this time, when I'm embarassed I'm not gonna run away. I'm gonna confess.