I'm so in over my head, I don't even remember seeing the light.
I didn't acknowledge the fact that I was drowning myself, slowly accepting my losses.
Losing everything important to me was the first wake up call.
Yet I still fell into a deeper hold.
I feel like I can't stop myself.
Like my mind had put a barrier between my goals, my hopes.
What I want to do and who I want to be.
I know I want to pull myself out, but it seems impossible.
Because all I see are murky waters and an endless bottom.
I yearn for freedom, but all I do is dream.
Going around and around with my actions.
Only having useless ideas and wishes.
Never acting upon them, but always wanting to.
And I really do want to work my way out.
In order to do that I need to find myself.
I have lost my restaurant, my dignity, my hope, my value, my eagerness, my freedom, my easygoing moments.
I just want my life back.
But i'm so in over my head, I don't even remember seeing the light.
*A/N: Yes it is scrambled. But I am just expressing how I feel.*
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Just Jenny
PoetryJust a glimpse into my mind. Or if you want a better synopsis, read below. I like to type out my feelings into poems with no actual structure. I hope to make you laugh sometime and even cry because I just do. Warning: these come from angsty teenag...
