I'm so sick of being sad
I'm so sick of how every song reminds me of you
Reminds me of what used to be
Maybe you don't notice
My emotions are running wild
And when the memories become too much
My tears flow like a waterfall
.
I'm so sick of missing you
I'm so sick of all of the memories, the feelings
I know it may not seem that way
But I'm still hurting
And I realize I'm far from over you
You pushed me into talking
When I wasn't ready yet
.
I'm so sick of tensing up around you
I'm so sick of cowering
Whenever you -or anyone for that matter- move your arms
Even just when you talk
Or you just simply stand next to me
Flashbacks cloud my mind
Your face, hurt written all over it
Your hand, coming out of nowhere
Your retreating back, disappearing in the crowd
My heart, shattered
.
I'm so sick of my feelings
Changing every single second
I'm so sick of that feeling as if I can't breathe when we talk, as if I'm not supposed to
When we try to act as if nothing's wrong
Or is it just me?
And above all, I absolutely hate
That I can't hate you
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