I loved Arabella to hell & back but as of right now she is being the devil. She is always moody & complaining, she's never fun & can't take a joke. Arabella is a month pregnant & I cant take it, now imagine 9 months. To say the truth I am scared straight, if it's a boy then I know it'll be easy but if it's a girl I know I will lose my mind! I can't have a daughter, I could barely handle Arabella. & to say the truth again, I don't know what Arabella & I are considered at the moment but I knew I loved her. Jay likes having both of us together in one house & he likes rubbing Arabella's stomach every chance he gets. It's been a year since we moved into our new house & Jay has already turned 6. All his hair is getting really curly, he is starting to act exactly like Arabella, he is very smart & enjoys his homework, no words could begin describing how proud he has made me.
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When Arabella reached two months her stomach was even big it still looked like a small baby bump. The baby kicks a lot & very hard, it's amazing to watch because it's so phenomenal no matter how many times you've seen it but the downfall is Arabella has bruised ribs so any movement causes pain. Arabella was always in the need for a massage so evidently, I had to give her one. Jay was always trying to help out with everything but because Arabella was in so much pain she would get mad & yell. I never understood how she always complained about all the back pain because she had a very small stomach. I knew I wasn't the pregnant one but damn, it felt like I was because I was always moody also. It's just Arabella's behavior affects everyones else's & it changes our attitude, I felt bad because sometimes I would yell at Jay then he would cry & I hated that a lot.
Although it may seem as though it's rainy & bad we are having a lot of sunshine also. Jay doesn't play guitar anymore but he plays drums (it's okay though, I'm still proud of him) we jam together all the time & it amazed me because he was so young yet so talented. Jay & I cook dinner every night while Arabella rests. Arabella bought some games & we play them together all the time, Jay loves 'Trouble' & so did bell. Arabella started doing yoga, I would start writing songs, & Jay would start making beats. Everything was on point.
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Arabella didn't have a big stomach but then again she was only going on 3 months. Today was the day, we are gonna find out the baby's gender. Jay fell asleep durning the car ride so I had to carry him, he was a tall 6 year old. We waited for only 10 minutes before we had to go into the room & luckily, Jay woke up just in time to see the baby in Arabella's stomach on the t.v screen. "What's that?" Jay pointed at the screen "This is the head..." the doctor pointed out, Arabella smiled at me, even though the color was in black & white I thought our baby was perfect. "wow!" I smiled widely when the baby turned & I got a glimpse of the face but because it wasn't good quality you couldn't see well although I would bet my life that the baby stared at me & smiled. Then the doctor moved the sensor all around "& the gender of the baby is-"
